I suffer from clinical depression, trichotillomania (impulse control disorder...I pull out my own hair...crazy, I know, I truly can't help it), and eating disorders. I have a bald spot on the back of my head from my trich...it could be worse I guess. When I was around 12 years old I was practically bald from it. I constantly feel fat even though I know that I'm not. I throw up if I eat too much...however, I usually eat way too little. I sleep all day and stay up all night doing nothing...I can't seem to get on a good schedule. I don't party like at all anymore...which sucks because I think I was much happier when I did. Plus, I got a lot more done when I was happier. My cell phone is broken and I haven't had one for well over 2 months...I'm losing all of my friends because I have no way to contact them.
I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I smoke weed everyday to try to cope with the pain I've brought upon myself. I'm trying to quit doing cocaine...for good. I used to do it all of the time and now I'm down to doing it about once a month, but I HATE the way it's always on my mind. I am a student at the University of Illinois and I haven't been to class in over 3 weeks. I have no job and no money. I live in a crappy *** efficiency apartment which is a total mess because I have no space to put anything anywhere. It's been below freezing outside for so long that I'm trapped in here all day. I practically live on my computer now and I used to be quite the socialite. I hate pretty much everyone around me here, they are all cocky bastards. I'm all alone and I want to escape this life...
2007-03-01 15:24:21
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answered by malysah 2
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I don't know that my life is crappy, but I've been in your mood before myself. Sometimes I do have crappy times. So, here's what's happening right now so you can see you're not alone.
My husband might get laid off, cause while he works for an FAMOUS big entertainment company, they are downsizing their technology department. His parents are always telling him we should just move back home (to their state) and just take whatever minimum wage job he can get. He worries constantly that he won't be able to make our house payment.
I have a job, but it's crappy cause my boss is a gross, foul mouthed pig that curses at everyone, won't give anyone time off, etc....
My friend in the south lost her job a year ago and is still looking. Another friend just got laid off this week from a job she's had for 3 years.
My mom just found out that she has a Deep Vein Throbosis and I don't know if she'll end up needing to live in a nursing home. My step dad died a year ago.
My real dad is getting senile and has said some very mean, sick, stupid things to me on the phone, that stem from things that happened during their divorce.
My cousin who was only in her 40's died in January.
I could go on and on, but I really only wanted to show you the diversity of "other people's" problems.
But, it's amazing what you can get through if you keep your chin up. There will always be people who have it worse than you or better than you. Focus on what good you have, and the love of your friends and family.
2007-03-01 15:27:42
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answered by K.B. 4
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I live in my office and have to sneak around to avoid the nasty tenants that don't want me here and I am having a hard time finding a real place to live even though I have $6000.00 in cash. I can't find anyone to take me down to DMV to take my drivers test. I have sunk to hanging out on Y/A. I suffer from hepatitis C. I have a difficult finding Christians who don't condemn me for smoking. I am isolated from society. My family and friends have dropped off the radar. I am in debt because of medical bills that should have been paid. I am getting more sluggish in the brain in my old age. I haven't had sex in years and am not even interested. My prayers don't seem to be answered, God has stopped talking to me. I am stuck in the mountains when I would rather be surfing. My back hurts. My feet stink. My diet sucks. I want to get high but have given that up for the most part. I feel unloved. No one seems to care unless they can get something from me. Need more. And I am blessed. Thank God I am not outside in the snow like the homeless people I see when I go out and that the hefty disability check keeps coming. Feel better now? www.poverty.com/africian
2007-03-01 15:36:43
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answered by mohayrix 3
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Well, things over here are going great. I am self employed, so I answer to no-one, do what I want, get up one I feel like, etc. It's awesome, and about 6 months ago I bought a new house in the suburbs and I just recently got engaged. Other than that, things suck!
2007-03-01 15:19:36
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answered by InTheWright 3
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Well, one family member has a really, really bad ingrown toenail. They might have to cut it out.
And last week, another family member had to have oral surgery. They cut away a little part of her gum, and then stitched it up with thread that dissolves. She had the knots to the thread stuck between her teeth for a couple of days. It was gross, and she couldn't eat anything.
Then another family member, broke his finger. He is out of the country. They said, they will fix it when he gets back, and will probably have to re-break it.
So medically, our family is a mess, and it's going to cost hundreds of dollars too. Yay.
2007-03-01 15:23:18
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answered by Sweet n Sour 7
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well my life is **** but i always appericiate the good moments more than complain or think about my bad moments that's why am always smiling
anyway i am a closest lesbian not coz i wanna be closest lesbian but my family r quiet strict with the honor of the family and they might kill me if they find out and it really hurts when i see other lesbians lives their life happy and more open about their sexuality but i cant
2007-03-01 15:33:37
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answered by Tara 6
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I don't really like to focus all my energy on negative thoughts. It just creates more of the like in turn.
Besides it's been my personal observation that someone always has it worse.
2007-03-01 15:19:50
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answered by cream city chick 2
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Hmm, seems like there should be a more efficient way of appreciating your life.
2007-03-01 15:18:20
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answered by Anonymous
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Everything goes WELL in my life, so what's the problem.... that's no bad things happened in my life to let you feel superior than me.
2007-03-01 15:26:14
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answered by dora_chan 3
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my input is a secret i learned in a dream told to me by a tiger, he said to put the pain onto canvas, express it by allowing it to paint itself out, this can also be done in music, poetry, nearly anything,,, this is how to create true art..... that will be appreciated someday....
BTW suicide is bad for your soul, the purification period is worse than life,,,, he told me that too
now you see how bad my life is
I have resorted to taking advice from a lion in my dreams,,,
nuts,,, huh,,,, he is smarter than anyone i know,,,, but still nuts....lol
2007-03-01 15:24:21
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answered by Anonymous
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