Has anyone ever thought about leaving? Just getting up and leaving yourself?

Question

I often consider getting up, packing some necessities, then walking out the door. Hitch hiking as far as I can go, away from home until I'm so lost that I don't know who Iam. Starting over, with only the stuff I can carry with me, living off the kindness of strangers until I can have a stable life. I often realize, that no one would realize if I left. I'd walk out of my lives, there lives, and my own twisted reality. ANyone ever feel liek this, not just me?

Idk, I'm only 13. I'm trying to figure out how far I could get on the 23.00 bucks i got. I guess I could pawn some stuff along the way, jewerly and stuff. I'm aiming for NY, bcuz its the place dreams come true (I want to be a journalist). Id think I'll really get that far. Who knows.... (I live in PA)

Answer 1

Been there, done that - found that the past always catches up-to you best to make changes where your at. To find ones self you need to search within.

Answer 2

I never felt as you did,although I have tried to think about what it would be like to just go away and ramble on, but I do know that doing that as a man is usually much different than doing it as a woman, especially the way you described doing it. Paris Hilton can pay her way as she rambles where ever she wants to go, but to depend on the "generosity" of strangers is a risky business.
Putting all that aside, you need to think long and hard at the very great possibility that you cannot leave your troubles behind, you can only carry them with you. The cards that are dealt to you in life do not so much define the game as how you play them. No matter what life hands out to you, a lot depends on how you respond to it. Breaking away can happen right where you are if you develop a good plan and learn to manage the problems you have now. That is what is meant by making opportunity happen.
I have a sense things look real bleak now, but the forces for good change are within you and not outside and not with someone else. Look within yourself for the inner strength to slowly change. Look for the things that may be working in your life, but don't make them "dependent" upon other people.

Answer 3

I think it's a fairly normal thing for us to look for "an easy way out." Some even choose suicide for this reason--a destructive and very permanent choice.

For some of us--especially people like me who have a lot of others depending on us--that isn't possible. We have to find solutions to our problems and we have to remain connected to the people we love and who love us. Courage is facing the lives we have been given and doing the best we can with them.

You aren't alone at all in feeling these things. Many of us--including me--have wanted to escape the realities of our lives and find something easier and better.

But it is possible to have a new life and be a new person without taking such drastic steps. We have to find the power within us. Some find it through religion, and I think personally that is one of the best ways to find it. Others choose to simply make changes in their lives.

"Getting up, packing some necessities, then walking out the door," sounds good and it has a lot of romantic appeal. But consider the risks. If you get sick who will help you to get better? What if someone robs you? What if the strangers you meet are not kind at all?

People WILL miss you if you leave. You will cause pain and even distress.

It sounds to me like there could be some depression and self-pity working in your life. You need to put those behind you and deal with your daily life. If you can't find stability in the here and now it's not likely you'll find it elsewhere. Seek help and counseling for these things. Inside you there is a good and brave person who is clammoring to get out and to do the good things you were created to do. Let her out.

You are in my prayers.

Answer 4

what a dreamer you are. What you haven't learned is that if you haven't solved your problems "before" you leave then you will assuredly take them with you. Not to mention giving other people your irritations by sponging off of them...and surely you can't do that until you can have a stable life.

When I was a kid I heard on the radio the word "napsack" and I asked mom what that was. She told me it was "clothes put into a bundle at the end of the stick that hobos took with them when they left home or the last place they lived". So I made myself a napsack and left home and started downt he street and she called me back. She said to me "who would support you, where would you get a job..no one would hire you you're too young...and you don't have extensive education...and no money...and you have no place to live...and it's a hard life out there, etc.". I thought about it on the front step for a while then I came in and hid in my room instead.

Answer 5

Sure I thought about it--both as a child and as an adult. Fortunately, I figured out that if I just took off without money, clothing, food, etc. that it wouldn't be long until I would be in a shelter--that's if someone didn't assault or kill me first.

If you want to leave, be sure to start saving money, have a destination in mind (preferably where you know at least one person), take a bus (hitching is toooo dangerous).