Suicide - i don`t think that there is something else left for me?

Question

This is NOT a JOKE

If someone won`t give me some good advice about life, in the next few minutes, what am i doing wrong?, why does life hates me? i will take my life, again THIS IS NOT A JOKE

I have come to the end of the line, i am 19 and I hate my life more than anything now. I am a very nice guy, allways happy to give a helping hand and not expecting something in return. I was born with a small malformation on my chest (this made me feel very unconfortable all my life, mostly when aproacing girls) and also i`m a little fat i have 82kg and 1.78m, I only have 3 friends and even thei make fun of me, I only had 1, ONE, girlfriend for 1 month in all my life than she left me (reason: i was to sincere with here (I never told her a lie) and she did not believe me)anyways and keep in mind that i am 19 years old. Last night my father beat the crap out of me because i went outside for 30min. I am a very lonely guy, i am not rich, at school people make fun of me, this is just the begi

Answer 1

I'm not going to moralize or philosophize with you. No pep-talks or sympathy. This my story, for what it's worth. Between 2000 and 2002 (in my late thirties) I concluded there was no place for me in this world. I just wanted to end this nightmare. After careful consideration, I decided booze and pills was too feminine. The gun to the head was too dramatic. I seriously considered hanging (for reasons that, for me, would make an almost poetic statement).

Then again, the difference between you and me, is that I had three small children. If I took my life directly, I thought that they would not understand or feel somehow responsible. So, I simply decided to court death. I took a dangerous job and walked along the edge, so to say. I didn't want to die doing something stupid. I just took the tasks others were afraid to do. At least they could say I had balls when it was over.

Normally non-confrontational, even passive, I took every challenge before me. Stood up to people I normally would have avoided and dared their opposition. (After all, I didn't care what they did to me. They could beat me to death so far as I cared and I was ready to die.)

But during that two year period something else was happening. I didn't realize that I was forging a new identity for myself. I had DEMANDED respect from everyone, and I was getting it! I had the admiration of my co-workers. I had never flagrantly disregarded safety on the job, but even when things were most risky I was known for going in and doing what needed to be done, calmly and efficiently. Women began to look at me differently too. I was a winner. They knew I couldn't be bullied and would not back down in what I said and stood for. But they knew I was basically kind and not abusive to others.

Eventually I became one of the highest paid and most respected in my field. I met a new woman, who actually asked ME to marry HER! It was two years that changed my life. Ironically, because I decided life was not living I made a better life for myself.

Answer 2

Hi, please dont do this, i am 43 and been thru 2 divorces,left now a single mum with 3 children still at home. I have seriuos debt which is crippling me,and the amount of times ive felt like ending it is too many to count.
My ex husband lives across road from me and makes my life hell,he has wreck 3 relationships in the last year for me.
Im lonely too and spent hours on internet just looking for someone to talk to.
Things will get better for you, you need to get away from yr father and move else where, can u afford to rent a place somewhere and start afresh,make new friends ? u mention school,could u get a job and improve yr life that way?
Im assuming u have access to a computer ,hence this message,make new friends on here,i have loads now and it really helps.see im deaf and wear 2 hearing aids so i come across loads of obstacles in life too.
U come across as a very nice genuine guy and i really feel for u,please think very hard about what i have said and dont do anything silly,things will get better i promise.
ALL MY LOVE AND THOUGHTS ARE WITH U. ANNIE XXX

Answer 3

There's no point in killing yourself.
If you are that unhappy deal with your problems in a different way. I dont know how much you love your father but he has NO right to harm you in any way. If you are 19, you can even get help from the government. As for your friends, you seem to be a nice guy so ignore their comments, and when the time is right you'll find a girlfriend and friends you can count on. Why dont you get a job?, that way you can move out of your home, get away from your father, get your own apartment and be independent. You can even try going to college. But suicide wont help anything, my advice is that as a last resort, when everything I mentioned above doesnt work, run away. run away from your home and start your life somewhere new. Get help from the local government (they may provide financial aid or support), get a job, and leave everything behind. this way you can be someone new.

I hope this helps!

Answer 4

Everyone is going to tell you that life will get better. I have been where you are. 3 1/2 years ago I blew my knee out badly and couldn't talk for almost 2 years. I put on some weight and got really depressed. I tried twice to kill myself but screwed up both times. Threw up the pills for no reason. What I recommend is smoke a little herbal and relax. You have to find the people in this world that accept you. I don't know your friends but if they are the type to just make fun of you to cut you down but if they are like my friends, we bust on each other because we are friends. Find the things you enjoy because things will start looking up if you want them to.

