I dont understand?

Question

Ive lived my life being a good person & not harming anyone but trouble always seems to find me. As a kid i was bullied real bad straight up until i left high school, I've never been a violent person but Ive been forced to fight or take a beating pretty much all my life.

I even refused to have friends because so much have betrayed me. but still i get hurt!

Everyday i deal with my bad memories, its like they haunt me. I thought after school everything would be different but its still the same and only getting worse, i even got beat up yesterday by two guys i didnt know like usuall, what was i doing? i was sitting on a wall and two guys come over and start calling me **** and i tell them to get lost then im all beat up.

All this crap is driveing me crazy i dont even wanna live no more cause it just doesnt stop!

So i dont know what to do? why do people hate me? why has my life been such bull ****?

I really wasnt sure where to put this so sorry if its in the wrong category

Answer 1

First of all are you whining??? Man know wonder you get beat up.
2. Grow some balls.
C. If you don't want to live anymore... Don't. But I bet you will puss out of that too...
Q. You have really B.S. problems, and need some really help, rather then wasting our time with this ****. Does your mom and dad beat you. God Damn son. PLEASE GROW SOME BALLS!!!

Answer 2

I feel sorry for you because you seem so lost. I can relate to days like that though where you just feel like a newborn baby and you want to be held and cared for for security reasons. I am sure you are a great person, with a lot to offer the world. You need to stop letting people push you around. Stand ground. I suggest you start by maybe consulting your Pastor who will comfort your insecurities and boost your self esteem. Then I suggest you study a defense mechanism such as Karate. Even borrowing a book from the library to study will enhance your knowledge of self defense. The first step you need to take is gaining self confidence and boosting your self worth. Tell yourself you are a good person and unworthy of these losers shooting you down. Good luck.

Answer 3

How old are you?
I would say you should:
get a job,
move to a better, or at least different, neighborhood,
don't "hang around" sitting on a wall or looking like an easy target for bullies,
take up a hobby,
when you're out in public, have a purpose, be going somewhere or doing something, don't be an invitation to thugs.
And if you do want to just sit and be left alone, try to go somewhere safe where there are other people around.
I hope this helps.

Answer 4

its psychological. you have to first believe that theres more to life than just brooding over the eventualities that u faced.try to be optimistic and hope for the best.i know its not easy especially if other people are the ones causing u to feel distressed. why not talk to your parents about this?or your close friends? try to unwind and break free from those painful incidents by doing what you enjoy.a hobby perhaps.

Answer 5

life is tough having to put up with all these bullying, are you too fast in in your reply? or are they out to find trouble? probably they can sense your insecurity and they capitalised on that & push you around, have you thought of taking up some selfdefence to built up your confidence & to know how to take care of yourself, not to fight back but atleast not get beaten so badly?

Answer 6

My life is almost is bad as you. Try reading, or picking up a hobby, ignoring anything bad.

Words of Wisdom #1.

Answer 7

omg im so sorry...stay away from people for now...if you have a girlfriend forget about all then beating ups-- it happens.... dont sit on anything anymore, have good posture, dont look down- hopefully that works idk it works for me but im a girl....

really good luck♥♥