anyone out there who would care if i left this earth by suicide?

Question

probaly not, but it does help me a little when i know that people "care" about me....

my mother wouldn't care, she is the one who emotionally abuses me!!

i know that none of you know me, and that yall think this is a joke, but it's not, and you don't have to go through what i got through every day!! i have to have enough strength to make it through the day, to not cry becuase it is a form of weakness in my mother's and step-father's eyes...i wish you guys could feel what i feel...then you would now what it's like, to feel neglected, mistreated, abused, like someone stabbed a really sharp knife through your soul...i wish you only knew..

Answer 1

I don't know you. We've never met. Think of the people who will never be blessed by your presence if you leave us. Think of the lovely children who will never have a mother if you aren't around to have them! I'm sure you have a talent -- you're probably musically inclined or you can dance, or maybe you have a sweet, tender heart. Someone on this earth needs to be touched and blessed by you. Don't leave! Stay. I wish we could be friends and I wish I could reach out to you right now. I care, and I'm only a ghost, but I still care.

Answer 2

I know about abuse but not the stabbing. If they don't care you care. Love yourself. Take care of yourself . Be your own best friend. The heck with them. If you were to hurt yourself, you are harming you not them. Listen. I know a few people who have committed suicide. But one was family. He had been abused as a child by his parents. As a teen he met an older woman. About 5 or more years older then him. He thought the world of her. They had children together. She manipulated him like one would an animal. Do to her being older and knowing of the world. Well she had him so convinced that she was his daylight. That when that B cheated on him. He stayed with her. She made such an emotional mess of the guy. That he lost all hope. After attempting suicide a few times he finally succeeded. What did that do. But give her the freedom to do what she wanted to do. Which was fool around with as many men, as she could get willing to play to her wicked ways. I don't know how old you are. But at some time you will be old enough to be on your own. Even now if someone hurts you just dial 911.
At this site there are many tips to seek help with depression. Whatever you decide. Do not hurt yourself. There is only one of you. And if they don't care, there are people who do. http://www.anxiety.com

Answer 3

Trust me, I know exactly what you are feeling. I have been there and done it for so long, that I am ever so grateful for it. Why you would ask....well, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. There is no pun intended either.

But for you to even think of doing that, is the most cowardly way for anyone to go. Just because maybe your parents won't care, doesn't mean that your friends and extended family won't care. You need to seriously think of the long term effect this could have of anyone, including your best friend.

I have lost many friends to suicide, and they all to suffered abuse, but they got the help that they needed. They went to therapy, and found ways of expressing themselves, without going to extremes.

I know that now it feels like the whole world is against you, but it isn't. If you open your eyes and accept any help that is offered, take it. Then you will understand what I mean by what doesn't hurt, makes you stronger.

Answer 4

Even before the movie, there has been a thing called 'The Butterfly Effect.' It's also known as the 'ripple effect' and the 'trickle down effect.,' among others.
It is the effect felt by one is created by or impacted by the affects of another. Often times these parties (the effected and affected) don't even know each other.
All of us have an impact, small and large, on the people directly around us...whether we realize it or not and in fact, whether we know them or not.
Ex: five years ago a woman cut me off on the interstate(7 lanes going in each direction) and before I knew it I was safe & sound but 6 lanes to the right of where I began. Stuck in the slow lane, I felt pressed for time & honestly pissed off that this SUV driving, cell phone talking woman had no idea that she had cut me off...leading me into cutting others off, etc.
Several minutes later a semi-truck crossed the median and came head on into my traffic. I was four cars behind the last car to get hit. I was fine, shaken, concerned & scared but fine.
Had that woman been on her cell phone argiung with her boyfriend? Had she been calling her tyrant of a boss to say she was running late? Who knows? But whoever it was...their phone call with this SUV driving woman created an effect that rippled all the way out to me...it drove me out of the fast lane ...which minutes later suffered a terrible blow, impacting close to twenty vehicles. Will the cell phone talkers ever know that they had an impact on my life? Nope.
Sometimes when we ask Why, we are asking a question with which there is no real definitive answer. We do this when we are questioning ourselves and our own values, position and worth in this world. The world can seem so vast when we are feeling loathsome.
But we gotta have faith, we gotta have trust and we gotta believe. If we can't do any of those things, blindly even at times, then we can never know love... not of ourselves nor anyone else.
Might I suggest that your life has an impact in ways you do not know & in ways that you will never know.
Furthermore, I am sure that those around you that know you love you very much. I could be wrong, but I doubt that you would have the sense to post such a question if you were not surrounded by love. You simply wouldn't care, IMHO.
Finally, can I recommend a simple and quick read, which you can pick up at the local library or Target... it's called 'The Five People You Meet in Heaven' It's a simple and quick read, but profoundly points out how we can live a lifetime feeling worthless only to find out that we had an impact and a great worth in ways we never knew.
peace/love ... people care.

