I'm so confused about life...?

Question

Im fustrated alot and don't know what to do... Last year I began to like this guyy so much it hurt and i still do he's in my biolog class this year and he rode my bus last year...he had kinda long blonde hair but cut it..which he still looks beautiful... He seems like a really nice guy I want to kno him so bad.. know what he likes etc.. I want to tell him abou tme..but im just not pretty enough we talked once on myspace..i asked him a lie asking what was for homework..dammn it piisses me off i think about him too much.. I want him too much.. Iam so ****** pathetic I kno. My grades are suffering.. I have to pass every lcass in order to go to the 11th grade... My parents take mre to a stupid theropist=( Which dosent help its a waste she's nice and all but its not working...I tell my parents but they jus fuss at me about it ...I feel ugly like when a skinny popular girls around everyone looks at her.. I want to be her.. I want to be more outgoing..not shy and weird...I also wanna be loved

Answer 1

Killing yourself youngin. First and formost your not getting anywhere till you start loving yourself. I mean you could do it the hard way, grint your teeth, and just go in there ballz to the wall and talk to that guy. But it isn't going to make it better, be a nice distration thou.... Ether way your paying the price for not loving yourself. Understand if you really gave a s about you, you would of said something to that boy, frist meeting. If you cared about yourself you wouldn't have so much envy for everyone else. Its a long road and your going to make plenty of mistakes, but the fact is unless you put yourself out there and believe you got something to offer, you've already lost the game. Work on getting some friends frist, I know, I know people seem conceded and stupid, well that never changes, but if you can find someone that doesn't give you that vibe make a darn friend. Weather its male or female we need those the most in the beganing that way we can get a real idea of our own worth, thru someone elses eyes. You'll be suprise how things well naturally progress from there, well if you have good friendships they well.