one of my best friends died in december last year....?

Question

I was strong and feel like I have coped well, but now summers coming and yesterday was the first HOT sunny day... It really brought back the feeling of her... so i visited her grave for the first time, realising i had been saving it for when i really needed.. it was nice to go there but today i've been getting seriously overwhelmed with emotion for everthing and just crying, i feel just sh!t and really depressed. i'm not really one to ask for help, and i don't really know what i'm asking for but i thought that by writing this maybe some of you out there will know what i need to hear or what to say to me???

I was strong and feel like I have coped well, but now summers coming and yesterday was the first HOT sunny day... It really brought back the feeling of her... so i visited her grave for the first time, realising i had been saving it for when i really needed.. it was nice to go there but today i've been getting seriously overwhelmed with emotion for everthing and just crying, i feel just sh!t and really depressed. i'm not really one to ask for help, and i don't really know what i'm asking for but i thought that by writing this maybe some of you out there will know what i need to hear or what to say to me???

sorry didnt mean to do that, can't get rid of it now..

Answer 1

I lost a great homeboy when I was about 18 years old, the only saving grace for me was that it wasn't just me who lost him. We were all part of a close group so I had good friends to relate my pain and to hear their pain. Without that I don't know what I would of done.... Your being forced into a postion were you need to take what you've learned with her and branch out to other relationships. Just keep in mind that your stronger now then you ever were before you meet your friend. And that from this point on you represent alot of what she has left here. Don't let that bring you down, let it give you power, let it give you purpose, your no longer living just for yourself. Its time to prove that all that love you gave to each other hasn't been destroy'd, it hasn't been tooking away even if her present has. She's with you and you need to prove it to yourself by showing the rest of the world how strong you guys were. Time to keep walking, just keep that head up, very few people have been thru what you've been thru and that makes you a strong person. Its time to prove it to yourself and god willing your friend. You never really move on from anyone you've ever love'd but you have to accept the feelings... got to let it burn. Like the phoenix you'll come out of this better for it and stronger for the people you love.