what are your thoughts on this poem...please give me improvements!?

Question

I hide behind it everyday
Just wishing and praying
That it might take the pain away
A smile in itself is pleasing
But when associated with the thoughts
In my head, it is just teasing

I act like my life is ideal
Never letting you see a tear
And my thoughts that I will never reveal
I may seem vivacious
But it is all fake character
And this act is making me nauseous

Charismatic, cute, and cautious
Yes, I am those things
Characteristics that happen to be more precious
Are more important to me
If you stay around long enough
You will soon see

I do not wish to be just a toy
Easily broken and cracked
By that dapper boy
I strive for the better, for more soul
don’t accept just the good
But take the bad, me as a whole

I wish you would just look me in the eye
And take the sweet time
To tell me simply why
Our generation is acting so profane
Why a girl can’t be herself
When they all have to be so vain

Answer 1

this is cryptic, but read on. There's an answer in this poem I've written...

I would like to be a Superstar
Someone easy to look up at
Someone who means something
Someone easy to love.

Superstar's are special to people
For they are hard to reach
But, they can look at them and wish upon them.

Yes I'd like to be a Superstar
Shining bright for all to see
But, here I stand, mortally human
And here I shine
Just being 'Me'.