how can i meet that special girl who i wanna meet?

Question

im 29, been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and ive been refered for therapy by my cpn. ive never formed relashionships with girls or made any friends, because of the problems ive had. ive always had very low self esteem, was bullied throughout secondary school, and suffered atacks an victimisation in my life. i currently deal with alot of inner rage feelings and feel frustrated with my life. i live on my own, in a small council flat and im very isolated and have no social connection. or no girlfriend. ive never had a job because of my problems. i suffer real low moods throughout the day, my thinking is all jumbled up and disorganised. like racing thoughts. im wondering how or if im gonna make my hopes and dreams happen? to be able to work, have a good job. have friends. find that special girl. i particularly like slightly plump, pale white girls of around 20/29. that look cute. but i dont no how to find her..i feel cut off from society. dead to the world.i have high

anxiety and fear about going
outside. ive lost control
of my rage in the past and
been attacked.my perception
becomes distorted and i miss
percieve. my psychiatrist
said these symptoms run
consistant with the bpd disorder.
so i await therapy now.
but all i can think about
latley is my 'dreams' and
hopes. about how socially isolated
i feel. i would love to be out
there working. with friends.
i even want to emmegrate from
the uk. and of course i think
about all the time, about that
girl i wanna find. the type ive
described. i dont just want anyone
that comes along. what should i do?
i feel so depressed and frustrated

Answer 1

Have faith, be optimist and have confidence. Life is too short to care about such things. Best wishes!

Answer 2

Stop being a victim. Think of yourself as a survivor. If you were abused on any level in childhood you could contact NAPAC and see if you can get a referral from your GP. I believe you get 8 or 10 sessions depending on where you are. http://www.napac.org.uk/
You could look into acupuncture. It really can reach the parts pills or therapy never will. Avoid TCM for that though. Look into clasical acupuncture that is based on 5-element theory.
Although not having a job don't help there. NHS acupuncture is not in it to treat the 'spirit' side of things.
Good luck. And remember, if you don't believe in yourself, how can you expect nyone else to do so?

Answer 3

First try to eliminate your inhibitions and start making friends - come out of your low esteem and move around with people which will get the girl of your dreams...

Answer 4

Work on yourself first and your issues then someone will come into your life x