Stressed/Depressed. Help! What would you do if you were in my situation? (Dealing with an ex-friend)?

Question

I had a "friend" who I felt was very fake to me (Used me for rides/connections/etc., put me down whenever other people were around, constantly tried to embarrass me). Several months ago though I was stupidly trying to prove myself to her to make a point. I stupidly sent the dumbest "apology" letter to her and revealed things I had kept hidden from her during our "friendship" (dealing with my health and my past). I wanted to end the friendship in a way that proved a point (that when she joked around about me being "anorexic" she was hitting a deep spot in my heart because I once actually almost died from anorexia, and that we weren't very good friends anyway because I hid things from her because I never felt like I could share them, (and stupid me shared them to her in the email because I was stressed and pissed) I think in reality I made it sound like I was confessing that I was being fake and lying to her the whole time, and though I don't care to establish a friendship with her

,after these months have passed, I worry that she might have shared and/or will use the email to sabotage me and make me look bad, and that mutual people (who I haven't talked to in a long time) might judge me based on that stupid email. I also can't seem to move on because she also has very embarassing pictures of me she's saved on her computer and I'm afraid that somehow one day she will use those to "get back" at me and make me look bad, and I'm sure she's shown people them anyways to make fun of me.
In the past 6 months I've accepted myself and matured a lot, I'm much more positive now and I've accepted my past and willingly share everything about the real me with people, but I can't seem to move on completely when I feel like she's going to sabotage me in some way one day.

Part of me wants to email her or call her and establish a friendship again so that she won't do those things, but I really can't stand her. She has no compassion and basically her reply to the email was she doesn't feel sorry for me (I didn't intend it to be a pity thing, but still...a friend is suppose to have some compassion) and that it turned her off that I hid so much when supposedly she didn't and she was a "good" friend, and that was that. I have no clue what I said in the email accept that I revealed lots of stuff I wouldn't want people to know...I was too stressed out when I emailed her and I later emailed her back and told her that and told her I wanted us to be civil with eachother even though we're not friends, but never got a reply.

Answer 1

Wow, you are very insecure to send her a letter like that. You are way better off without her. She is probably a bit jealous of you and that is why she feels the need to put you down. Don't come down to her level, and if she has shown the pics of you just remember, "the past is like your @ss, it's behind you", and just move forward. Don't let the past get you down, you just need to learn from your mistakes and move forward, don't look back.

Answer 2

I looked at lyrissas question after reading her ignorant response. Here's the people's opinion of her! FIRST RESPONSE Women are retarded. This whole post makes me want to dropkick you in the ****. "She slept with a guy I liked first! So it's ok that I'm a whore right?" SECOND RESPONSE Depends, If She Still Has Feelings For This Ex & You Knew It Is A Little Shady How You Did Sleep With Him. But....If She Doesn't Have Any Feelings For Him Then There's No Reason To Get Mad He's Her EX As In He Can Do.Whatever He Wants. The Fact That She Slept With A Guy You Like Is Wayyyyyyy More Messed Up Than What You Did. She's Over Reacting THIRD RESPONSE If they're finished for 6 years then it's fine... slutty, but fine. And if you were mad at her for months for sleeping with a guy you liked, she probably has a right to be a bit sad if you slept with her ex. Even though people agree she's still a slut. Alley is too! Use your heads people. It's NEVER ok to betray your best friend and sleeping with their ex. (that's right alley tey ARE best friends so even by your messes up standards this is wrong. ) Bonnie has every right to be hurt and alley doing this afterwards only says she never really forgave Bonnie.

Answer 3

This person isn't your friend.

You need Mental Counseling.
Shhhh, and don't tell her.