my life is in a mess.?

Question

i got an insurance job last yr july, but went to another company by dec as i was convinced. as an agent, you pay for your own expenses for training, transport, etc. i've almost depleted my savings. after leaving my previous, i paid the ex-manager for the fees, and till now i've yet to clinch a single deal, because of the timing of my studies and that my manager's busy. worse still, my leaving the last company means i gave up the continuing income from the previous sales. i really want to give my best, but its always either my manager's timing, or my studies that stops me from giving my best shot. now im peniless, and @ 24, im still depending on my father who's working as a driver. i feel terrible. i couldnt even give what i pledged to my church's fund raising event, and now spending even more than $2 a day means a lot to me. because of my studies, i cant afford the time to work now, i even thought of cyber begging. someone help me out? any ways to earn $ legally given my situation?

i thought of things like clinical trial, but have no idea how to go about it.

wow great advise thanks alot, i guess i need to get some things going and stop just wondering what to do next. i'll give my best, thanks.

Answer 1

I hear desperation and guilt combined in your statements, but if I may, lets look at them one at a time.
1) Feel like you have failed as an insurance agent
2) Feel like you have made some untimely, maybe bad choices about moving companies
3) Feel guilty because living off you father
4) Feel guilty because you have made a promise to your church and haven't been able to keep it.
Now let me give you a different twist on these. I think it is wonderful that you feel you need to take responsibility for your life. That is a positive, many persons would just walk away -- they run from their problems rather than face them.
Let me give you some suggestions based upon what I would do. I am going to start at the bottom because in that lies all the answers.
1) You must have faith or you wouldn't be contributing to your church, so first get on your knees and submit your life to God, wholely and completely. Ask that His wonderful grace remove the guilt and desparation that you feel. He is your ultimate Father and loves you. Read 2 Corinthians 12:7-10, when you are weak God can make you strong by submitting to him.
2) Stop feeling guilty about failing. Failing is only bad if you don't learn from it and you don't plan and prepare not to repeat the failure.
3) Go to your father and tell him how much you appreciate his love and support. Ask him if he is able to continue that support for a while longer. Work with him on a plan.
4) Back on your knees with pad of paper and pen in your hands. Ask God to help you with a plan. Carry on a conversation with him, asking him for ideas on how to work through these issues. Develop a plan of work and study. As you work the plan, continually check in with God about how you are doing. Quit trying to do it all yourself, turn it over to God who has ultimate knowledge. Expect this to be difficult but the results are wonderful. Whatever you plan, write it down. You have no plan if it isn't written with goals, tasks and dates as to when you will reach/accomplish these goals and tasks. However be flexible as you learn more modify your plan. Continually ask God to show you the way.
___________ Just some more thoughts______
5) Could your plan include -- Go find a parttime job, weekend job, something with extra effort you can work around the insurance sales, but helps pay some of the bills.
6) Could your plan include -- Finding an insurance saleman that is extremely successful with your values and study under that person.
7) Could your plan include -- making sure you are with the right company, going back to working a 40 hour week job, building up your savings, and doing insurance again, just later.
8) Could your plan include -- Talking to your manager and
explaining your situation to him and seeking his help and advise.
9) Just to think about -- Are your studies that you speak of, outside school or insurance prep? Must they be done at this time? Could you take a parttime job that pays and do the studies? Could you take a fulltime position and do the studies?
I will be praying for you as you work to start your career.

Answer 2

I don't know how much of your studing and classes. You may want to lighten your load to look for that job. Also try to do an intership related to your studies... As they say sometimes the only way is to look up...

Answer 3

is not end off the world..even me now i dont have a steady job also..my fren he is 30 and jobless..everybody in this world is suffering..may god bless u and u need a fren just at me on my IM...pls be patient..u can make it..