Thoughts Of Self Harm?

Question

I'm going through a particularly depressing time in my life, and I cut myself a couple of times back in March.Unfortunatly, my parents discovered the scars, and brought me to a psychologist, because they thought it would help, which it didn't! I said I would stop doing it, which I did, but it really pisses me off (I know that's a disturbing thing to say)
Ever since then, I can't stop thinking about cutting,and more recently,hurting myself in any way possible.Every day, I think about it, in school, with my friends, anywhere. I used to do it to distract myself from emotional pain, but now I feel I deserve the pain. I have a massive hatred for myself, and feel that I have to hurt myself to make up for annoying people.
I don't want to talk to my parents, and I mentioned how I missed cutting to my friend, which disturbed her,so apparently I'm on my own,but I don't know what to do.
I'm not sure if I'll even do anything,but I can't stop obsessing about this stuff,any advice would be great.

Answer 1

First and foremost, Your feelings are SO very Real! I am sorry that you feel this way!
I am not you so I do not exactly what is going on in your mind and heart, I can say that I relate to the very deep pain and thoughts of hurting yourself that you have expressed.
It is important to realize that your feelings are very valid. The best thing you can do for yourself is find people that feel the same way you do. People that understand what you are going through and will not disregard your feelings. You said that you don't want to talk to your parents about it and that again is very valid. Sometimes it's really hard to talk to the people that love us the most.. and even if you don't think so, your parents DO love you. I understand though that you don't want to talk to them, so here are some links that may guide in a direction of a positive support system.

http://eqi.org/cutting1.htm

http://eqi.org/cutting1.htm#How%20Can%20I%20Help?

Again I am sorry you are going through this.

I can assure you there are people that love you and can help you!

I wish you all the Best!

Answer 2

Self mutilation causes chemicals to be released in the brain that make you feel better. There are many different kinds of ways people do this (cutting, burning, ect.). But I want you to realize that your NOT weird or crazy. Many people have doen that kind of stuff. I mean it really can make you feel better it's just the danger of cutting an artery or getting an infection in the wound that makes it so dangerous. I think that you need to find another way to feel better such as a hobby or a sport of some kind. Do what I do, pick up a guitar and play what you feel until your fingers bleed. =]

There are people out there that can help..... Good Luck with everything.

Answer 3

well your not on your own, there is help if you want it.I know how you are feeling that what you are doing makes you feel like the pain will go away its like the emotional pain of the heart has become the physical pain.Or you just want to relive the pain you felt before.Mate im getting on in years now and ive got the scars up and down my arms from the burns and the cuts its not a nice stiuation to be in, go see your local GP and get a refferal to see a specialist .All the best for the future .

Answer 4

You need to find someone to communicate with. I relize that you don't want to talk to your parents. Ask yourself why that is so. Do you think that they don't care, won't listen, don't understand you? Tell them why you have such a difficult time talking to them. I will say, parents that don't care don't get there child counselling. Try to talk to them, but you have to be honest and tell them what you trutfully feel. If you "just tell them what they want to hear" you will never get the counsel that you need most. Main things is... find someone that is concerned about your welfare, that is respectable and willing to talk to you about whatever it is that is troubling you.

It sounds like you are hurting inside and do not have a positive outlook about yourself. Maybe you have no or very little self-respect. These are the things that you should discuss with someone.

I am here to tell you, there are people out there that care about you, that will love you in spite of yourself. None of that will sink in until you do the same.

There is purpose in life. There is a purpose to your life. It sounds as if you are in the battle of you life right now. Never give up! How do you do that? It takes effort. Nothing is going to change by cutting yourself. Change can only come from change.

I recently went through a "battle for my life" also and had to find life's purpose. I need hope and the strength to make positive changes in my life. I found that in Jesus Christ.... not the religion, but the real person that I now have a intimate relationship with now through His word. Once I relized that I am here on earth to serve his Will, something that has eternal meaning rather than my fruitless pursuits that really do nothing but sits and spin its wheels, I found hope and purpose. I am never alone. I am never without meaning. He made a promise to all human beings before he left us in body, but not in spirit. That promise is "if you truly seek Me, you will find Me". Before you count Him out, have you seriously seeked him?

Answer 5

I have been in a similar situation, the best thing to do is to find someone who will listen ect... even if that is a counselor. It is an addiction, so you need to break the cycle, find out WHY you want to do this, what the root cause is and go from there. Im sure there are hotlines for this, but it isnt worth doing. Find something to live for and realize that you dont deserve this, I wish there was another way for me to help. Goodluck.

Answer 6

You loss of peolple you enjoyed grow to be not a punishment for something you achieved. Or a minimum of a punishment from any imaginary divine writer. the human beings you lost have been (if by meaning lost, you advise they abandoned you) being nasty and bigoted because of the fact you achieved something they disagree with, fairly of being actual acquaintances and status by you throughout your not elementary time. i might answer the area approximately you being repentant extra helpful yet i'm fairly suffering to realize it. If by asking that, you advise are you fairly regretting it and sorry for it, then in basic terms you could understand the respond. while you're conscious of the certainty which you probably did not intentionally self-harm your self because of the fact you get exhilaration out of doing it, yet because of the fact of melancholy etc. - a psychological and emotional situation which you're actually not on top of issues of - and employing it as a manner of liberating such thoughts, once you experience such as you're subsidized right into a corner with out incorrect way of coming up your self experience extra helpful... then you definately will understand which you do be apologetic approximately doing it and are sorry for it. in accordance to Catholic theology... sure, you will hell. you will grow to be a tree interior the wood of suicides. in accordance to technological information and fact... no. there is not any such place as hell. you will get on with something of your life and have no concerns of such terrible, fictional places. I desire you each and every of the main suitable mutually with your self-harm issues.

Answer 7

Number one...what you give your attention to grows...Quit giving it power...keep your mind on good things not bad.
Number two...are you a Christian? have you ever gave your heart to Christ? If not you need to...if so, I can see...you are fighting...two spirits...unless you are born again...you cannot fight them..alone.. depression is a spirit and so is self-mutilation. And I have found when any bad spirit bound in prayer...hightails the second the person plauged with it believes its power is broken...the same with the spirit of self-mutilation....the truth will set you free... and all has to bow its knee to Jesus....above, below and in the earth...quit giving your power away...look at what you love to do...forgive yourself....love yourself....you are brave enough to call out for help...your cry is heard and prayers are lifted in your behalf....start saying out loud -all is well with my soul. go to www.thesecret.tv go to secret gifts-then scroll down to the girl on the grass and watch the video....try to give yourself the same chance you would give to the one person or thing you love more than anything else...and know this..when you hurt yourself...you are hurting us all....for we are all one...and we want to help you to learn to love and live again....give yourself a chance here...your worth it....I pray the spirits plagueing you are now bound...and cannot torment you any longer...now all you have to do is believe it too....not by what you see.....by what you believe...blessings...hope this helps...

Answer 8

Oh Gosh you are indeed in a bad way .....I would suggest you get a personal Therapist ...or someone who would explain to you why your thoughts are going haywire like that.... quickly....but you will have to listen and learn.... to change Ok please get help.