What am I talking about here?

Question

How can perpetual fascinations ever demise?
Perhaps when all good notions turn to despise.
How does one become the most selected?
Perhaps when one can no longer be effected
by the bullshit demand of passion and
the already-fake compassion
that slowly diminishes the ones in addiction,
the ones with the right intentions,
the ones who fail to notice that an eviction
of all things with cliché-substance is but the best addition
in combating what leads to their own demise.
The required despise comes about when one can realize
precisely what to no longer idealize.
The best disposition arises from the eviction
of what is so typically in demand.
Even as sincere plans disappear, wash away in soft sand,
one can never remain torn, never learn what it feels like to mourn\
Of course, ask, why follow this pretense?
Is it really valid, does it really make good sense?
Why ask for good sense when all else has failed?
One will never come close to perfect sense
unless one.. (cutoff)

Answer 1

You seem to be talking about gaining a sense of self, maturing no matter at what age. You are you and you is all.