How should I help myself, I am feeling so f***ing suicidal?

Question

I just had an unsuccessful suicide attempt, I had a feeling that it might not work while I was slitting my wrist. I had my stay at the ward came home watched TV but I just cant feel any better.

I miss this girl I just don't want to stop thinking about. I miss her son whom I adore as my own child. They are the world to me.

I know what to do. Go to therapy, take pills, go out, and everything that the psychiatrist said. But I don't want to move on.

How can you stop missing someone whom you love as your own child. I pray to God that no one will ever have to go through the pain of missing their child.

Answer 1

Suicide isn't a choice. It's what some people are compelled to do when their pain outweighs their ability to cope. Most people don't want to kill themselves, but they do want their pain to go away.

I'm going to go out on a limb and say this:

If you love this kid, isn't it a good thing that he doesn't have to see you in this mental agony? You will see him again, but you have to get past this suicidal phase and you should be grateful that he doesn't have to experience you while you're feeling so badly. He deserves to see you, but when you're in better shape, rather than desperate and in such pain to the point of killing yourself. That's hard on kids.

Work on yourself first, and do all that stuff the psychiatrist talks about. This girl and her son deserve to have you be some sort of part of their lives. What they don't deserve is to have to either 1) rescue you (temporarily) from this depression or 2) deal with the fact that you killed yourself because they didn't.

Answer 2

killing yourself is not not a solution. it is painful. u have all my sympathies. and i can understand your fondness for being part of family. loosing love is one of the most painful experiences. and living through the loss is going to be terrible.
i will not even suggest that you move on. no point.
but yes, try and be there for the people you love so much. you may not physically be with them, but let them know that u r there, for them. do well, work hard and be accessible. love has a way of going and coming back. see this as a temporary setback. give the girl some time and space. give yourself some time. try to see why the split took place in the first place and then try working on it.
most importantly remember the kid needs you. today, tommorrow or whenever possible, he is going to try and get in touch with you. be there.

Answer 3

Do you think that Committing Suicide is the right solution to your problem? Don't be such a Pussy. I don't know what advice I'm going to give you because you're the only one who knows your own adversities. If you commit suicide, you'll go straight to hell, and if you think that living in this world is painful enough to drive you to kill yourself, in hell, you will be tortured over and over again, and no matter how much you try to kill yourself, you'll never die because you're already dead, you will spend the rest of your eternity in regret and agony, never knowing what paradise is like. If you think that God is just a Hoax, then fine, He exist in this world whether you believe in Him or not. And the worst part is, you'll only hurt those two people that you said you care and Miss so much, do you really think that they'd be happy if you make them your reason to kill yourself?Instead of Giving up on what you want, think of a way, there's always something. I think that the best advice that I can give you is "IF YOU FALL DOWN, STAND UP, DUST YOURSELF OFF AND TRY AGAIN". Good Luck!

Answer 4

I'm sorry about what your going through.. but no one ever said life was going to be nice. I know you have to have other ppl in your life that love and care about you... so don't do something to yourself that would effect them in a horrible way for the rest of there life. Is there anyway you could work out something with the chick in question so you could see the kid? If not you need to get your life together and move on -
I know that's so easy to say but hard to think about but still you have to do it.

Answer 5

I can understand the pain that you are going through and I believe that you are going through the worst period of your life. At the same time, I also believe that this worst period will not stay forever. Unfortunately, there is no magic button where you can just press it and something will happen or the pain will go away immediately. Your life is precious. Grit your teeth and allow time to heal the wound. Time may seem to be your enemy because it passes slowly in times of difficulty, but at the same time it is your greatest ally as it can heal wounds.

Answer 6

There are allot of people in pain out there, allot worse off than you, but in your depressive state you cannot fathom any ones pain but your own. There are support groups to go to, no cost, just call your local mental health society, you are on a pity-pot right now, feeling hopeless. Do what your Dr. orders, get to some of those meetings, you are not alone....just for today...

Answer 7

well for one if you really miss that child you wouldn't have tried to commit suicide..........that's selfish. And your attempt at slitting your wrist was for attention most likely. Sorry that's just the way it is. And you state you know what to do so I don't know why I am wasting my time. Get over it.

Answer 8

Many of us have been dumped. It happens. Saying so doesn't help much but life goes on. If you really wanted to kill yourself you'd have done it. It's time to stop whimpering like a puppy and be a man.

Answer 9

If you are still feeling suicidal, then you need to go back to the hospital and stay until you feel safe again.

Answer 10

life doesn't always work out like we planned. some events are beyond our control. focus on the positive aspects because memories are the only gifts we can hold on to. move forward, be strong, & be motivated to help yourself.