What's the matter with me?

Question

I basically just asked this question but I just need more answers, I'm pretty much going crazy over here.

I met a senior tonight at a play I went to. She was in the play, she's quite the actress. She's graduating in a month and I'm a freshmen. She had a huge impact on me within seconds. She made eye contact with me a few times while she performed and I was transfixed. When she wasn't performing, she was off to the side (the show was improv comedy, very informal)and she oozed confidence. Confidence basically radiated off of her. She's gorgeous, but not your normal 'popular senior'. She's not all that popular, I feel like she doesn't care what anyone thinks, and yet everyone likes her. She seems flawless. Even though I don't know her, I'm terribly upset that she's graduating. We've bumped into each other in the bathrooms and stuff in the past before and I was entranced by her even then and I'm wishing that that'll happen again. What's going on? How can I ease my irrational pain?

Answer 1

Three more years of school can have quite an effect on one's personality. Many freshmen are in awe of those seniors who seem to have their act together. And the mere appearance of self-confidence is very attractive at any age. Some pursue the popularity route. Some try to cultivate an outsider image. And some few genuinely work at trying to become their own person, engaged but not enslaved.

You have a crush, an infatuation. It happens all the time around your age. Be careful though, in expressing you admiration. Either the other person may be uncomfortable with your sudden awe or she may be perfectly comfortable with the alotment of friends she already has. A simple complement, and perhaps a wish that you could perform as well as she, is probably enough. You might want to determine exactly what it is about her that attracts you so and use that as a source of inspiration for your own development, either by emulation or allegorically.

This is a new experience for you, and such experiences tend to induce panic, a fear that you'll never have such a fulfilling opportunity again. Be patient. It will happen again, when you don't expect it. But each time you will be more ready and better able to appreciate why you appreciate it so.

Enjoy the memory, but don't seek to repeat the experience. Instead, learn from it and use it to direct you toward developing your own self-assurance and your own ability to inspire others.

Answer 2

A part of you probably finds her to be all that you wish for yourself to be. Not sure how to ease it other then just allow time to ease the loss of this wanted-for roll model. By the middle or end of summer you may likely not care all that much anymore.

Maybe she was just meant to be more of an example to put you on the path to your own self and her job is already done.

Answer 3

first by accepting it is not irrrational we are all drawn to others by some unseen force. if a christian Pray and ask God's help. then when you find your self thinking about her CHANGE that thought.
do not keep things that remind you of her ie a photo. and avoid meeting her. Time added to the above is the answer.
accept that you may never fully forget her and if a christian Dont forget to pray ask for God's help

Answer 4

If you're asking about your sexual orientation, you're really too young to know at this point. It's possible you're sexually attracted to her, but more likely you've simply developed an infatuation with an older girl that you admire which is quite normal and common.

Answer 5

Take acting lessons and build your self esteem.

Answer 6

everyone has stuff like this. concentrate on your own friends, and getting to know her will soften the image that she is perfection =)

Answer 7

"Nothing matters much and most things do not matter at all"

Have you heard of the story "This will also pass"?