I have died and went to heaven and who i became?

Question

is really good, I've changed alot. but indoing so i feel very alone and beat up. I find it very hard to be around people. I can't relate to many people and i see the world around me as very cold and hurtfull. I refuse to change who I am so i can better relate to people. but the feeling of being alone is very very painful.
I carry alot of weight from going through what i went through and being alone just makes it to much

Answer 1

See a doctor.

Answer 2

Dear Thomass J,

First of all, welcome back. You are now a "Revenant", one sent back from Death. "John S", answerer #4 says to "see a doctor": well, I'm your man... I am a three-time Revenant myself. Therefore you are not alone.

Secondly, I understand the withdrawl. This will pass in time, as the epiphanies slow down and you "regain your balance", so-to-speak.
It's a lot like coming back from war:
a)people who have not seen it, cannot even begin to imagine it (and some people get scared when you describe it-you can see it in their eyes);
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b) those who have "been there" have a hard time coming "back to civilization".

I know how difficult the readjustments have been for you. Everyone want to call it a "near-death experience" (NDE), when you actually were clinically dead and you (to paraphrase The Doors) "broke on through to the other side". You look up "revenant" on Wikipedia and it's all this zombie, vampire and undead b***s**t; when actually, you're more of a honest and earnest soul from having the experience.
You try to explain it to people and they look at you like your crazy... or worse. They forget that the Bible says, as we ponder the quandry of life, that "we look through a glass darkly"; you as a revanant, now have a better (brighter) view. And with better light, you are finding it (the world) colder and more cruel than what you were aware of before.

Yet the positive motivations are still here.
You know you have a "destiny", that "it wasn't your time".
I'm sure your hope has been strengthened, and you now see the difference between "believing" and "knowing", especially when it comes to "faith".

I've listed 4 Ezra/2 Esdras Chapter 7; verses 75 through 102 is the only explaination that is remotely understood by the "layman". Most Christians are familliar with the parable of Lazarus & the Rich Man, in Luke 16:19-31 (listed below). That's all I've found in the way of established Hebraic-christian texts (there is no proto-evangelism, letter, gospel or treatise by a "Lazarus" (or in the Hebrew/Aramaic, Eleazar); those are our "only two witnesses" for those who "want to see it in black and white"...

I hope the verses helped you. I know you may have questions, write me. I'd like to learn more about this weight...

FYI: my best friend and my ex-wife are revenants as well...

Cordially,
DoktoR Von§teR

Answer 3

i feel just like you. once i opened my eyes and have become aware of what is around in this world. i hardly relate to anyone. i feel as if im in a different state as everyone else. though there are a few people i like that arnt like everyone else. but you just feel so seperated and i dont want to act like them just to be accepted something i think that would be for the best. but id wrather just be who i am.

Answer 4

Interesting...ooo...The Simpsons!!

Sorry, Good luck!

(Are you really joking or did you really die? Couldn't help but notice you'r nickname contained a certain word...)

Answer 5

Die again. Be somebody else.

Answer 6

GOODLUCK

Answer 7

yourself......