Is This Fate? Am I Psychic? Is This All Planned Out?

Question

I realise that there are many people who have had bad experiences. But right now, right at this minute, I feel torn apart. I won't blame how I feel on whats happened to others or me, but it is a factor. And it just seems like I'm meant to be perpetually unlucky. I keep getting dreams or visions and they come true. Recently I have been getting visions about a boy who I know and went out with being extremely dangerous or untrustworthy - and today, half an hour ago, i got a call. I'm shocked by what I heard, but it is just tipping the iceburg towards suicide right now. Before all this I also had a call from my Mum on Wed last week saying that my brother nearly died in a car crash. I had only just had a session with my therapist talking about my past, when I got the text. I was chomatized, I didn't know what to feel, I just hoped he was ok. I hated hearing all this as my Nan only died last year, and my other brother Ian 2 yrs ago. But coinciding with this I was getting dreams of dying>

And I had A lumposcomy/biopsy about 2 weeks ago roughly.... I found a lump in my breast tissue and went for an operation - and they are going to do test for it to see if its cancer - (the way my brother died) but today in the morning I had a dream about my mum telling me the news that I had to face the inevitable - and that I am dying. I just don't know who or what to trust anymore, I'm 16 and still young, but right now it's 20:59 and I feel like walking out of my house and do something I could regret if not completed. My mind is so warped from everything and that had gone on/going on, that I can't think straight. I was led to believe as a child that Im useless and that the world was going to end....my dad used to tell me I should be a prositute, when he abused me. Please tell me what is real i cant trust anything anymore.... is this all meant to happen, is it what comes around goes around? am I meant to be punished?

Answer 1

You need to talk to someone urgently.

Did you ever get offered counselling for the loss of your brother, it may be that you never got over this and everytime something bad happens its escalated by your fears over what has happned in the past.

I belive that everything happens for a reason and when bad things happens its a test to make us stronger. You're a strong person, you've dealt with all this bad stuff and your still here to tell the tale, you can overcome anything.

Answer 2

Hi
It's sad that you feel like this at such a young age. Do you ever experience positive images or outcomes? It's unusual that something good doesn't happen as well. We all have bad times and we sometimes focus on what this strong image or feeling means and forget the odd hopeful moment that passed us by.
Maybe you could keep a daily log of all your visions and dreams and then focus on how many didn't come true. I am sure that you will find that most don't.
I'm not a specialist, iv'e just been through the ringer myself

Answer 3

Reading your life history up till now I can understand how you got to the point where you are confused and unwanted. Yes that's what I feel is happening here. The best thing for you dear heart would be to go and talk to a good therapist you trust and he or she is going to help you through this very difficult period in your life. Your father had a great responsibility in your upbringing and abused you. Now you are doing right in seeing your therapist and should tell him about how you feel about your mother.. She's got responsibilities too and should be more understanding of your state of mind. Perhaps she did not think that what she told you would traumatize you to this point.

Sometimes we have nightmares from what we learned in the days before we dream, and it comes from our subconscious mind that absorbed the information and some kind of reaction is unblocked while we sleep because it is too painful to deal with while we are awake.

The best thing would be to see your therapist A.S.A.P. and let everything out. Please do not keep all those feelings all bottled up inside. This will be the first step to your future happiness. Remember dear Heart; sunshine is always there and we see the Light once the clouds have dissappeared.

Keep a positive attitude about your self-love, self-worthiness, and you are the most important person in your life! And the most important person in your life deserves to be happy! It is up to you to choose what makes you happy and what does not. Suicide will not make you happy! Pray for those of your family who passed and forgive them for their errors. Everyone does, so please do not fall into the illusion that suicide is the only solution!

I understand because I've been through many traumas and I'm still here!...
You are brave, you are courageous, you are good, you are nice, you are generous, you are forgiving, you are working and learning through an earthly experience. Be a good student, and love yourself enough to take care of your well-being. Be as generous to yourself as you are to others.

My very best wishes for complete recovery over your trauma.
GBY always

Answer 4

I know the feeling.

Although, strangely enough - and I don't mean to rub this in your face at all - I have premonitions and other thing of thing in my life and in general going horribly wrong, but strangely I also get 'messages' of things basically putting themselves right.

I can safely say although I've been through a very tough life, I've always been very lucky.

I have the same things, dreams etc, half of them come true, some of them have a symbolic meaning and then the meaning of them comes true, others are just pure bs dreams. I just know things will happen, and just say them out loud before they happen... and so forth. Believe you me, it's not funny knowing things in advance.

I've also felt for a long time that I was doomed; whenever I felt perfectly happy, things seemed to just vanish before my eyes, as if I wasn't meant to be perfectly happy.

But maybe it's not all that bad. You'll be okay. Whatever happens; you're not doomed.

Answer 5

IThere is no point in telling you that I can relate to your circumstances. Each one of us is individual and reacts in different ways. Some years ago I felt my life was in the dirt for a number of reasons and one night I really wanted to end it all. I had my plan figured out only to be stopped by a friend calling round to see me. I carried on, quite miserable about things. About a year later I was on my way home. On an impulse, I called into a local church. I was not particularly religious, I just thought it might be a good idea if I was going to end it all. I was on my own in the church and it came to me. The message was loud and clear. If I took my own life, I would never get a shot at redemption and the devil had a sure fire soul for the fires of hell. The devil had hold of my life and my soul and was going to make certain he kept it.

Don't give in to the devil. Don't let him have your soul. You are a beautiful child of God. Just get in touch with him a see just how he can really heal your life, just as he has done with mine. Always remember, when everything else seems lost Jesus Loves You and gave his life for you.

Answer 6

You're not psychic and nothing was planned out.. When you fail to think positive and believe in life, that's what happens.. They're co-incidences and you just want to believe it's fate coz that's how you want to feel.. Break out of it.. Don't do anything stupid and just hang in there, people care, they don't say it but they do! You're not going to die! Trust me, I never pray and I'll pray for you! Hang in there, once you believe, life's good, the dreams will stop and you can start over.. Parents tell you and do all kinds of things but trust me no-one is born to do anything and you should never take any of that seriously, just hang in there, that's what life's all about..

Answer 7

I believe you can help yourself by first of all making a decision to break the cycle of events that have brought so much pain. People close to you created havoc when you needed trust and affection, but something must have happened to them to have turned out that way. You can make a difference by being the one who doesn't follow the destructive pattern.

Bronco is right, you are a child of God and he has power to turn things around, with him you can do it. I give thanks for your life, give it to God and trust, you'll never know until you ask from the depths of your being.

Answer 8

You poor thing you have suffered abuse and bereavement no wonder your subconscious is throwing these images of doom and gloom at you.You really do need to get some more professional help just to sort out the bad things so maybe you can start to look for the good. I think you have touched a lot of people both young and old with this question, lots of people have really horrible times in their life but they persevere and things do get better. I truly hope things get better for you PLEASE PLEASE don't give up.

Answer 9

i dont know because i couldnt be bothered reading that paragraph that was about 14 miles long

Answer 10

wow this is horrendous, you should phone some sort of helpline, you need to see your therapist a lot more!!! have they given you any sort of drugs?