Please answer my question ,and relieve out of my misery.?

Question

All by myslf ,whole world against me no one to luv all here to decieve,ending my misery i wish to die better hell than to live a lie.
Hey watz up my fellas,Im a 18 y/o small town boy living w/ his mom and sister being the man and protector of the family ,but deep down it just hurts my heart that i can't let da wrld no dat im Gay i dont know wht stops me ,the thought of my mothers heart being broken or being neglected ,and laughed at, i feel so lonely sometimes that i have slept w/ half the public to fill dat gap but everyone sleeps w/ me and than runs away like im a ugly monster,im even in love w/ diz dude at my work who keeps on looking at me trying to tlk to me but im tired of being used i want love,someone to cuddle w/ and hold his hands and announce my sexuality to world how do i know if he likes me or its just me being in denial that someone loves me ,i just am obsessed w/ him but when i see him i ignore him wht do i do {i cant ask him no one knows im gay so thers no asking.

Answer 1

You shouldnt just sleep with anyone thats not gonna make nothing better., and try telling him how you feel and what you are such as being gay,..and about not telling your family "mother" my opinion she will be the one person to understand it shes your mother shell love you no matter what so dont hide it,..I wish you the best of luck and trust me someday you will find that someone that will hold hands with you cuddle and be proud to tell the world who you really are..,So i hope you find it and soon,and telling your family i wish you the best of luck....Message me on yahoo if you need someone to talk to ♥

Answer 2

What tells you cannot continue to be the man and the protector of the family? And..why can't your family protect you too? You should read some coming out stories, just to know that your family will not neglect you, they will suffer, of course, and they will love you maybe more because you need them as much as they need you. Remember that women are very strong. It would be harder to tell a father than a mother. But I'm sure that they would prefer helping you out than leaving you alone with all this.
After that, everything else will come easier. Good luck!

Answer 3

I'm a gay guy so I know how it is being lonely, especially since I didn't really hook up with anyone because that's now how I am. Instead I just kept waiting and dating to find that right guy. I found a nice loving cute guy using the craigslist / men for men / 20 years of being lonely finally paid off. Try it. By the way, stop being a whore too.

Answer 4

Dee you first of all need to accept yourself for who you are. Just going out and being with someone does not create instant love. You are young still and you will break your mothers heart much more if you hurt yourself. Give yourself some time-this is coming from a mother who is straight! Wait on the love you are looking for dying will not bring that love to you. Let those you get close to know that you want love not just sex. Be careful to and don't take so many chances.

Answer 5

I think if you had some counseling and worked through your fears, that you would be able to face your mom and family and come out of the closet. Your life would improve greatly I suspect. However, as far as the choices you make in a mate. That's totally up to you. If you chose to sleep around, then you'll keep getting what you've already had. Once it's known that your gay, you might meet someone nice and share in a good relationship. Best wishes to you.

Answer 6

Good Lord son, get a grip. You cannot have sex with your entire town...that's unattractive. If you need gaps to fill shop at The Gap.

Answer 7

Don't be so quick to jump in bed next time you meet someone you like. Get to know a person first and build a relatioship.

Answer 8

Slow down. you're gonna scare the guy away!