Like many ppl, I fell inlove wit a guy on da net, "Steve".U kno how ppl say sum online relatnshps r deep?Ours was 1 of dem..Longterm. first, I was s2pid enuf 2 believe pics he showed me.til I found out they were fake.Steve said he was sorry. I dint care cuz I was so inlove.We talked on da mic, all that stuff..then one day he just wanted 2 leave me. He said he cant do it nemore. He left me for bout 7 mths, I was soo depressed. Til I met this other guy.. I fell in love with him.. Then I see an email from Steve saying it was all a mistake.. that he wanted me back.. that he was a GIRL(trans) & didnt want me hurt if I ever found out.I WAS SHOCKED. He told me da person on da mic was his cousin. but I took that chance agen,cuz I didnt wana jus throw it all away..I tried SO hard. I tried 3 times.. it didnt feel da same. I told him I jus couldnt look past the girl thing. He's trying so hard..I feel bad.I do love him&care 4 him..but hes a girl(trans). Im very confused. I miss Steve...shud i try?
2007-02-16
21:02:54
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I know that i should move on but that's pretty much easier said than done.. cuz i'm trying and its not going so well. i get really freakin depressed. i hate this. he only left me cuz he said we didn't have a future in real life together.. cuz hes actually a girl(trans).. but i dunno. ugh. this sucks. yeah i saw his real pics. i heard his voice.. we talk on the phone every now and then.. although right now i told him i needed space.. and F*********K i just dont know what to do. i know he loves me. i believe everything he says to me now cuz i feel that hes being for reals now.. its just that hes a girl.. AHHH i WANT to look past it.. but i think it needs time, right? omg. i dont know..i know im not in love with the girl.. im in love with steve.. but, i just have to put it together that theyre the same person i guess.. f*****k!!!!!
2007-02-16
21:28:09 ·
update #1
Yeah.. i do wish i was gay. It would be easier for the both of us.. but I am a straight female. I wish I didnt care about gender... but i can't help it. i just need time to think straight.. gah.
2007-02-16
21:32:53 ·
update #2
Maybe I am IN DENIAL??? since i love him and know hes a girl..?? i mean.. i'm guessing its fixable..
2007-02-16
21:35:43 ·
update #3