The Feelings you'll Never See?

Question

The hole is becoming wider with the burning flame of a dead society the shards of my protective world break and fall to pieces on the shield of my heart so you wont understand me and you never will you just cant see the damage done to me and still… my pain is beyond words now… so let me slowly kill myself to prove a point…an eerie silence is in my head wishing that I was dead to see just what lies behind the door of sleeping heads … aching back and neck is just the signs of the reason why we just can see eye to eye…we try to fit the image of the society dead…a place so fake….and yet we all fall in place…well I’m taking a chance and stepping out...I’m tired of the lies. I’m tired of the game of life and all is said…life’s so cruel but we hang on like spiders to webs…. death is such a misconception…its true it is sneaky but at least it tries to hurry about and take your life but NO life makes you cling on to the pain of the world…a little laugh should heal it right…a little laugh will hold me tight…a little laugh is all I know…to make this pain just a… So…. I see you and you think you see me …you want to me to be the normal one...well let me give you a little whisper of doubt… when I’m gone and flying high to leave this pain all behind…to see you all die just to fall in line… so let me be just who I be can you not close your mouth just to see what happens to me… you’re all blind wishing to see…well I see and you should just leave that be…the feelings I have inside are still a mystery to me...but I see you and you think you see me…this is not true...believe…I have given up on the hopes and dreams of a fantasy cause now I see what I truly want to be…but see you don’t understand me…so this gap between us will be there for ever more...until the day I settle the score…you can say its equal and fade away but you wont see me until I open the door…of all that’s locked in side my Pandora’s box for humans never to touch… Oh…but let me tell you all about the emotions bubbling in me…. Just a tub of water over flowing into a light …so here it is you figure it out…if you solve the equation maybe you can finally see…. So I see the truth behind life’s key but I’m lost at sea so how can that be, I see you, you cant see me I’m hidden in the dark of the place within everyones heart just the key…so believe…I run and I hide to cling on to pride…I die…I escape the light …I’m in every medicine cabinet…above every sink … and everyone thinks of me… So…mother…guess what I happen to be…

Answer 1

Amazing!Indeed feelings can only be felt not seen.
I wish you'd expressed in verse form.
. . . . wonder what you mean by 'sleeping heads' here,
"an eerie silence is in my head wishing that I was dead to see just what lies behind the door of sleeping heads"

Feeling depressed? haunted and hunted by forces of the dark!!

"I’m tired of the lies. I’m tired of the game of life and all is said…life’s so cruel but we hang on like spiders to webs…."

- yes that spider/web image may not be appropriate to illustrate the cruelty of life!! Visualize spiders and their webs! They spin them those poor creatures condemned by the goddess, thanks to arachne's magnificent artistry and pride. They dont 'hang' onto the webs. they trap other insects by the web. hence not quite capturing the trials and tribulations of life!

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"death is such a misconception…its true it is sneaky but at least it tries to hurry about and take your life but NO life makes you cling on to the pain of the world…a little laugh should heal it right…"

Sure? yes death's sneaky.

This next detail remains rather suspended! in "just a...."

"a little laugh will hold me tight…a little laugh is all I know…to make this pain just a… "

No matter, it is indeed a very fantastic mind-bender composed in futuristic mode, a unique elastic sentiment only befitting the deities at a heavenly feast!


cheers!

Answer 2

wow thats deep, it is like i feel, but you put it into better words then i could have ever done. good job and hope you find what you are looking for in life, i have just begun my search.