what would it be???
2007-02-10 15:40:31 · 31 answers · asked by vin_man00 2 in Entertainment & Music ➔ Polls & Surveys
The first time i lit a cigarette!!!
2007-02-10 15:42:51 · answer #1 · answered by TWT 6 · 5⤊ 0⤋
When I was 18, I decided to use Meth to lose weight. I looked spectacular but I was empty on the inside. I stopped a year later, but even 6 years later, still have very little recollection of that entier year - with the exception of bits and pieces..... - which I am certain I am better off not remembering............
I still feel like I victimized myself and I have no one to blame but myself. To this day, I carry a horrible guilt in my heart for what I did to myself. I can't even enjoy those old pics of me all thin - because I can see in my eyes that I didn't even want to exist at that time................ and the sad part is that so many people seemed to accept me and like me much more when I was thin. Now I understand why people become anorexic and bulemic..... Some people don't care what the cost is - EVEN if it shortens their life........... And, Much like Anna Nicole Smith - there was just a horrible emptyness and void that needed to feel accepted, desired and loved that - she paid the cost to be the boss..........
Just last week, I was browsing pics of her and told my fiance' that I'd do ANYTHING to look like her..... His response was that she was gonna die like all the other druggy stars and "Would I want that?" Well, I am happy not to be dead, but there is a huge part of me that still desires that and I bet MANY other "Seeminly level headed women out there" would ABSOLUTELY second that..........
So. Anyway, That is what I'd change. I would have never tried drugs............ Well, not those ones. It rotted my soul and broke my spirit. Now, when I look in the mirror, I just see a portrait of someone trying to PLAY THE PART........... Which I do so well.
Good Question.
Thanks for asking.
My first time admitting this to ANYONE........
Stupid to do online HUH?
Oh well..........
2007-02-10 15:49:17 · answer #2 · answered by VocalistGirl 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It's easy to name a lot of things, but you've heard the stone in the pond theory. If I went back and undid the girl, or the turned down big city job, or the next girl, or anything else, then I might not be who I am today, or I might not be alive at all, so no regrets, I'd change nothing.
2007-02-10 15:47:48 · answer #3 · answered by Answer Master Dude 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I would change the fact that I didnt say anything to my parents when I found out that my grandfather had been molesting my sister for years.
I would also change the fact that I made out with this guy thats staying at the hotel I work at cuz now every time I look at him I fee guilty and exposed.
2007-02-10 15:44:43 · answer #4 · answered by simpli_cute 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I would NOT have slept with the guy who took my virginity.
Enjoyed college much longer. I should have stayed for 5 years instead of four. Why was I rushing to responsibility.
Not have snatched a magazine out of my moms hand.
Not have moved out of my moms house in May.
Not have binged last week.
Not have used A.S and PPS as a job reference.
Not have pushed my ex boyfriend away.
Noy have gone to the dealer to get a tune up
Not have left my job at _____.
2007-02-10 15:53:06 · answer #5 · answered by kim_mii 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I had finished writing a novel and for some reason it didnt save the last 90 pages, the twisty end! I had even printed it out and it was gone. I wish I could go back and had saved it on disk!
2007-02-10 15:45:03 · answer #6 · answered by BoTToms UP 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
They say all things happen for a reason, so I don't know if I would go back and change anything, even the bad stuff.
2007-02-10 15:48:53 · answer #7 · answered by BigJake418 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I would thank Tammy for leaving me. She was so superficial & so not worth what she cost me. It was 5 years of HELL & I thought I had the world by the tail. I would also call her sister Kim & thank her for setting Tammy up with her 3rd husbands nephew & then I would call her brother Joey & tell him what Tammy told me about him. Yep, that's what I would do! Then I would move out of state. It's cold here in Iowa. Thanks for that question, It made me smile. I also would not have been my dad's best man when he remarried. My stepmom Debbie was a C. Dad's dead now so she's out of the picture now for good!
2007-02-10 15:49:50 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
nice question this,
it has to be the way i treated my first love, i was soo blind in not knowing i acted so wrongly as in saying i love u too much and scared her away.
the pain inside hasnt left me, and it mark's a scar that will go to the grave with me.
i usually have a good control of my emotions and mind but she ........ just took that control to a whole new lvl
example, i was in a situation where i thought i was gonna die, i was abused, taking drugs and even when i was nearly raped, i had control of myself then.
but she ........ i had no control of my emotions for, funny isnt it, u think u have control of ureself mind control action, ure untouchable and some1 comes out of the blue, and breaks ure defense, ure solid shield wall open, by a touch of her hands.
nothing hurts more .......
2007-02-10 15:52:15 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I would not have left the country I was born in.
2007-02-10 15:45:46 · answer #10 · answered by glasgow girl 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
I would let my first boyfriend leave after our really big fight. He was leaving and told me that he loved me anyway.
IF I had let him leave, everything about my life would have been different. Not necessarily better but definitely different.
2007-02-10 15:48:01 · answer #11 · answered by beaton_tlc 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