Answer 5

hunni, i know how you feel i been there, i spent 3 years in a aubsive releationship, i have been negletated, forgotten about, and just miss treated by alot of ppl i would call "my friends"
i know its hard to try and make it day by day.
i also used to think it was a form of weekness to cry. but i have and i know it helps. trust me.
i was susidale from the time i was 12 till i was 22. sometimes i still feel that way, and wonder who would miss me, or if anyone would miss me if i was gone.
what i have done to try and over come all that is i have found things that i love, for me personally its mostly music that has kept me here, also i have found my job and i love that, i love gettin up and goin to work everyday. so if you can find that, find something that u can do and something that you love to do, and do it. also u have to learn to not care what anyone else thinks about u, i know that sometimes its hard, but if u try a little everyday. then u might feel a little better. i know that, thats what helped me out alot in the 10 years that i was fighting, and there was a few times when i tryed, and even after that cry for help, i didnt get anything. so i was still fighting and crying for help and gettin none. so im taken the time to write to you in hope that it will help. i know i dont know you but i would like to let u know taht i do luv you as i do everyone.

P.S. sorry bout the spellin mistakes

Answer 6

This many answers in half-no-time . . . and we don't even know you as more than a picture and a few lines of text!
1. There HAVE to be people who know you a lot better than that and who do care! If you know who at least one is, go to him or her--NOW or very soon. If not, call a suicide hotline to get you thru the right-now.
2. Find somebody who's PAID to care--usually the local government maintains a "mental health" facility of some sort where they work, churches have priests and ministers, etc.--and work out what you need to do about you and your mother. They should also be able to help you find somebody closer to you that you can rely on.
PLEASE! You've grabbed us. If it helps you to keep going, consider that now it wouldn't be FAIR to let go of life without trying to hold on! SO THERE!

Answer 7

Uh, this is scary.

You want us to care about you, because you don't care about you. And you stopped caring about you, because you've joined your enemies against you. You've become your mother and stepfather with all their abuses.

Is that really you? Believe me, I, for one, and I'm sure plenty out here have hard absolutely horrific childhoods, felt excruciating pain, but we've gotten help and put the abusive people aside (forgiven them, but know that their problems are not us--not you--their problems, their cruelty is theirs).

Think of yourself as someone else, an innocent Child of God or of the Universe, a puppy lost and abandoned and bleeding; would you kill that person, that puppy. Isn't there a more constructive way to be "put out of your misery"?

There is. Believe me, please, one can transcend torture--how much longer will you be at home? I left and found a convent that took me in until I graduated from high school and went to college. There are people out there, who do not want to see a bleeding puppy put to sleep, just because it's bleeding, people who know how to save that sweet, innocent creature and enjoin it to live and breathe and feel and have fun--there's a long future ahead of you, and you will find the strength to get to it. You will. First, first, first, please step outside you and think of you as someone you love, a friend of yours, anyone, and don't, please don't MURDER that person.

Give her a chance. The pain will subside with counseling and a community of caring people. Go and find those for yourself. When other kids were spending their money on clothes and music and all sorts of stuff, I spent mine on counselors--clinics, all my nickels! Do that, please.

Don't just leave. Don't just waste, waste, waste what could be beautiful. (And if you really believe you're hated, don't give them the satisfaction--vindictive triumph has its place, once in awhile. You'll show them. You'll live and be loved, and they'll be sorry they didn't love you properly--I remember thinking those thoughts a very, very long time ago, and I got past them, but they were a good push in the right direction for awhile.)

Stay, please! And let us know how you're doing.

Answer 8

I am sure that alot of people would care. I am sure you are a great person and the world would be at a lost if you left. I know sometimes it feel like noone cares. You have to love yourself though. I wish there was something I could do to help. Please don't do anything crazy. There will be a brighter day. God Bless. Heather

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I don't check e-mail all the time so if no immediate response i will reply.

Answer 9

Yes someone cares about you leaving this earth by suicide!!!! I don't know you but I do. The most important person in this world is the man that created the world (GOD) cares. He cares so much that he sent his son to earth. His son was physically and emotional beaten over and over again. He never gave up. I know how it feels to have a parent treat you like crap, my momma dose it to me. I often fell like am alone in this world, but everytime i think about Jesus's journey it just gives me more strength to live one more day. And then those days turn in to months and months turn into years. Now i dont know if you are religious or not but , I hope you will receive my answer. And as one of God's childern I Love You.

Answer 10

I don't know you, so I can't say for myself...but I am willing to bet that your family and friends would be devastated. Nothing in this world is worth killing yourself over. This might be the only life you have and once it's over it's over...Suicide is a very selfish act..You are robbing yourself at a chance at life, and denying your family a chance to be with you..You are also giving up the chance of anybody else getting to know you...

Oh BTW...If you really believe your mother wouldn't care than seek out Family and Child services about counseling..
If this is a genuine cry for help or attention then take control of your life and fix it.....