Deep impressions for me, usually come from the small things, these days. From my past experiences: a friend was having trouble in the pool, I helped her out. She said I saved her life. I didn't do anything, didn't even remember it.
A guy I knew was in deep - I talked to him, talked to everyone, I was frantic! He shot alot of people. I tried too hard, because everyone was freaking out. Nobody else wanted to deal with him, they were afraid of him. I met him in an empty building one night while he was ranting, raving, waving a gun and talking about killing our boss. I wasn't afraid for myself. There was never a question about that man hurting me. I would never let him stay alone around my kid, I didn't trust him, but I never feared him because I always had control. I was scared of what he would do to others, but I never feared him. I thought he would kill other people, but not me. He did kill others and I felt guilty. Horribly guilty, because I knew I was safe. I was safe because I was the closest thing to a friend the guy had ever known. I hated the DA's coming to my house, I hated the calls, I hated the insinuations, inferences and accusations!
I hated being called his friend! I was nice to the guy because my husband liked him. I was nice to many people because my husband invited them over. My house was like Grand Central Station! I stayed nice to many of those people, even after I was divorced and I never liked them, from the get go.
I helped my boss clean up blood in a church shooting and listened to him, like a year later. I can't even go to church, 'cause it tears me up. I can't explain why, but the VT shooting had a huge impact on me. I was already down and it felt personal, similar. I just bailed on school.
There's no way I can explain the similarities, but I feel them.
I bailed out on counseling, on my family, I've retreated from the world, once again. People are scary and dangerous!
School means alot to me and I signed up for English and Math. Horrid, dreaded courses! I'm on probation and this semester is tough. Two research papers and impromptu essays in English. I can't even focus on math.
I sleep most of the day away and this is the most difficult time I've ever had in life. Getting through the day without saying, "screw it" and getting drunken, is tough!
There comes a time when even tough people lose it. Typical problems like being alone, broke, single parent, broke car, no car, messed up plumbing...those I can handle. It's the big stuff that truly shows ones character and I'm just not sure I'm up to it.
I've been going to school every day for two weeks. I worked out my stuff from last semester and now I have a big-time commitment with my CS instructor.
I don't care how many shootings, domestic violence, hurricanes and whatever one encounters, you don't really get over it, because you're strong. Sooner or later, all the strength is gone. Used up, worn out, it's just not there. It's time to call a "Time Out", either that, or I want off this crazy merry-go-round!
I wanted to commit suicide for a while, but I'm just too damned stubborn. Sometimes I cry, but it doesn't help. Instead, I either sleep alot, eat alot, or drink alot...for now. Enough time goes by while I'm in retreat, and I'll regain my strength. I was ready for the world in 2000. I even started dating. Life was grand, until the boyfriend moved in and I didn't have the heart to kick him out! Worse mistake I ever made. Domestic violence.
But now I stay at home, don't date, I'm in school and my life sucks, because I'm scared. It's just another phase.
2007-06-10 19:06:19
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answered by muppetkiller_2000 5
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Looking up into a star-filled sky inspires me more than anything else (in nature) because it makes me feel so small and insignificant and I realize that all my problems and worries are insignificant because this planet is but a tiny grain of sand in the Mojave Desert. From that point of view, I start thinking about other worlds and other life forms and I wonder about whether or not there's some other Life Form out there thinking the same thoughts I'm thinking.
The whole process clears my mind and makes this thing I call "Life" a more meaningful experience.
2007-06-10 17:51:43
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answered by miri-miri-off-the-wall 5
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The first time I observed the Rocky Mountains in Banff Alberta, Canada I achieved an amazing peaceful feeling. I got the impression that God (or just nature if you're atheist) is great and perfect and permanent. My human body and troubles and challenges are temporary and usually trivial. I can overcome anything and everything is temporary in my life. But the force within me that created myself and all nature is real and permanent.
2007-06-10 17:39:02
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answered by Anonymous
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for me it's the ocean, and the bush. When i'm feeling a bit bottled up I hear this calling inside and says to me that I need some time out at the beach to be in deep thought with the elements it's like a meditation for me, and I feel great afterwards. And the bush has the same affect.
2007-06-10 17:52:38
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answered by Anonymous
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Sometimes the worst things in life can bring the most unexpected blessings. I have 4 sons. Some of my best times with them occurred in the emergency room. Though it wasn't happy circumstances, it was a bonding experience. It let them know that they were important to me, and that I would be there for them. Look for the good, and you will find it.
2007-06-10 17:51:44
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answered by katwoman 4
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I don't know how this answer would do that, but thunderstorms. The power of a great storm makes a person feel so insignificant. Also, the ocean. Even when it's calm it's impressive.
2007-06-10 17:47:00
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answered by shermynewstart 7
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Get out of the trench you're in and start living, dude! Your questions suggest you are buried 6 feet under and cannot by any means help anybody as you wish (as stated above) b/c you aren't self-sufficient.
2007-06-10 17:36:17
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answered by kiikart 3
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My mom would say a chic having a baby, In nature I don't think mush is inspiring.
2007-06-10 17:35:57
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answered by Derek 3
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watching a live birth
2007-06-10 17:38:19
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answered by Anonymous
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