am i bi? im so confused about my sexuality?

Question

Ever since i can remember i've had crushes on guys, liked them, flirted, and fell in love with two. But in the beginning of fall i was diagnosed with heavy depression and one thing that sparked it was this fear almost and thought of me being a lesbian? I think maybe it was because my boyfriend I have now changed so much and i feel like im dating a completely different person, so i might be thinking that im a lesbian because of my unhappiness with him to try to get out of the relationship. But then i thought back and remembered, that sometimes i do get turned on by girls, lesbian porn, and the thought of being with a girl in bed. The only problem is i've never had a crush on a girl, or ever wanted to pursue a relationship with one. But im scared, does me having a sexual attraction to girls but not an emotional mean that I could possibly be lesbian? I dont understand how before my sexuality was so defined as straight & suddenly i have this weird issue thinking that im lesbian?Please help

Answer 1

It sounds like you may have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. I have been recently going through the EXACT same thing, right down to being turned on by lesbian porn in the past (but notice how it never made you think you were a lesbian or bisexual back then!). http://www.brainphysics.com is a great site if you want to explore Homosexuality-based Obsessive Compulsive Disorder more. Man, I swear I could've written this myself! Plenty of straight woman have a degree of sexual attraction to women (how could we not, as much as we are bombarded by guys with the hot lesbian fantasy?), but I personally feel that what defines being Bi or Gay is whether or not you feel incomplete by not acting on these desires.

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I just noticed how many times you have posted this same thread. It really looks to me like you're performing classic "checking" rituals, in which you seek reassurance over and over again that you are not lesbian, even though you know in your heart you're not. I of course cannot verify that is what is going on in your head, but if this is incredibly persistent "intrusive" type thought I would DEFINATELY look over some of the diagnostic checklists on the afforementioned website and bring it in to whomever you see for your depression.

Answer 2

You could be any sexuality. It's not clear based on what you've put here. What you need to do is think on your feelings & desires and hopefully over time you'll figure it out. Try to separate out your sexual feelings from your situation (the depression & bad relationship.)

Answer 3

You arent bi, just confused...quit hanging out with those dorks who think saying they are "bi" is cool...they are starting to confuse you