Is anyone becoming aware of their "observer"? If so, what was the experience like at first?!?

Question

Also, was their any strong emotions that you seemed to become completely consumed by?? I keep feeling these intense feelings of aggitation, anger, and sadness about wanting to be doing more with my life. The aggitation and anger is usually directed outward, on people like my boyfriend or our living situation. Any insights?!?!? Please share your experiences with me as well!

Answer 1

When I first experienced these emotions in my marriage (OK before we got married) and as I continue to grow with my mate, I realize that these things are felt at new thresholds of growth. I have only felt safe to really express these things with my husband, because no one else has ever loved me like him. As we worked on my stuff his stuff also came out....now through talking it out and growing together, we really are life partners and rarely have extreme outbursts (extreme being a relative term- we have always been very loving-so I don't mean we were abusively aggressive just real and pure in our emotions. )

I think it takes courage to be free....to love the journey, learn from it and to grow into a whole person, a wise person a being of love.

Be gentle on yourself and your partner, relax and breath deeply...you are beautiful and so is he. Don't get too caught up in external expectation, or self consciousness. Don't waste your time in this world either......

you sound like a genuine person....keep on keepin' on!

Answer 2

All minds have constructed in them a mediation between self consciousness and sense. The unmediated mind is over grown with this new growth and life experience becomes a fuzzy blur. The numbness of indefinite fears, self and other duality in the mind create a split and the body becomes alien. Everything else therefor becomes as alien. A good solid work out of physical exercise usually helps to burn off the adrenaline and therefor the numbness is traded for liveliness. The senses become a clearer representative for outside reality and happier to have, i.e. beauty.
Naturally the Spirit follows beauty positively.

The Will is positive, the Judgment is negative. Let the Judgment judge its self.

Answer 3

If I understand correctly what you are saying, I became aware of my "observer" at a very young age, in glimpses. I think most people are never aware, I think they prefer to remain oblivious. To observe, or be aware is a hard thing. There is so much that can cause all the feelings you are experiencing. People go to great lengths to avoid these feelings. I think the trick is to balance observations; make an effort to see the whole picture, not just what is in plain view, but the stuff it takes more energy to see, whether one tends to look at the positive or the negative. I hope this made sense and helped even a little.

Answer 4

meditate on these feelings and let them come out. Most of the time anger/sadness/negative feelings come about because there is no healthy outlet to let them out.

Try writing your feelings out on paper/computer, prayer, talk to someone like a close friend/family/pet, meditation for at least 10 minutes.

These techniques has helped me with my negative feelings in a positive way. It has kept me from myself and others around me.

one of the books i've started reading is called "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People". It is a good read so far and has helped me understand why I need to be proactive and help deal with life. Please do check it out.

Keep it up!