i just REALLY DONT Care anymore??!?!!?!?!?!?

Question

i find myself doing stupid things lately, and i am not proud of what i have done, there has been times when i see or hear things and i just dont care like i dont have the energy to care, and i dont want that and i feel like im not myself anymore, its liek im not in my own body and im someone else who doesnt care. and i feel so depressed sometimes and its not depressed where u are crying every minute but the kind that grows from the inside and its liek im trying to fight it but i cant, and i dont want this to hurt anyone from what i am doing. and i know i have hurt someone that i truly care about and i feel realy bad but its just that i cannot control my actions. i was never like this but i dont knwo what has happened to me...that has made me act this way. please guys do u know whats wrong?

and also i feel like if ppl love or hate me it doenst matter since i just dont care. they can say things to me and i wont even care liek ok uh huh and i wont think about it. one side of me wants help but another side thinks that i dont want anyone to help me...but today i saw something that really made me think but...something just overtook me and i dont know what happened...i think im going crazy !!

Answer 1

Hi, well from personal experience I have been were you are, infact I still have days like that but I just try to fight the feeling of being negative. I had a pretty tough childhood but I'm sure most of us have been there. I use to just hate everything and everybody, didn't want anyone close to me what so ever, I would put walls up everywhere and I got the additude that I just didn't care so just **** everything right but I was so miserable and I meant a man that I have been with for 7 years, I kinda let him go but kinda considering... anyways I tried everything so that he wouldn't like me but nothing worked and he still goes through somethings because of my outlook on things sometimes and it is so hard to get out of that world of misery man I know I was like that for at least 15 years. I got sick of myself, I couldn't stand myself. I had to figure out what was really bothering me and it took sometime but once I knew I took just baby steps to just keep my head up about things and it took along time to be positive about things and I'm telling you I just started really smilin again this year and when I started it made my face hurt i haven't smiled in so long lol. Listen you need to sit and think about what's really going on, even write down somethings just brain storm and it could be alot of things but just take a little tiny thing to start with and try and make it better. You need to feel good about yourself regardless of what others think of you. When you start to love yourself you will notice a heavy load lift of your shoulders. It's very hard to get started with this but you can do it, don't keep people out of your life because you hurt, and it hurts to let people near your heart trust me I know, it took me along time but I still don't let my guard down until I know I can trust ya know. You have to let go of the past, thats the only way you will move forward. Your a great person so come on lift your head up and look at the world. Who cares what others think, you live for you so what ever you want to do in life go for it and just try and like your self and soon enough you will love yourself. I know that you'll be okay but you do need support, I had a few friends there for me but I did most of if on my own. I just had to get back to being me and once I did wow what a feeling, it's awesome.

Well sorry so long but I hope you got something of help, take care.

Answer 2

Depression has its roots in anger. This requires therapy to deal with and sometimes a psychiatrist may prescribe antidepressants. A big question here: do you think you might hurt yourself or hurt anyone else? If the answer is yes, then you should call your local hospital ER IMMEDIATELY because you need help asap. If the answer is no, then you need to find a good counselor and seek therapy.

If you are under 18 you need to talk to your parents, school counselor, religious leader or another adult who can help you. If you are over 18, you can still speak to these people but you can also get some help yourself. Still, when you feel really in that "I don't care" frame of mind, it can be hard to do ANYTHING so getting some help finding someone is still a good idea.

Everyone goes through periods of depression in their lives but at different levels. Some are because of circumstances (divorce, death of someone close to you, financial problems, school difficulties, etc.) and that usually is fixed with some therapy teaching you how to handle the bumps in life. Other depression can come from a biological reason - a chemical imbalance in the brain where not enough seratonin (the chemical that makes you feel good) is produced. That is why antidepressants help because they stabilize your seratonin levels. They are NOT happy pills contrary to what others say. You still feel the same emotions but you can now handle them in a normal fashion.

Not all antidepressants work the same for each person. You may find undesirable side effects or that they just don't work. You may need to take several before finding one that really helps you out. And they take several weeks to start to work so you need some patience.

There is nothing embarrassing about getting some help. It isn't any different than having an illness like diabetes or cancer. Mental issues are serious and need care just like physical ones. Go ask someone for help immediately. And, like I said, if you are at ALL thinking suicidal or harmful thoughts towards yourself or others, you need to get help right away!

Good luck and hope you feel better soon. It may take awhile but you CAN feel better again. You just need to ask for some help.

Answer 3

What are you doing that's hurting other people? What kind of stupid mistakes are you making? I think I understand where you're coming from. I felt the same way once but I don't know if my situation was different because I'm not sure what you're doing. If you provide that info, I might have a more specific answer for you.

