So what do YOU think about me?

Question

I don't believe in god.
I'm actually nihilist, Or atheist if people ask me since nihilism is hard enough to explain.
I don't attack religion.
I don't smoke or drink or do drugs.
I don't cheat or do physical harm.
However i don't believe in morals, or good or bad, life or death.
I go into relationships just wanting to have fun, not to hurt.
I go into relationships with the end in mind, basicly i say "I can't wait to break up"
I don't care for much. I'm a very un-motivated person.
people think im gay for the way i dress, but really i could care less.
Every person sees a different me, A funny one, a sarcastic, but never the true me.
Im not moved by the holocaust or loss of friendship. I rather enjoy the joy of mental payback making myself seem like a victim.
I don't want to do anything with my life because i think it's pointless.
I don't need help. I understand psychology.
But a child could die and i could stare in it's eyes and not care.

But what kind of person does that make me?

correcting myself, that is not completely me, i listed my only bad qualities.
I'm not open with my toughts, i keep them to myself knowing i can and will offend people.
I have tons of friends and am seen as having one of the most wonderful personalities.
I have not met anyone physically meet me who showed disgust torwards me.
What kind of life should i lead with this kind of personal philosophy?

I have not had ANY known tragic experiances.
I'll smile and laugh and have an amazing time.
My "mental condition" as some of you have refered too, is never evident to anyone.
I'm actually the happiest and most optimistic person when it comes to solving other people's problems, i'm known as a person people come for help.
But when it comes to myself, I think why bother, I got everything i need in life already. I think i'm done.

Oh yes i'm also a hypocrate and a liar.
(the dead child thing was probably too extreme, as i have never actually been witness to this. Although i predict how heartless i am by how i am feeling now).

I only ask to laugh along with you and agree i'm a failure at life lol.
But it's all good.

STILL in regards to the child thing, I'm a kindergarden teacher and tutor and love it, and they love me.
I simply meant i have an underdeveloped sence of sympathy.

Answer 1

A person that I wouldn't want to meet.

Answer 2

I have no problem with the first five things you typed--those things are up to individuals. You're right, I have no clue as to what a nihilist is.

After those five, I start to see you as an uncaring individual. You understand psychology, and don't think you need any help. You enjoy mental payback, and have no intentions of having a real relationship. You think that life is pointless, and you want to do nothing about that. You care nothing about friends, the holocaust, or even a child's death.
You don't even want anyone to know who you are--and you have no motivation to do anything.

I'd say that makes you anti-social; a misfit in society. This makes me think that either you grew up with no family, an abusive family, or have been in jail for quite a while (or will be soon). I don't know if there is help for you--even if you did think you needed it.

Answer 3

The answer is that you think too much about yourself. you gave
so much information about yourself. Thre is a saying I learned The saying is "only when you beecome nothing than you will be everything'. Suggest read carlos castaneda a book called journey
into Ixtlan. talks about not doing. when you practise not doing than you can see the whole universe as it stands. No self importance. I myself remind myself to stay on this track but self importance shows up in some form or the other.

So what I think is you are hungry for attention just like a lot of people. That is why so much about you was mentioned. I hope I was not rude just trying to help. Good luck. Read books by carlos.

Answer 4

You're dead! OR are u just saying all of this for effect? Have you sold your soul? What sort of a person are you not to care if someone lives or dies. I hope the people you have relationships with know the score.I think that u are kidding yourself that you don't need help. How could anyone look into an innocent childs eyes and not care if it lived or died! I think that u r living a lie but are to frightened to admit it. No-one is that cold.

Answer 5

very lonely and very sad - when you have no empathy for others you have no way to relate to the people around you. What you should do is ask yourself why don't you want to participate in life? What is stopping you from making an emotional investment in others? Why are you so unmotivated? Is there nothing that evokes passion in you? Nothing to make you see that life is a gift and terribly short? You give no sympathy but want to receive it in turn - that sounds like you want others to care as long as you don't have to recprecate. If you think life is pointless, you haven't lived. Please talk to someone soon - if you don't reconcile your today, you will be doomed to repeat it tomorrow.

