About 6 years ago I got an A grade for my A-level maths. However in one of the modules I took in a program (on my casio calculator) to use in an exam, and this was strictly forbiden.
When I created the program I was so chuffed at that achievement that I just wanted to test it out!
One thing I know for sure is that had I not taken the program in I am 100% sure I would have got an A grade anyway. BUT I still feel guitly!
Since then I have got a Maths BSc butI still feel guitly because of this A-level thing, I feel as though my BSc is not genuine since I only got onto it cos of my tainted A-level.
So the question begs Why do I still feel guilty about it?!!! And please this is not trivial- it really is eating up at me to the point where Im depressed.
I am thinking about calling the A-level board so that I can renounce my grade, as I see this as being the only way of removing the guilt that I have
And I have stopped applying for Jobs as I feel my qualifacations are false.
2007-06-03 06:37:10 · 21 answers · asked by Anonymous in Social Science ➔ Psychology
Yes I'm afraid guilt is the price for cheating. However you are not alone and should be proud that you have a conscience about it, and will probably never do such a thing again.
My advice is forget it, put it behind you and move on.
2007-06-03 06:43:51 · answer #1 · answered by Spiny Norman 7 · 3⤊ 0⤋
The Maths BSc has abrogated the wrongness of the maths A level, so stop wasting your time worrying about it. Exam injustice happens all the time.
I was one of three students who passed the 11+ many years ago. I came second out of the three of us. But only two grammar school places were allocated to our school, so the teacher announced to the whole class that the boy who came third would get my place "because he was a boy" But she thought I would like to know that I was actually very bright, and were it not for my unfortunate gender, I'd have got the grammar school place!
The boy who got my place became an Insurance Clerk, he's a boring, right wing, unhappy jerk. After a misspent youth, I finally got a degree in my thirties (a 2:2 since you ask) have established a successful business and am now a published poet. I wouldn't change places with that miserable nerd for anything (and I'm richer than him too!)
Supposing your paper had been wrongly marked down ? Supposing you were not the only one sitting that paper who had a bit of help ? If I can leave the bitterness of my injustice behind, then you can leave your guilt behind, but if you really can't - why not simply sit the A level again ? You could say you want to see if you could still pass it today.
Nothing in life is fair. Nothing. Lay down that burden man !
2007-06-03 06:58:27 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
Please give yourself a break. No you shouldn't have cheated in your A levels but you did and its past. What your saying now is that you wish to have integrity in your life so continue to act with integrity from now on.
You did something wrong like we all do at some point so forgive yourself for just being human. In fact applaud yourself for creating a program that worked. Shame your not applying for a job as i'm sure this skill would be useful for some company.
You were awarded a BSc in Maths because of the grades you got in the second and third year of your degree not because of past grades you got in other courses. Don't dishonour the hard work you put into this for a past mistake.
If you are feeling depressed then talk things over with someone you trust and seek help. Maybe you are a perfectionist so beat yourself up for not being perfect. This can only lead to loss of self esteem, anxiety and sometimes depression as you can never live up to your ideals. No one could. Learn to accept yourself, forgive yourself, start looking for work and try your best to enjoy the rest of your life.
So repeat after me "I am human, make mistakes, learn from them and thats okay."
Even if you did try and renounce your A grade you would still have a BSc in Maths because you earned it. Congratulations on that by the way.
Best wishes
2007-06-03 08:21:22 · answer #3 · answered by Stella 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You have to give yourself a break.
Guilt is a powerful emotion left unresolved it will undermind your whole being.
You still feel like this because, it gets in the way of how u feel about yourself.YOU achieved a BSc and should feel proud of yourself,but your conscience knows the truth.
YOU have carried this around to long, now u have to start letting go of it, no court or sentence could make you feel the way u do, that is the price and punishment paid in full.
If u still find it hard to feel good about yourself,why not try
voluntary work helping others, with maths
2007-06-05 03:00:31 · answer #4 · answered by ? 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
This is you conscience haunting you and you should feel guilty only if you taunt people about the A Level....that you are SOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOD Ata Maths.
Firstly you deserve your A Level because you got it awarded to you... and you escaped detection in the exam and you had the ingenuity of taking a prgrammed calculation with you....
It is up to people to get spotted cheated and then be disqualified so look at it like this....and see it as a lucky escape and dont do it again...
The maths degree should be taxing you more and if you are worried that you might not be able to cope with the degree because you did cheat in the Al level that is more realistic...
2007-06-03 06:47:16 · answer #5 · answered by Pandora 5 · 2⤊ 0⤋
If you are 100% sure that you would have gotten an A grade even without the program, then your qualifications are not false and you do not need to renounce the grade. But if you want to expunge the guilt you feel by confessing what you did, you might decide to go and talk to your old professor or the A-level board and ask for advice about how to right that wrong. It seems you may need to do that in order to forgive yourself and get on with your life.
2007-06-03 06:50:12 · answer #6 · answered by RE 7 · 0⤊ 2⤋
Why feeling guilty over that? So many people have cheated through their exams and they don't feel the slightest remorse or regret over that. Calling the A-level board and telling them that is the worst mistake you could ever make in your life.
Are you aware of the consequences? If you are sure you would have passed it anyway, then why feeling guilty?
Just forget about it and move on and don't become obessed with that.
2007-06-03 06:43:53 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
You got an A and say you would have passed anyway right? Therefore stop feeling so guilty, you're obviously bright to study to BSc level so please stop beating yourself up. We all do stuff we regret but as times passes the guilt lessons, I think this will stay with you for a while as you obviously are worried but I don't think there is any reason to confess all. As for the job situation please don't stop applying. People have done far,far worse, you're obviously bright and talented don't let this taint it for you. Good luck.
2007-06-03 08:11:55 · answer #8 · answered by hms638 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
What is done is done. There is no going back. Think to yourself what would you achieve if you contacted the A-level board and told them what you had done. You have to live with what you did back then and try to move on. I think if you can get it into your head that you are the only person that you have hurt. Try to forget it and go on with your life. You have learnt a valuable lesson. Don't let the past ruin your future. Good luck.
2007-06-03 06:45:21 · answer #9 · answered by JillPinky 7 · 2⤊ 0⤋
That's just right. That's life. You must do all of the things for you to become the greatest among others. That's called surviving. One way to become like that is to cheat. I do that in critical times. So DON'T EVER think about CALLING the A-LEVEL BOARD!! (Not a smart thing to do).
2007-06-03 06:46:47 · answer #10 · answered by XxXReign_TrixXxX 1 · 2⤊ 0⤋