As far as I know, there isn't an antonym for nostalgia. But paranoid certainly isn't the right word.
You could use forward-looking.
2007-03-24 20:29:50
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answered by Serendipity 3
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The Opposite of Nostalgia
Oddly enough, there’s been a thing going on with me being almost fearful of watching certain episodes from those darkly poignant last two seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Sure they're sad but there's more to it than that, there's something else going on. This is not as crazy as it sounds, trust me on this.
I’ve been trying to figure it out because I know that what's on the surface is not usually the whole story—there’s usually a lot lurking below. I liken it to an iceberg—there’s the visible tip that you see above the waterline but the real iceberg—the mass of it—is the part that is hidden beneath ..the most treacherous part.
It probably won’t make any sense to anyone who’s not a Buffy fan but many of my friends are, especially my friends who come here to my cyberspace place. And BtVS and I have such a major history together that it doesn’t feel odd to me at all that Buffy’s saga is once again intertwining with mine.
I’ve been wanting to watch my season six and seven DVDs, but at the same time I’ve also been really not wanting to. In a really big way not wanting to ..in a brain screaming Danger, Will Robinson! kind of way.
I knew there was something about this I should try to understand. I knew it had to do with that heinous period a few years ago, that time when the Universe delivered unto me a perfect trifecta of fuckedupness, a triple-whammy loss of love, health, and livliehood. A time that was so painful that I avoid looking back on it.
So, back to the Buffy connection. During those awful days BtVS was both comforting and upsetting to me in its thematic parallel to my own life. In season six Buffy was unwillingly brought back to a life she had left behind and no longer really wanted ..brought back from a place where she had finally found peace and happiness, her “heaven”. I was being forced to create a whole new life, a life that was very different than what I wanted. And I had to let go of the life that I had loved--a life that no longer existed, a life that I could never reclaim.
Buffy and I were lost. We were heartbroken and grieving.
And then we were numb ..a lot.
We grew more and more withdrawn and isolated and then alienated in our pain.
Our friends didn’t mean to abandon us but they just didn’t seem to know what to do with us. They didn’t get us; we confused them with our struggle to find ourselves. It was not a good time for me and The Slayer. I couldn’t wait until the end of those days. (fun wordplay on an episode title for those not in the Buffy know).
I believe my reluctance to watch Buffy is my fear of looking back at that time in my life. As if watching it will transport me back to that time and I will find myself reliving it, feeling it again. The instinctual protective part of me fears if I even peek at it it will blind me with its awful burning intensity. I guess I still smell the smoke even though the fire has long since been put out. I believe the whiff of it falsely triggers danger where there is none.
But it seems like it's time to prove to myself that the past holds no power over me anymore. I’m no longer even on shaky ground, much less teetering on the edge of an abyss. I’m fine now. Really.
And while I don’t exactly embrace all aspects of my New Life I have made peace with it and I no longer mourn the life I lost. And I’m still working on the New Life—it’s a work in progress but that’s the way any life should be. That's what life is--a perpetual work in progress, in both meanings of the phrase.
And I’m still figuring it out and always will be but, hey, it’s a pretty good life ..and someday it may be even better. And in many ways—important ways-- I can see how it’s actually much better than that life I clung to.
And like Buffy said sometimes the hardest thing in this world is to live in it ..and like I say sometimes The Universe is a real Mean Daddy but it’s also one smart mofo.
2007-03-25 03:04:15
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answered by Anonymous
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u r rt to say " nostalgia" means remebring good thing frm the past.
i think a better opposite would be "Premonition" which usually is associted with negative things that may happen in future .
2007-03-25 09:13:12
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answered by ng2003 2
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Correct spelling is Nostalgia.So opposite must be Yestalgia!!!
2007-03-28 05:19:39
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answered by where's the problem??!! 2
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Regret
2007-03-25 03:00:23
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answered by Anonymous
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the opposite of nostalgia(meaning past)is future
2007-03-25 03:05:56
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answered by Anonymous
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denial? shame? wanting to forget it happened?
2007-03-25 02:56:22
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answered by Anonymous
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apathy? regret?
btw it's nostalgia
2007-03-25 05:33:35
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answered by Anonymous
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Somestalgia. ha ha ha
2007-03-25 02:57:06
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answered by traveler 3
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enthusiasm
2007-03-25 03:08:07
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answered by Gabrio 7
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