Is my life a mistake? Instead of things getting better, they get worse. I'm starting to have doubts in god....

Question

My life has neva been "good" since day one...since i was born ...i had that thing where i couldnt breathe at all, and i was at intensive care overnight. My sister had cancer at 3, when i was 5...same time my parents divorced. My dad won custody of both me and my sister, but he played major favoritism for her. He lost custody of her for some aligation, but when he would physically beat me till i was bleeding, the cops did nothing. in fact my dad made me look like the bad guy, and then he disowned me, but he was still regarded as legal custodian until i turned 18. I was sent off to a foster home thingy. no1 liked me in school. I neva been treated fair. I got depression, bipolar, major anxiety. afta leavin da foster home, i got kickd outta college dorm, been homeless, now i gotta 1bdrm apt, but i just got fired from a 2 1/2yr job for discrimanation, losin faith in my form of god, i got high pressure, had a shrink, but lost her cuz i lost medicaid. im usually da blamed 1.

Answer 1

i think the best way to look at it is this:
if things are really as rock bottom as you say they are, then they can't get much worse! And if it can get worse then things aren't as bad as they could be-which is a good thing! You have had a tough life for a reason: God gives those people who are strong the most responsibility and hardship which is an honour to be thought of as strong by God!!! Put all your faith and love in your father above and it will come right- prepare to have a good life. Oh and if it's money you are worried about- try to found out a little more about network 21 from somebody. It's the only secure way to make money legally. Chin up- there are definitely things you can do to make it better by looking at your situation differently. I hope you get what you are looking for!

Answer 2

Well, this is coming from a 15 year old evangelist. So be prepared to hear a lot about God.
Life was never a mistake. It never will be. If your father was non-christian, then it's his loss. He's going to get it in Hell. But your life is a heck of an adventure. God wants to use you for something that you might not know. Don't doubt God. He made you did He not?
If your life was a mistake, then my life would be a mistake, and every other person's life would be a mistake. Take a look at the world! Take a look at yourself! God made you this way. God made the world this way. Worldly parents can be horrible, I know, I've had friends who have had worldly parents and was in the same situation that you are in.
Lets just face it, you are so important to God. God hates to see this, and you know it. Well you feel depressed, and alone, you feel the heart of God breaking for every person who refuses to beleive in Him.
Your life was never a mistake. There is so much complexity to your body that you can ever imagine. There is this site with a video on it about your inner cells. I'll give you the site at the end.
Watch the video, have faith in God, know that you are not a mistake, that life is just tough on you. God will use you for this and you will have a great testimony. Keep your faith in God, keep praying, never doubt him, He's gotten you this far hasn't He?
Here's the site: http://www.aimediaserver.com/studiodaily/videoplayer/?src=harvard/harvard.swf&width=640&height=520
Tell me you aren't important to God after that.

Answer 3

Know that you are NOT alone and just when things can get no worse, they will! You take the good with the bad; if you have more bad than you think is your share; look around you and I KNOW you will see someone a whole lot worse off than you. Pray and NEVER doubt the mercy and goodness of God! Who knows where you would be without Him? Go look for another job, get some insurance so you can get back on meds; and thank Him every day for not only what you DO have but also for what you DON'T have. I love you and know you can get through this! Good luck and I will be praying for you. God bless!

Answer 4

You need to reorient your thinking process.
All problems that you explain are common in many families which we are not aware.
Did you introspect anytime about yourself?
May be you have also contributed to the condition you are in today.
Forget and burry the past.
Turn a new leaf and start afresh .You will find a new direction.
Have a positive attitude.
God, that is the whole world will help youu in some way.
I am in India ,my best wishes are with you and I can't harm you in any way. similarly some one near you will be able to help you in some way.
Be positive.The world will look at you.
There is no such thing as God but every thing is part of God.
God is very much a plurality and not a singularity as most of the people imagine.
Good Luck!

Answer 5

I'm sorry to hear about your past;and you have every right to feel angry and hurt,but we both should realize that it's up to us if we want it(anger hurt) to control us,Nobody promised us that life was going to be easy since day one,I mean not even God.I think it would be great to read the Bible,people usually seek out people to find out if God is true,but instead don't seek God for that answer.To tell you the truth I got bipolar disorder,my life had it's major downs before,a lot of the times coping with my behavioral disorder effects my relationships with others including family.Yah I felt the blamed one too,when I was younger,I'm the mid child;I always got blamed on everything and anything by especially an alcoholic parent.I as a little girl got blamed on also for my parent's divorce,mainly cuz my father used me as his little messenger.*tears*,I believe so It still affects me till this day,I mean come on I was only 8 yrs old and believed it.My older sister was always the attention-getter growing up,the pretty one~the smart one~the talented one~the good one~,and I resided panging for that same attention.Lived a crazy tripped out life to the fullest,aint nothing there for me,If I go back,I'm going back to sh i t.Well I'm grown,and keeping my faith in God,and keeping my beautiful face up,hope you too....♥

Answer 6

one thing i can advise you is be positive. your life is what you make it. what you think you will be is what you get. if you think negative in all aspects of your life then negative things will happen to you. after all those things happened to you, think of the positive side like what it had taught you. what things you've learned from that situation. instead of being depressed, or being lonely, life is too short so, make the most out of it. enjoy life! about your belief in God, never ever doubt God, instead have an intimate relationship with Him. strive for the reason why you where here on earth. search for the reasons why God gave you those things. maybe He's teaching you something, and making you a better and strong person. so that you can be a living testimony to anybody.

Answer 7

i think of that He care approximately each thing that consequences us. Are you conserving your eyes and coronary heart open or do you have inflexible standards? maybe you may desire to attempt turning out to be a member of a club or changing your 'conventional' ordinary so as which you would be able to fulfill a distinctive group of acquaintances. merely save God because of the fact the affection of your existence first, then each thing else will fall into place on the perfect time. God Bless!!

Answer 8

I am no atty: But I do see where your life would possiblely be better with a free atty at your side=Take charge of your life girl; no one is going to help you-But! YOU:
Ok: LOOK!
Take one thing at a time, then work on the rest for you can do it: How I known: because if uyou made it this farr: threw all that GIRL! well I known you can help your self by picking up a phone book, and call your self a atty:

Answer 9

Don't loose your faith in God. It sounds terrible everything that you have been through but use it to fight back in life. There a lot of jobs out there that are hiring. Just give the best of you and be strong things in this life happen for a reason and just to make us stronger and soon God will recompensate you, you'll see.

Answer 10

Your life seems like it has had its fair share of trials and tribulations, but through the will of God you have still been able to survive and have a job and a place to stay. God is getting you ready for another change. Im in your shoes in a way, and i just try to remember that we are not in heaven and that our life is not just our's. You might give someone some advice from what your going through now that changes their life. try to hold on.