Answer 6

If you are as deep as you seem please take the time to understand my point because I can’t write it well enough for you, but if you try you might.
You are honest and………..
Depressed, you won’t think you’re depressed.
This is a metaphor of your world
Your life is like sitting in a black box with no light or view, just the restriction of the box that you have never seen out of because you cant see any thing out of your own perception (your own view, feelings and thoughts about the world and universe) all that leaves, is you, so you see is your self and you become the centre of the world (your world). You can therefore have no perception of the world other that your own (you cant see it from any one else’s point of view).
Other people see thing differently (they don’t think like you) this is because their view of life is: a colourful see through bubble with other people and weird and wonderful things, but the reason they see this and you don’t is because they have closed their eyes! They’re in a black box just like you with murder and war and cruelty to animals but they choose to close their eyes and IMAGINE a better world.
For example you can look a murder two ways:
1.Life is meaningless and existence pointless, as not existing death is normal, it doesn’t matter. There’s no heaven and no one will really care when you’re gone. The world is temporary, human existence is a mistake, if murder/ war didn’t happen we would be over crowded any way. Life is expendable, and murder is nature’s way of getting rid of the weak.
But this is the problem with your view of the world if every one felt that way there would be mass murder, suicide and nobody would get out of bed in the morning! So what we do is we self delude to survive, if everything is nothing so nothing is everything, then if life is pointless then life is the point, if life is nothing- its then every thing! It’s changing your view from cold and logical to add your meaning to life.
2.Life is precious in the entire universe in the entire galaxy in all the world, life started, humans exist! Life is abnormal it’s the exception the rule, we have consciousness, we don’t just exist, we are aware of our existence and question it, if there is no heaven then life is heaven its as good as we make it, and so short we should savour every minute. Yes no one will care when were gone so we must care while were here, if humans are mistake they are the most beautiful mistake ever! The love we can feel is a miracle of evolution. War would overcrowd us but what a crowd! What a party (we could always start living on the sea on boats for more space!) murder is not OK and a Childs death cant be logical, its meant to hurt and hurt is natural, yes life fcuks with us and does terrible things but its all we got and life, any amount is better than nothing.
All I did was take one subject and look at it from two points of view, both real, both valid, just two ways of looking at the same thing one from a black box to a multicoloured bubble and you can say the second ones delusional, but who’s happier? All life is about being happy as much as you can and if you can see it for once from another point of view, your be free, your be happy.
I hope you understand even if you don’t agree, you don’t have to I use to see the world like you and if some well wisher came along and told me how to feel back then I wouldn’t listen, its good to think about the meaning of life but at root there is none that you can prove beyond reasonable doubt, you need to make you own, you need find your happiness.

Answer 7

It seems like you don't see the joys of life that most people see and what you wrote really bummed me out. I could really care less if you don't believe in god or how you dress because that's not your personality. But when I read that you like to make yourself seem like a victim or you think your life is pointless I thought it was really sad and pitiful. Those are my true feelings about what you wrote.

Answer 8

If you understand psychology you would understand all of these are a trait of sociopathic symptoms, you show no remorse or guilt everything is about you you you everything you do is for your own benefit never for anyone elses but as you stated your a liar so your probably some waste of space 13 yr old idiot who no one could ever truley like or care about and everyone wishes misery upon you for your life no one will ever truley like you and you'll be left alone and suffering

Answer 9

I don't quite know what to make of you. I think, perhaps, I would like to meet you, to talk with you and understand you more. To look in a Child's eyes and not care - that I personally, cannot and will NEVER understand.

Answer 10

You're an emotionally numbed person. You probably lost your way, experienced tragedy, or lost something or someone you love. Give yourself a break. Allow yourself to love something or someone again.

There are two emotions people live by: Fear and love. You are currently living in fear - you should ask yourself what you're afraid of - as strange as it may sound, you may be afraid of love or happiness or extreme emotions. So, allow yourself some self-love.

Answer 11

Disaffected and apathetic.
Lacking in any appreciation of that which makes you special, humanity.

You are not a nihilist. A Nihilist would not ask "what do you think of me? What kind of person does that make me?" Such questions are meaningless to a true nihilist.

I make these observations without bias or judgement.