How do i find myself?

Question

im done sitting in this apartment, changing temperatures, taking naps, and putting down myself, and occasionally lighting a cigarette just to feel like my breath and life is important. im sick of having to sound like im sad on the phone when my mom calls me in the afternoons to see how im doing, when really there is nothing wrong, its just i cant help that i let people **** on me. your doing nothing wrong. theres nothing to worry about. i can play it cool and front if i have too, but when it comes to talking to someone who truely cares about me its hard.. i cant lie to someone who is their for me truely. who truely cares about me.

its hard to explain because for some reason when my family and close friends call me and the way i react is so pitiful, so empty, and uneven. my voice is monotone, no emotion, yes and nos. and byes and hi.. and im just being myself right? i dont have to put up a front for my own mom. and if this is true, then thats how i really am.

Answer 1

oh damn, i have often wondered the same thing (how do i find myself?), and i think you dont find yourself you create yourself, and you be what yu want to be.... when people call you you should talk to them, let them know how you are feeling and what you are thinking... they are there to help you and support yoou, just like you are for them... if you are sick of sitting in your apartment then dont! go out more, go for walks, or go to a library, or the movies, or go out with your friends or family, do more for yourself, and spent more time with people... good luck babe, i hope you work yourself out

Answer 2

Every one has a purpose in this life..and it is not sitting in your apartment ..doing ..not much at all.

For your true purpose and your true call in life..to find out who you truly are ..you need to find God..let him take charge of your life..repent ..and tell him how you are feeling.

He knows what you are supposed to do in this...who you were born to be.

Ask him to let you know...

Join groups of hobbies you like..go out..meet people..

you will eventually be driven to where you're meant to be..with who you're meant to be.

Your life will come around..completely change..
Your tone of voice will chance from sadness to happiness..
you will realise that you have found yourself.
and you will realise that the person you are..is someone successful..caring..and special.

Goodluck