Are you missing something in your life? Can someone help me?

Question

Are you missing something in your life?

I never see myself as me. A part of me is always extremely careful, very critical of what I say and do. Whenever I talk to someone or meet new people, that part of me is looking at me from across the room. It doesn't allow me to live my life. It defines everything and labels things right and wrong. I never feel like I am actually myself. I feel like I am a reflection of others. My own mind prevents me from being happy. The pessimistic part and the irrational part sometimes takes over. There is always a constant battle. I'm 19 and I don't want to fail college. I'm not getting anything done. My mind doesn't stop. Something has gone wrong in my life. I feel like I'm on my own.

Answer 1

Your to conscious of what others are thinking of you, you will see that as you get older, that will fade. Try really hard to forget about what others are looking at. Do the things that you like to do for YOURSELF and I guarantee that you will feel more confident around others. I was like you once. Today I can say or do as I please.

Answer 2

i have been through this myself, i felt like crap, i was extremely unhappy and i didn't understand why,
i was very lonely and sad and extremely irritable, nothing i seemed to do was good enough and i was losing interest in college, until i got help.
i was asked to write at least 20 good things about myself, and after a long struggle to find even one thing that was good i was asked to focus on the good things that make me who i am, and to invest more time into making myself even better.
after a long look at who i was, i realized that i wasn't that bad, and i had things to offer to others, this gave me a boost of confidence, i started to reconnect with friends and i filtered out people who are really friends and people who are acquaintances and people i really shouldn't be around. i forced my self to get out there and try to feel good. and it eventually worked, i know its easier said than done and i might be idealistic but i believe there is something special in everyone and you are no exception to the rule.
if these symptoms continue for more than a month, i strongly advise that you seek professional help.