Well for now I'll just take a shot in the dark: You've lost something. It's something that gave you purpose, pride, identity, direction or stability (maybe even a lot of somethings). It could be a job, a goal, a person, or even yourself. Maybe you've tried to call out for help. Maybe while you did, no one heard you. So you feel like, what's the point? Why does it matter anymore? Obviously if it doesn't matter to anyone else, why should it matter to me? You feel lost and trapped. Maybe you don't like yourself. Maybe you hate yourself. It's hurtful but you're sick of hurting. Then it becomes a defense mechanism to just not care anymore. What will happen, will happen. It doesn't matter because whatever happens, it can't be worse than where you are now. Maybe sometimes in your numbness you'll find your conscience when you hurt someone else, which also brings you a little hurt yourself. It confuses you because you're numb to protect yourself but your conscience tells you it's wrong because you're hurting somebody.

You should find something, just one thing that will help you find good....good in the world, in life, in others and in yourself. Get rid of everything that you know is destructive...right this second. Eventually you'll be able to care again because all of the things left in your life will be worth caring about.

Answer 4

First of all, you are probably about to hit puberty if you haven't already done so. Second, if you already have hit that time, then you may just be going through a teenage phase. Sometimes though, the phase can be more than that, like depression. See, depression isn't just the crying, mopey-dopey type. It can also be described as exactly what you're doing. You need to talk to a trusted adult about this, and if you can't trust anybody, get someone to take you to a counselor. You may be trying to hurt yourself without even realizing. Situations like this could arrive at solutions such as suicide, cutting, eating disorders, etc. It's time for you to get help. <3

Answer 5

My friend Josh is the same way. He acts like a cold-emotionless rock. I had a lot of faith in him because I knew he was an incredibly smart guy, but then his stubborn and headstrong attitude went to far and he just completely started blowing off my feelings and how I felt.
I don't think you are the kind of kid who just goes and talks about your emotions openly. SO if I were you I would apologize to that person you hurt, because I have a feeling that you can rely and trust that person to listen to you and understand what you are going through.
It's sometimes a good thing to be emotionless, but if people are saying that they love you and you have no response then dig deeper into yourself and find out why you are being this way.
Often times this happens when kids' parents are divorced or they have a tragic family life. If that's the case, then show everyone who you really are. If you don't care so much, then you won't care who you really are and how to show it. Fix things that are going on in your life which are like baby-steps to your main problem.
All in all, before you do something think hard about what you are saying/doing and how it could come off to someone. And if you slip up, then apologize and tell them you are just out of it.
I think that you should find something you enjoy to do. My friend Josh enjoys rapping to Eminem (lol) so try to find things to keep your mind off of it. and if you are comfy doin it then talk to someone.
stay true to your friends and JUST BE YOURSELF!
in the end...do you WANT to care if people love or hate you for being yourself?!

Answer 6

You aren't crazy, you are ill. It sounds like clinical depression. There are a lot of treatments available to you, not just medication either. With the right treatment, you will be back to your old self in no time, and believe me, you might think you don't care now, but once you get well again, you'll be glad you got help. Do it now, the sooner the better because you are not in very good shape right now and without help it only gets worse.
Been there done that, believe me I know what I am talking about.

Answer 7

There are several options you could think about. Maybe seeing a psychologist would help a little which you were thinking of doing. Even better a school counselor or a youth leader from a church if you can meet him at a friend's house instead of the church (since your family is suspicious already). Do you have Christian friends who will pray for you? This is important. Ask Christians to pray for you, and to know what God wants you to do now. Please do not hurt yourself. What are they shouting about? I know the Muslims are terribly emotional and will get violent. I do hope you will be able to move to another place soon. The Lord knows what you need. He sees everything. Pray constantly for guidance, wisdom, and everything and pray for the salvation of your family members too. Jesus loves you very much. Keep asking any time too.

Answer 8

ummm dont eat a lot of junk food, it'll just make it worse. I went through it las year (sophomore year) . try to get active by working out pr going for a jog. You'll get over it soon it only last for maybe a 5-8 weeks. Just go with how you feel. I know for a fact that ive changed so much since i got to high school due to the fact that ive seen whats good and how i should and what felt right so I went that way. Its a tough time and we always go through ups and downs so hang in there!!

Answer 9

i think that you need to look into gettin some help. Sounds like a bad case of depression. I know u say you don't care but it sounds to me like you are just screaming for help..I think that u should go to a doctor and maybe be put on some sort of anti-depressant. It could lead to very serious health problems.

Answer 10

Live, love & laugh. I do & I know everyone else goes through depressions at some points in their life. If one seems happy, who knows? deep down inside, they're trying to overcome their stresses by living, loving & laughing. You'll get through anything, trust me. It's only a matter of courage, faith & time. If you are confident in yourself, if you keep on believing & keep the patience going, I guarantee you, life will go on again, sweet one. A saying that's really true. "The sun will always rise again after a rainy day."
Life's the same.