What's wrong with me?!!! I am having trouble changing my perspective. My mind is my own enemy.?

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What's wrong with me?!!! I am having trouble changing my perspective. My mind is my own enemy.?

I tend to think that whatever is happening in my head, other people are aware of it. For instance, if I feel ugly that day, I feel that other people can tell. If guys look at me, I tend to think that they find me repulsive. If, on a certain day I feel great, I know that guys are looking at me because I look so damn fine. Other days I feel people hate me. They have something against me. They are trying to figure me out and I don't want them to. If people don't sit next to me or look at me I sometimes think that maybe I smell bad. I feel that they can see all the flaws on my face. People are to closer to me. I feel like I am drowning in their critisms. Please stay away from me, unless I approach you, don't be mean. What is reality. I don't know what people think of me. I assume it's not good. Please don't give me those stares. I am a girl in college and it has become worse. To the point that it leads me to depression and other things. I misinterpret things greatly.
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If I think I'm stupid, when I really don't think I am, it comes true. I think that way, I act that way. Law of attraction? I've tried. I want to be invisible, and become invisible when things feel right. Don't look at me, but don't ignore me either. I hurt easily. Especially if I like you. Don't be mean. I am a college baby.

In the past, this has affected my daily routines, education and ruined my friendsships.

Answer 1

Lighten up...your too analytical.

Answer 2

Babe you take life too seriously. Life is not a popularity contest, it is not a stage in which we must play our roles perfectly and without error, it is a field in which freedom is supreme. My answer to your anxiety: what others think doesnt matter.

Now granted everything anyone does ever is usually in some response to their outward image, and that is fine, but to a point. When it comes right down to it what others think really doesnt matter, it is how you perceive you own actions, it is how you see yourself, and right now it seems you dont care for yourself very much.

Which of course is normal, welcome to humanity full of insecurities, doubts and pain. Have fun and lighten up, when those guys check you out feel proud, you deserved it, im sure dressing up is no easy task, and know that when, and if, those dirty looks come from those other guys keep content within yourself because they dont know what they're missing. Everyone judges though they have no right, but nobody really knows you. Screw em!

Answer 3

you need to see a psychologist. seriously talk some things out. you also may need a physical and get some blood work done. you may have a thyroid condition or just elevated hormones. and you may need some meds. but all that's in your head are chemicals and synapsis and they're not making a connection. and that is called a chemical embalance and requires meds. so dont waste time and life thinking of some "emotional" reason your going thru what your going thru. it's all physical, it's all biological. good luck!

Answer 4

Honey, I have been in your shoes. Do what I didn't do then, but should have done: Go get help. See a counselor, therapist, whatever. Talk this out. It's the only way to get a proper perspective on things. You don't have to feel like this. I let mine go on for years. I wasted YEARS feeling like that. Please don't do that.
There is help out there.
Send me a message if you want.

Answer 5

It sounds to me like you have an anxiety resulting from self-esteem/ image issues. I think your normal for the most part but If you feel it is to out of hand, I think you should seek some counseling so that you can live worry-free. You deserve it~

Answer 6

We all feel that way at times, you are normal.. Just relax and realize that most people are off in their own little drama filled world and aren't even thinking about us. That is a comforting thought if you think people are looking at you funny.
We all get insecure, don't stress too much over it. We all worry, believe me..

Answer 7

I think you might either be emo or pregnant, more information is needed.

Answer 8

same problem here...-_-