Depression, Agoraphobia, Obesity, Miscarriage ..... long question?

Question

Ok this is a long story but here goes.... Till i was 19 i was pretty much just a normal person like everyone else, i had eating disorders but my weight was kept steady and i was slim. I had suffered on and off with depression since i was 15 and was on medication, its a while ago now (i'm 28) but i think i was on prozac then. When i got to 19 i came out of a bad relationship and got severely depressed, and in my warped way of thinking decided i didn't want to go out anymore (out the house) so i figured if i put on weight my mum wouldn't force me to go out, i know that sounds stupid but i was very depressed and i think slightly off my head. So i ate and ate till i got to 18 stone, as a person who always had trouble maintaining my weight before that and was obsessed with weight and looks, this was a major deal to me there is no way i would step foot outside the house, to be humiliated, taunted and laughed at. So i stayed inside in my own little world in the safe coccooon of my house for 3

yrs then one day something just clicked in my brain and i knew i was ready to get back to real life again. I put myself on a severe diet ( i ate 2 cuppa soups and three dry crackers a day) and exercised a LOT after 8 months i was down to 9 stone, i still felt fat and had lost the tiny bit of confidence i had to start with so still didnt go out a lot, anyway eventually i met a man and started dating this ended up with me gettiing pregnant, the guy and i split u but i was happy about the pregnancy. at three months i started bleeding and was referred to the hospital for a scan and they said they couldnt find a heartbeat and i must have got my dates wrong (i knew i hadn't) anyway a week later i had a spontaneous abortion and i was passing clots that were like the size of a rugby ball i refsed to go to hospital and after 5 hours of this ended up really ill and was rushed to hospital, wher they gave me a d&c, antibiotic drips and a blood transfusion, once i got out of hospital i got really

depressed and started putting on weight again and stopped going out. I have been on seroxat for a long time now, about 8 years i think and they were upped to 60mg a day and i was also given risperdal for the OCD i developed, whih i have been on for the last two years. infact have just come of them due to even more weight gain caused through them. Ok now the crux of my problem, i am now 22 stone, i suppose i am sort of agoraphobic because the only time i set foot outside the house is when i go to the doctors and when i do this i have to be driven to the door in the car. I'm in a vicious cycle, i don't go out, i am depressed, i am bored so i eat. I need to diet but am finding this very hard to due due to the depression and boredom, i'm really lonely and just totally fed up. I am also desperate to have a child since my miscarriage its all i can think about. My weight affects me greatly and i am unable to stand for long or do much physically due to pain in my back and legs( i had a back in

injury when i was 10) so there is weakness in my back and my weight makes it kill. So t the size i am now exercise is out of the question, i also have breathing problems due to my weight (i have had this checked out my heart and lungs r fine) i am desperate to lose weight so i can get back to normal and have a child. I feel like i cannot get myself out of this vicious circle i asked the doctor if it is possible to have weight loss surgery and there is three stages u have to go thru to get it, the first being going to see this healthy eating person once a week which i cant do cos i dont wanna go out. Ive had orlistat before but am thinking about maybe trying reductil, does this work? then i think to lose all this weight will take me years and i am panicking that i will lose weight then have to mee someone stat a relationship for a long time then together decide to have a child gee by that time im gonna be in my mid thirties and my chances of conceivng are less , and what if i dont meet

anyone? who is gonna wanna meet someone with sagging skin all over their body? i could never afford to have surgery for this and the nhs dont do it, i know i willl have sagging skin as last time i lost weight i was 4 stone lighter and did about 3 hrs of execise a day and still my skin was loose, if i loose weight this time my boobs r gonna be flat and empty and im gonna have skin hanging off every part of my body. This is making me so depressed i feel suicidal. im so frightened the more time goes on i will become too old to have children which i desperatly want, i can't deal with hearing about people being pregnant it just recks my head and makes me so jealous and so upset i lost my baby i just cannot get over this, my cousins stepdaughter just had a child and i cant even talk to my cousin about it or congratulate her because i am so jealous. how sad is that and meanspirited, its not her fault i am the way i am. I just dont know what to do. I cant believe that when u have morbid obesit

that when u lose weight unless u have a LOT of money nothing can be done abou the excesss skin, who at the age of 28 who is single and wants to have a boyfriend wants to look like that? its like having the body of a 100 year old, infact no its not the 100 year olds body would probably look better. I don't even know why i have wrote this, i think i am a hopeless cause, just sometimes u want to say all the stuff that is churning around in ure head day after day, its funny i never even wanted childrn till i got pregnant then its like my hormones kicked in and now im broody 24/7, i think i am obsessed with it. Time is ticking on i am not getting any younge and for my problems there is no quick solution, what the hell am i to do?

Answer 1

Let's start with some facts:

* Your fertility remains about the same from age 25-35. So, you have a few years yet to get pregnant.

* If you exercise as well as eat less, the skin will snap back better. It's the severe dieting with no exercise that leaves your skin loose.

* You can exercise, even at your weight, but you will have to start slow. For example, you can do exercise videos at home. Start and stop them repeatedly so you can get through them. Stop whenever you are so breathless that you can't talk. As long as you can talk but not sing, keep going.

* You've treated your depression and agoraphobia with medication, but it seems like you need some talk therapy with a professional. You need to work out why you're going through these issues. It seems like you have poor coping and decision-making skills, e.g., deciding to put on weight so your mum wouldn't force you to leave the house.

* Something like 45% of women have a miscarriage or abortion, so you're not alone. At least now you know you can get pregnant. If you learn to eat right (no starving) and exercise moderately, you can probably carry a child to term in the future.

* Work on fixing you first before you bring a child into the world. In the meantime, you might enjoy volunteer work with children, and seeing them might motivate you to get out of the house.

* You need to learn how to diet and exercise. Try weightwatchers online to learn how.

Good luck!

Answer 2

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