in the grip of a major depression, a tortured existance help me i feel im not going to make it?

Question

im 29 and my life is a living hell. i speak regularley on yahoo answers and the despair i feel. if youll read my past questions you'll gain more insight. my pain is real. intense. a physicall , mental nightmare. i had a dream, well a nightmare really last night, that i was somebody different, in a happy place, somewhere enchanting and nice and that i was in love with a beautifull girl. and she loved me, then in this dream i suddenley became myself, who iam, the tortured, lonely, isolated, depressive existance..and i watched as someone else, took my place with this girl i loved, some other guy, with a happy go lucky life, younger, lots going for him, i watched as he made love to this girl, everything about what i was seeing is what always desired in my life. where i want to be. but instead i was trapped in a world of pain, as i watched a the girl i love enjoying herself with the perfect guy, in another world, i was seeing what i wanted and couldnt have. im in the grip of a powerfull

Answer 1

I think the core of your problem is lack of self esteem. Commit yourself to developing self esteem. List some ways.. some things you can do or accomplish or work towards that would make you feel better about yourself.
I think youre just lonely and want a gf. That will be easy to get once you have confidence in yourself.
Google "NLP" and/or "Ross Jeffries."
Listening to the Gayatri mantra helped me through a very painful depression, I recommend that too...
I will say a prayer for you...

Answer 2

Stop comparing your life to others. Especially a dream where it is total delusion. Everything here you have mentioned is because you percieve others having more than you and your desire for it.
Be happy in your own existence. Do not care what others do, you are not them. The guy with the big house, nice car and trophy wife has to work 80- 100 hours a week, pays huge insurance payments on the car, and I'll bet that trophy wife is a total pain in the ***. Perception is not always reality.
If you're feeling tortured, look at your hand. There is the whip. Stop whipping yourself. Just because you have a negative or depressing thought doesn't mean you have to follow it. Feelings are only feelings, they do not neseccerily require action or even to be entertained.
If you find yourself going into a depressed frame of mind, stop and look at your thoughts. What is it your thinking? Are you gonna let a brain fart run your life? The ball is in your court, you gonna hit it back or just cry that your racket has little holes in it?

Answer 3

first i'll say get some help. sometimes even short bouts of depression are not managable. by manage i mean; being able to pinpoint the cause and either eliminate or reduce the cause of your depression.
the hardest thing i find, is trying to fit into a societal niche. that being, you either fit into what is maybe society's "norm" or something is wrong with you. being a loner is okay if you so desire. if not, it isn't always easy to find like minded people to interact with.
what you describe in your dream, is an idyllic and imperfect idea of happiness. you are not totally isolated because you reach out to others, if only in this answer forum. you mention age, growing older at any stage of life is scary. usually becase we don't know what the future will bring. you also said this dream guy had it all over you...not so. you are having the same issues everyone has at some point in their lives. platitudes generally don't count for nothing. but sometimes are all we can offer or get. so here goes: be the best "you" you can be, the girl that loves you will be beautiful in in your heart, mind and eyes, rethink and replan your financial future and indulge your senses. whatever your interests are, find places to to express and enjoy them.
depression does become physically as well as mentally painful, that's a fact i know well...been there done that,,,got the t-shirt, dvd etcetera. i think you're going through the 29's. a time before age 30 in your life when you wonder; what/where will i be for the rest of my life? it ain't easy reducing many of our fears down to a daily or minor life hassle,,,but many times thats all they are.
get some counseling...it helps and also read gail sheehy's book PASSAGES. it does not address depression so much as it does life stages. you might find some comfort as well as an explanation for much you are feeling. the first book sheehy wrote came out in the 70's, the second (same title) in the 90's. get the second one. go on line or to the library and read some of it. don't see it as an i'm okay, you're okay fix it...but as just one possible cause for some of what you're feeling. be spiritual... keep the faith if not a religion...that you will feel better about your life.
each small step your take adds up big ones in your life's journey. set a personal standard and meet it...do not compete or try to match someone elses. oh yeah one more thing...people complement us... not complete or make us. i hope you can view life, as a progressive state of being, rather than just getting older and it (life) passing you by. i hope i gave you some help and i'm hoping you work on your self esteem...you're worth more gold any day...just believe it.

Answer 4

I have been suffering from post partum depression for the past one year when I gave birth to a baby boy. I couldn't stop thinking about how my husband loves him more than me and how things might be better if he wasn't born at all. Thus, I stayed away from him because I knew that I might do something I will regret for the rest of my life.

Almost instantly I went to a therapist and convince them that I need help. Among other things, I've tried herbal supplements and other book to treat depression but nothing works like the Depression Free Method. So now I'm proud to say I'm one of the happiest mother in the world. My husband loves us both very much and I thank the Lord for the blessing he gave us.

Depression Free Method?

Answer 5

mate, i'm with you each and each of how. I easily have had significant melancholy for over twenty 5 years. I continuously see the damaging, and the glass is often a million/2 empty. i can't seem to get previous this dreaded shadow over my existence. I attempt particularly some issues that i think of will make it interesting yet to no avail I finally end up making significant blunders. i'm chuffed bypass fortunate in front of pal, and acquaintances. however the black canines is often there. i became fortunate some years in the past to be suggested a psychiatrist, named Rodney. He placed me on a drug suggested as AROPAX, that's a God deliver. i became on quite a few categories of SSRI, anti depressants yet this one is the absolute maximum suitable factor on the grounds that slice bread. I nevertheless make blunders yet existence is greater beneficial than tolerable. do no longer supply up because of the fact help is available. seek for help from a pastor or a counsellor. Get help there is gentle on the top of the tunnel. peace to you.

Answer 6

unfortunately no matter what you have to make the decision to make it yourself. I know I 'm currently rehabbing from major surgery and I've been out of work and out of society for over a year now and will be for several more months. I finally had to decide despite my circumstances and limitations I had to find a way to let myself be happy. Once i was ready I found activities I could do to better enjoy myself even if I was bed bound. now I can get around my home with crutches.. But the point is no matter what anyone says it won't matter until you decide its time. Good luck.

Answer 7

Everything is perception. You are suffering. The pain is the result of unbalanced brain chemistry. Your brain is playing a trick to your being. You don't have to accept that as your ultimate truth.

Find the strenght to get up and go get the help you need to fix your brain chemistry. Don't waste time. Every minutes counts. Good luck.

Answer 8

You are a perfect guy...but you seem to have forgotten your self.You need help from a Psychiatrist as well as counselling from a psychologist.Go to a doctor..who will give you the information about these specialists.You will become better...believe me...I have suffered from depression myself and I am much better after treatment.

Answer 9

No wonder...in five month you've accumalated over 300 ans, over 500 qs, looking at your history of ans an qs you sound like Picton and I don't mean that to be harsh but real you need help. take my advise call a councillor..

Answer 10

may -be you judge your self to harsh,when you dream take over your the man,dont feel bad ,were all looking for an answer,yes its there