A question about trust in a relationship...Does she trust me or believe i'ma be alchee...?

Question

first of all yest i'm bi i've been friends/with this girl for 5 years now. and I do like to drink. B4 I met her I use to drink alot.but after i met her i stayed sober for 3/4 years. and now i'm in college and we are roommate. we drink occasionally together and have fun act stupid on and by the way she has never drunk was raise in a strong christian based family. and if she doensn't drink i drink by myself...lately like the past 4 times i drunk i was a lil sad. and she would get on me because she doesn't want me to drink when i'm sad which i understand but last time i drunk i was depressed and i did it because i knew she'd get mad, i wanted her to act like she cared and **** but thats the only reason why i'm not a druggy...sooo we just had a party and was drinking and **** and we had fun...now its friday a week later and i told her i wanta drink again the both of us just cuz its friday and i want to relax and she said "You want to drink every weekend which made me sad and pissed.

I don't understand why she always has to make nasty comments like this...I know my body and I don't need her to tell me when to drink and when not too...she says drinking is just another drug but i'm not like my mother who drinks everyday she's afraid that i'ma end up like her. am i wrong or does she really not trust me???

Answer 1

Well buddy your in the wrong, she is just being a friend. I know everyone else is living it up and drinking it up and druggin it up. But that doesn't make it right, not right at all. Your problem is two fold, you actual have someone who cares, and you don't care about yourself. I've been a druggie for quite awhile, I love my pot, and I know its wrong, I know I do it because I don't like the way I feel with out it at the most, and at the least I can't make myself feel better then what it can give me. I work thru all this and realized I was just fooling myself, I feel in love and found some darn purpose in my life, it actual come down to I would let myself be happy without it. Thats your problem to and she doesn't carry the same burden. So really it isn't a matter of trust, dumb-butt, she cares and if you don't like that find someone who doesn't care about you geniunely and would like to see you do whatever you want to yourself. She knows the truth buddy and your not going to fool her by just doing it on the weekends.... geeze if I were you I'd start lessoning to her, you don't find heart like that everywere and be a shame to hear about you lossing someone that geniunely concern. Also you know its true are else you would have gotten upset with her... you would of just let it go and went on with your day, not even thinking about drinking. But you what a drink that bad you didn't want her to get in the way, or your love for her or yourself.