Can grown-ups, grow up too?

Question

I'm 47, wife, mom of three, nice home, good life for the most part. Thing is I'm tired of being who I felt I was suppose to be all my life. I want to start telling the truth about life. I want to curse when I'm angry ( saying the F word in my house, my parents house, has always been a huge no-no). When people piss me off I want to tell them so without being sweet and tactful. When someone makes me happy, I just want to lay a hug and kiss on them instead of thinking about it and wondering if they would mind...etc.
I want to shake off all the niceties, all the rules and just be. Thing is would my family and friends freak out? Would they think I was losing it? Recently when I've yelled out a "F*ck!" because I stubbed my toe, etc...my family gets very weird.
Can't grown-ups grow up too?

Answer 1

Well, yeah, even grown ups can grow up. You sound like you are just hitting your rebellious teen years.
Why is it that you want to shock and insult everyone to grow up?
I think what you are feeling is the need to not be restricted to other peoples expectations of what they think you should be or do.
And by shocking them you feel you are going to be breaking their control over you.
You don't have to shock or insult anyone to do this. All you need to do is learn to say, "No, that is not what I want. I feel this way. I have earned the right to be who I want to be."
But do you really want to be a rude, crude jerk about it? It really isn't worth hurting the ones you care about to assert your independence.
But the older you get, the more you will feel that you don't care what others think. It just happens with aging.
I think what you really want is to break out of the cage they have put you in and not be restricted to the standards that others expect of you.

Answer 2

Little steps.

Give them time to try on the new you, bit by bit.
It's quite easy for grown ups to grow, just very uncommon.
Spend some time thinking about who you want to be, then slowly start to be that person.

You may lose a few friends, but as you become happier with yourself, you will gain a lot more.