Does this make me crazy?

Question

I have crazy thoughts. I always sit and imagine death. I sometimes pretend someone is trying to kill me and i kill them instead. Or Imagine someone at school that has ticked me off and just killing them.

I have friends.
I don't get in trouble.
My record is clean.
I am not goth nor crazy looking.
Just your emo long haired kid.

But then i have this sensation for Power...Literally
I wanna have power and use it.
I imagine i was more powerful than anyone in this world.

Im just thinking am i crazy or do i have split personalities.
Cause Im not mean to anyone or get into fights.
But sometime people make me so mad that all these plans that go through my head, wanna break out and it happens to me.

I also have a thing that keeps me happy. And I believe that Emotion like crying, being depressed, Upset is a sign of weakness. I believe anger, apathy keeps me alive and strong.

So i ask...Am I crazy. Serious Answers..Cause I really don't want to post this but i will.

Thanks

I don't feel useless. Maybe it is a stage during my teen years, But im just wondering if i am or not. Myself if i am i don't mind its what i am and i won't change for anyone....But still i wanna see those others replies. So keep it coming.

My Parents..Weren't abusive. Nothing has happened to scar my life or emotions. Father- Doctor in theology/pastor
Mother-Homeworker/Retired.

I might be thinking too deeply in my emotions. and should let that go if that's the core of the problem.

Well Yes..I have thought about it from the time of writing this question.
And There is one Answers that has struck me. And that is to the person who said " I can be one of the greatest murder series author" I am not saying im gunna be inspiried to write or this is a guarantee that i will. But thank you all for your answers. Based on most of them, I have an answers that I am not crazy. Yes i am still young (16 years) and Well this is maybe just an odd stage few teenagers go through. I shall try writing-Thats a fact. And Well. I'll check this later. My bedtime.

Goodnight.

Answer 1

I always marvel at the way people seem to come across as experts in the field when they are actually not. I don't claim as an expert, but I happen to be known as a psychologist as my occupation. (Fine.. This is Yahoo! Answers, and everyone can say pretty much anything he wants, and claims that he's president if he feels like it. That's fine if you feel that way. I am speaking the truth anyway.)

The reason why I wrote the above paragraph is to remind you that you need not take everything listed here personally, or seriously, especially when they don't seem to be in line with the kind of answers that you need emotionally. That includes my answer, if it does not appeal to you, of course.

Now, finally, my opinion. Firstly, what I would like to say is that you are not abnormal or crazy. As a matter of fact, it is good that you are self-conscious and vigilant about your thoughts, feelings and behaviour. Because you may feel vulnerable and frightened when you introspect too much, it is important that you tell yourself that this is not abnormal, and think about the the things that you can do to feel better about yourself. If distractions work well, then be distracted by keeping yourself busy with things you enjoy doing. If you feel you want to speak to someone professional (e.g. psychologist, counsellor, psychotherapist) and you may feel better after that, go for it (but it's not a must, if you ask me). The fact that you posted this question shows that you are conscious that some of your thoughts are not right and you know you should never execute them (e.g. killing).

I have had worked with many teenagers, and I really hope many can be as reflective and self-conscious as you are. Of course, too much of anything is no good, so do give yourself credit and rewards when you feel you did some little things right and well.

Answer 2

you're not crazy you just have an active imagination. If anything people should be more like you and imagine what they could do to people rather than actually acting upon it. Thinking about death is normal, a lot of people do it, it's just apart of life (and death lol). I can guarantee you that you do not have a split personality, people don't know what happens when their other side takes over if they do. If you still think you have a problem, talk therapy is a great way to get the thoughts out of your head. Or try writing them down, you could be the next greatest murder series author.

Answer 3

It's just a classic teenager complex. I think everyone goes through a stage at some point in their life worrying about their sanity. It's natural to want to evaluate yourself. Consider it a form of self improvement. Make a log each week about something that happened that either empowers you or made you feel insecure. At the end of the month read over what you wrote. Use this as a form of self counseling, and if at any point you feel your emotions are beyond your control talk to an adult you can trust, stay away from school counselors as even if you feelings are benign, they feel they will be the next savior to turn in a pre-columbine student. I understand it's just part of the job but they may remove you from school just for being honest.

Answer 4

No your not going crazy. Usually an urge for power is just to mask a feeling of being useless. And this usually happens during adolescence because most teens are at a stage where they feel uninfluential of their lives and the lives of others. When you crave power, you crave influence. It's not crazy. If you start acting upon those fantasies, then you have problems.

Answer 5

confident! The universe (and its properties) is quite astounding. I guess in case you repost your question on the Physics communicate board, you're able to get solutions that positioned your questions extra into attitude. i think of the physicists have actual theories to reply to questions mutually with "while the airborne dirt and mud and planets and all that ends does the universe? or does the blackness only save goin on and on?" As for, "Why is there a Universe?" you will could regulate this question slightly; in any different case, the physics human beings will clarify the "huge Bang thought," which, i'm assuming (undesirable undesirable undesirable), isn't the respond you want. So, you're able to ask, "Is there shrink to the universe? And if it extends infinitely, is there a factor the place atomic rely/potential ceases to exist? or some thing to that effect. As for G/god, there is not any necessity for G/god to exist and for there to be a Universe. G/god, in accordance to three, created the universe. yet this perception is barely sufficient for the respond 'Why is there a Universe?'--no longer needed; yet, no person, as of present day, has given a needed answer to the question 'Why is there a Universe?' maybe sometime you will provide us this answer.

Answer 6

Nope. One of the defining features of crazy person is that they never question thier sanity. So not crazy. I would guess this; You feel you have little control over your life. This may be caused by strict parents, or maybe you're smaller than average or something to that effect. As you get older and more in control of your own life it will go away. Also, if you stop concerning yourself with the opinions of others it will help.

Answer 7

Everything that is running through your head , runs thruogh everyone elses in one way or another, but if you obsess over them they will ruin your life and happiness....Don't be afraid of emotions, they keep everything in perspective....Trust me, when i was in high school i wanted to kill extravagant numbers of people in order to save the planet....Now, I love people and enjoy helping others.....Those thoughts used to give me an adreneline rush like drugs, but they hollowed me out and stole the happiness from my days....I lost years off my life, please don't do the same....

Answer 8

You sound like an ACON.

It may sound cliche, but your emotional development has a lot to do with your parents (or lack thereof).

You're not crazy--you're totally normal for someone who had to grow up in the environment in which you did.

I'd recommend Children of the Self-Absorbed by Nina Brown.

Answer 9

hi you are not in someway crazy, I am going through he same process right now so the best option is to tell your parents about your problems and go see a spychologist. i will be seeing them in the next week or so

Answer 10

Nope, you're just a teenager. It's a very strange time in one's life.