i strive for perfection and appreciate beauty.im critical,and dont hesitate?

Question

to point out others flaws.i like cleanliness.i always strive for perfection.i think too much for everything,sometimes i get headache because of that.sometimes i couldnt decide anything.im indecisive most of the times and couldnt take proper decision regarding major events in life.im 32,still unmarried and when i compare myself with juniors,i feel i have lost my youth.

also i try to be in good books of everyone and try to impress everyone .i crave for attention,sympathy.
i listen standing behind doors what others think of me.i want to be called good by everyone.im obsessed with beauty and beautiful people.
im never satisfied.i seem to be on constant search for that perfect face.
im still unmarried,so i throw my frustration on others.
im intelligent.i argue a lot.i can make my point win with my arguement.if im hurt i dont forgive easily.i usually teach them a lesson.
if i really intend to i can do mental torture and pull the person down.if i like i encourage them.but i seem to be on negative plane so much.
i think a lot,due to which i get headache.
i can make others work for me.i get things done by force most of the time.

Answer 1

I know exactly how you feel. What you have written describes me too a T! I think it is very insensitive to call you an obsessive compulsive (although there is nothing wrong with trying to get help for OCD). I firmly believe you are suffering with depression. Some of your behaviour/thinking is textbook depression. Your indecisiveness, for example, and your strive for perfection/admiration is something which is clearly derived from a lack of self-esteem which you pertain. I highly recommend you try and get some counselling. Unless you address your issues with qualified an impartial listener its very unlikely that you will ever obtain the satisfaction which you so crave. I wish you the best of luck.

Answer 2

A lot of people would think this sounds loserish, and I don't do it now that I am a mom (you can't keep things perfectly in order when you're a mom) but you should smoke a LITTLE BIT of pot once in a while. It might make u nervous at first but you'll get used to it and you won't sweat the small stuff as much...unless if you just have ADHD then you should see a psychiatrist for other meds. or suggestions.
Some would say meditation also helps for this kind of stress.

Answer 3

you should listen to your heart, trust your intuition and follow your dreams. Share your feelings in order to reach out and touch someone and you'll find it becomes easier to offer your love without restraint or condition. The result may be a powerful, renewable wave of gentle passion and arousal that brings good news, social or intimate invitations or proposals. This energy creates other opportunities for celebrating joy, consummating love or experiencing satisfaction. Secure domestic bliss or wholeness by being willing to expand your own expectations, embrace commitment, cross your own emotional boundaries and confront fears. Self-forgiveness, compassion, honest communication and exchange are key.

Answer 4

You will never be perfect as long as you are on this earth. It's good to appreciate beauty. All things made by God are beautiful in their own way. Pointing out other's flaws will, in turn, cause them to point out yours. It's hurtful to both of you. STOP IT!
Do not compare yourself with others. You are an individual, unique, in a class by yourself. You are 32 years old and you will never be any younger than that.....learn from your past what you can do to improve your future. You are one of God's own creatures, why not ask Him as to what path in life you should follow?

Answer 5

You are compulsive obsessive .like MONK
get some professional help or remain a Felix Unger forever
ODD COUPLE?

Answer 6

isn't your inner soul where your perfection should be ,not with out side things