Am i being clingy or weird? im so confused.?

Question

Well i will try to explain this as clear as I possibly can. I just been through a recent break up....and I was doing some intense thinking/introspecting, trying to see if everytihng he said about me was true. He called me proud and vain and accused me of not loving him because i can only love myself. Usually I never really pay attention to him and I have to admit that i do live in my own little world at times..and i sometimes lack sensitivity when i deal with him but it;s like after the break up...i was shocked i felt anger...instead of sorrow....all I wanted was revenge. However these feelings have now gone..and I have been haunted by dreams that we will be together again. a part of me doesn;t want to have anything to do with him..but another part of me wants something that i cant really put my finger on. I dont think i was ever attracted him him phsyically..(which he did realize and was really pissed about..) but i think i am wanting his soul.....i know that sounds so stupid..but

I think i love him deeper than any love that is commonly known. I look past what normal couples want. I am searching for that spiritual and emotional connection. Lately i was wondering if i was going insane or something. i talked to a close fiend about it and she believed that I didnt love him romatically so it was best for us to be apart. I am so confused...I don;t know if this feeling is love between friends or love between boyfriend/girlfriend, husband/wife. I miss him...but I am not going crazy about him. It's just the way I feel about him is what is confusing me...and i hate it when he tells me he cares for me but is now in another relationship. I also have a problem showing my feelings. I keep them locked up. I don't know how or what to do...and i feel so hopeless now. I need alittle guidence. Someone tell me what you think

Answer 1

Life some times is hard like a rock.People are complex.Humans are peculiar.Male and female are different creature in the world.Have someone is not an easy task.However,you're young.You have time.Now,you must use that time in your side.First.take away those silly ideas.You must act like a winner.Live for the day.Look the world with blue eyes.Think about happiness.Give the chance.