How do you resolve the struggle within if you are mixed race?

Question

My pyschiatrist says that my bipolar illness has to do with the fact that my father is European (Scottish) and my mother is Spanish (Peruvian). I have always felt like an outsider. I feel as though I am not accepted in society by Europeans or Spanish. I live in Washington State so I feel like I am more in touch with European culture. I visited my family in Peru in 99 for three weeks. I was very sad when I left. I often feel that I should have stayed in Peru. The summer of 99 is when my troubles started. I was diagnosed as bipolar in 2000. I visited Scotland in 98 and was very depressed for two days. I have worked lots of low skill jobs with Mexican immigrants. I speak Spanish so people always assume that I undertand their situation. I think that I am out of balance. I feel as if I have one foot in North America and one foot in South America but I feel that I am leaning to much in North America. Are there any mixed race people who feel the way that I do?

Answer 1

my best friend asked me a similar question. he is hispanic/white. usually, other people's comments make you feel this way. surround yourself with positive people and influences. i don't know if you're religious, but GOD doesn't care what color you are. it's just color. we all have the potential to be mixed with different races and not know it. learn how to look in the mirror and smile. not because you're forcing yourself to, but because you have not only one culture to share with the world, but two. chin up!

Answer 2

I am sure there are plenty of mixed people that feel torn, even without being bipolar. Non-mixed people also feel left out a great deal. Its a human condition. Accept yourself, find peace within, then it won't matter what others think. If you can be comfortable in your own skin, you can be comfortable anywhere.

Cheers!

Answer 3

its not because of your mixed race, your depression was probably triggered by the move.
i was recently diagnosed bi-polar and it only started to really get bad after i moved. i moved from the city to the country and i often feel out of place like i dont belong here, and i have deep regrets about moving.
hope i helped some

Answer 4

Nothing...b what u r and b very proud abt it....Only in America I have seen a color of skin really matters.....

when I went overseas I heard from people that America is place of freedom....they know by your work not where r u from......thats all BS I replied...

Answer 5

This is what you do. Turn off all the lights in your room. Light a candle. Play Mettallica "The Struggle Within" all the way up. Only then will you know who you are.

Answer 6

i know that its your family but family can be your worst enemy. so surround your self with the people who love you for who you are