Have you thought about suicide? Ever actually tried to take your own life?

Question

I recently found put that people think of suicide on average at leats five times throughout their life but i've thought of it way more and am quite young. I think sometimes it's just to put on the dramatics but others i really think about how i'd do it and stuff. like for example, if i was to take my own life i wouldn't cut, shoot myself or anyhitng that hurts, i'd probably gas myself or overdose on some kind of prescription pill. wow...i really sound suicidal but i actually have a great life, sometimes i'm a bit of a drama queen i reckon. phew...now that i've vented, on to the question!

I also think that suicide is a selfish way out and agree with oianzhino about the fact that the 5 times is probaly SERIOUS contemplation of suicide but many ppl have heaps of stupid thoughts on it.

Answer 1

I've thought about suicide quite a bit. It's not like I have a bad life or anything, I just never feel happy. I'd thought about driving off cliffs, into oncoming traffic, taking mountains of pills... I figured It would be hard to do, and I'd have to find a way that would be 100% certain to work the first time nearly instantly.

Well, one day, my wish was granted. I was in the Navy, and one night, they gave me a 9mm beretta, and told me to go walk around and look for "intruders." on the ship. It was totally dark, and nobody was around, so I walked on back to the aft end of the ship to have a better look at the gun. I looked at the magazine, chambered a round, took the safety off, and put the barrel in my mouth.

Moment of truth there. I honestly felt like I had no reason not to pull the trigger.

I thought of my parents, my sister, my aunts and uncles, and I just started to squeeze a little more.

I though of my friends, and my girl back home, and my finger just tightened a little.

I thought of all the kids at my church passing by a big box with me in it, and told myself the wouldn't even understand what was happening.

I gave another little squeeze, but try as I might to convince myself, I couldn't make myself pull the trigger far enough to shoot that round through my skull.

Have you ever been trying to kill a gopher, or a big bug, or something, and you sort of flinch just enough to miss, almost on purpose? Even though it's a vermin, a pest that nobody wants around, killing is a hard thing to do. Ever tried killing a sick pet? I have fish, so I had to a few times, and that's even harder, but killing yourself? Even if you have the will, and the drive to do it, every fiber in your body rebels against the effort.

I couldn't shoot myself in the head. Then and there, I knew I wouldn't be able to kill myself no matter what I tried. I still feel like I wish I were dead sometimes, but it's an enormous relief to know that I won't be the one responsible when the end of my life comes around.

I'm not saying you should ever try to commit suicide. In fact, it's so much harder than you think it is, that the effort to try probably isn't worth it. Could you really? ask yourself that about ten times in a row, and I guarantee that at least 20 times you'll hear a little voice screaming "No, No, No. I can't!"

Answer 2

I'm also fairly young and I used to (about 2 years ago) think about suicide on a daily basis. I actually tried to end my life inn November of 2005. I tried to by overdosing on medication. I was up all night puking... Worst and lowest night I'll ever live through. But I'm soo glad I did because I'd have missed out on so much in just a year and 1/2 already... If you ever think of actually trying suicide, just think this: you never know if that life-altering moment you need to want to live is just a minute, an hour, a day or a week away and if you died you wouldn't be here to experience it. Just stick it out, and if you think your life isn't worth living, just think of it as it can only get better. If you're religious at all just remember those who take their own life are damned to hell.

Answer 3

I've thought about suicide a few times, mostly in my teens. I look back on those times and I think "man, I'm glad I didn't". The thing to remember is that there will be tough times in your life but they won't last forever.
At 40 I have so much in my life to be thankful for. If I'd cut my life short I wouldn't be enjoying the things and people I love now.
Growing up can be really tough, especially when your a teen. But always remember: there are better things headed your way. Once you understand how to control your own destiny the possibilities are endless.

Answer 4

Taking the easy way out is a bit selfish - what about the people who are left behind? But you are right, who has not thought Of suicide once in their life time? I have but I think it was more a cry for help as I was just willing to swallow some pills. I could never hang or shoot myself. If you really want to die that you find a way before someone finds you.

Answer 5

Yeah -- I think that "5 times" figure must be like serious contemplation of suicide -- "Should I really?" not just when it crosses your mind.
I'd thought about it enough at one point in my life to actually stick the barrel of a revolver in my mouth and pull back the hammer -- and as I did it, I pretty much realized that I was doing it as a way to actively choose life. I'd put myself in that situation, and chosen to lower the hammer.
Though now, if I ever did it (I don't plan on it, just hypothetically!), I probably wouldn't go for disabling the brain: now that I know about DMT, I figure that natural brain hallucinogen ought to soften the shock into whatever I'd find beyond!

Answer 6

I am with you on that one. I've thought of it since around age 13, many times throughout my life. I find it's kind of comforting to think of death, even though I have a lot to be thankful for. I think of how I would do it when feeling sad, lying in bed at night.

I think I would go with the most fool-proof method possible, no gun shot to the head because what if you accidentally blew off your face, instead?

I think, after changing my mind on this several times, that a heroin overdose would be the easier way to go, although I don't know anyone with access to heroin and have never tried it. Heroin is relatively hard to get.

Answer 7

Yes, and yes, but not successful. I woke up three days later from taking pills. It was also the same time my daughter was concieved so it turned out for the better.

I believe these are thoughts that process through some peoples brains as a possible solution. It all stems from low-self esteem. Its important to get to the inner-realm of who you really are as a spirit being. At least in my own experience.

Stop looking for your answers from the outside in! Instead realize that ALL answers come from the inside. This is where we connect to the divine. Try meditation....it works, you just have to stop all the inside chatter and start listening to your higher-self.

Good luck!

Answer 8

k im 16 now and dont worry its quite common to think abt it as a young person for it has also fascinated me when i was younger but now tht ive grown up and have seen many ppl dyeing b4 my eyes and their loved ones crying over their death, i came 2 know wat death really is. so i think tht u will also know abt all tht as u grow older.till then just deviate ure thoughts when u come across such thoughts. ure still young and playful thts all. but dont think sleeping pils or poison gases will u give u a painless death. even tht death is very painful though it does not look painful!!!! look! this is wat happens after a person is dead... their loved ones go through immense pain but they have 2 live 2! so they just force themselves 2 4get abt u! and as days go by u just bcome 4gotten though ppl will miss u a bit. do u want 2 live a gr8 life and being remembered by ppl always or end ure life in a silly way 4 a silly reason and make ure loved ones hate u?!?!!?? .... think 4 ureself............

Answer 9

Once when I was about 9 years old,I was angry at my mother (do not even remember why) and took two mouthfuls of Black Flag Poison for insects,nobody ever found out untill many years later when I told one of my uncles and he in turn told my mother,the hurt in her eyes was worse than the poison itself,what save me that day was that after a few minutes of downing the liquid,I threw up till my stomach ache,the taste in my mouth of that liquid stayed for days and I couldn't eat,To all that are complementing suicide,think first what you are about to do,once you start you can't go back

Answer 10

Honestly I have never thought about suicide,,,I am a huge believer in God and his word (The Bible) and I guess it's so in me that suicide is not the answer that it's not an option for me.

I will tell you that I have felt depressed and with a desire to sleep and sleep and sleep but not actual suicide but thank God I call on him and even that desire to sleep goes away.

God is good and faithful and if we open our hearts to him, he will do abundantly above what we may ask or think.