Answer 5

Listen to me...I was in a car crash when I was 6. My hand and leg and stomach are scarred very badly. I dont give a ****. Im 27, I wear bikinis at the beach and flaunt my scars. I've even had guys telling me they find it very sexy...(and believe me the scars are far from sexy). You see it's not your appearance that matters, it's how you feel about yourself. Come on, give yourself a hug and dont worry about trivial things. In August 2005, a plane crashed and my cousin, her husband, and her three babies were killed...we were very very close, and I thought I could never smile again, I thought there was no point to living, and that the world is an unfair place...but guess what...I SMILED AGAIN and although the world can be an unfair place, it IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT. Your father is ****** up and I would report him to the cops if he does this for no reason. As for having a bit of xtra weight, if you dont like it loose it...it's all up to you. DOnt give up on life, like you said your 19 with your whole life ahead of you!!!!! cmon give yourself some love......

Answer 6

You do not want to end your life. The pain you are feeling outweighs your ability to cope and so you think suicide is an answer. It's not. I promise, there are beautiful things in the world that you have yet to experience. You are so young, there is so much to live for. Make a list of things you would miss out on if you ended your life now (the possibility of finding your soul mate, possibly going to college or getting your dream job, etc..). Things will get better. I think you should seek counseling and possibly medication. There is a psychological technique called cognitive behavior therapy that can help you change your thought processes. It helped me. I wish you the best and I beg you not to end your life.

Answer 7

Wait, you're going to kill yourself because other people suck? Where's the logic there.

You're not the problem, they are. You sound perfectly nice.

But your father has control issues, your friends are jerks, and your girl was a loser.

So you don't fit into that mess, so what, sounds like you're above it all.

You need to move, to a new area, away from dear old abusive dad, and your friends that you're too close to, and take charge of your own life.

But really, I don't see the logic in taking your life because other people suck, doesn't make a lick of sense.

Oh as for life advice, life is what you make it. You can be known as the dude that killed himself because the people around him sucked, or the dude that turned his life around. One is the coward's way, the other is the path of men. Time to be a man I think, and take charge of your life. You can make it good, because you are good.

And again, don't kill yourself because of other people, that's retarded. They suck, not you.

Answer 8

you know.. my older brother killed himself. it wasn't pretty and it hurt... but it doesn't hurt the people you want it to hurt.. it hurts the people you would never want to hurt.. I hurt for years because of that.. and I often times would just go outside on a beautiful day and think to myself "Man, if he could only have seen this day.. maybe he could have found some hope." today may suck, the last 19 years may have sucked.. but your life is yours to change.. good days are coming.. and since I know you can't see them now you are just going to have to take my word for it. Lots of people are probably going to tell you to call 911 and get help.. they are RIGHT.. but since they will take care of that I'm not going to sit here and preach to you about it.

You know.. I used to be pretty hard on myself... my chest is a little offset and my right eye is just a hair lower than my left.. and I used to dwell on that.. it really bothered me.. but I've grown in to my features.. it took me a while.. heck really I wasn't an attractive guy until about 23 or so.. and a large part of that was my confidence in myself, or lack there of, due to these meaningless quarks in my looks.. we all have them man.. most people just never admit that to themselves... so give yourself a pat on the back.. you are a step ahead of most people.. now you need to find ways to accept yourself.. it's not easy but you can do it.. it will take a while though... but keep working on it.. it's worth it... once you do you'll find what is truly important in life... and with time you'll find someone to share that with... even when you can't see it, there is a silver lining... and the bigger the storm (in this case your life) the brighter the rainbow. I have faith in you, and that you can make something positive of your life.. but you have to live to do that.

Answer 9

There is help available. Let's try to calm down and maybe look at things from a different perspective. Everyone's situation is different but try to focus on you. Try to think about some things that really make YOU happy and things YOU enjoy. Remember, your life is about you and not other people. The first step is to get out of the moment and calm down a little. Then there are people out there who can help. There are people who want to talk and help. They will help you figure out the things you want out of life and they can help find them.

Answer 10

I am not a professional but you need some help NOW. You are seeking a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Your three friends are not your friends, unless they are playful with their jokes and not cruel. Every one gets lonely - it is the level of your loneliness that disturbs me. Please young man, think about the future, you will be happy one day. I promise you.........you will find peace.