Work rudely interrupted Y!A
2007-02-08 07:11:10
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answer #1
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answered by ઈтєlly 7
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I was somewhere, out there, on those yonder nearby hills of my own soul. An impulse was triggered in me then to materialize - I have no clear idea why. So I came into the world and grew up and was involved in many vicissitudes and reveries. I tried to do good things for myself and for the world and I ended up doing many damned stupid things also. Some people I got in touch with denigrated me, others insisted that I should love my fellow human beings and sacrifice my life for them and for my fatherland. I ended up by thinking the unpleasant thought that they all wanted to make me a robot of their own culture and of their own opinions.
I survived thru many decades and did many stupid bad things which I regret and which give me sharp pain when I think about them. I survive this sharp pain only because I think that "if I hadn't done all those stupid bad things I would not be here where I now am at this beautiful place and I would not have achieved all the specific good things that I have achieved". Sometimes I think I did also many good things - I worked for others and with others whenever I was allowed to and had energy to it. I also wanted to attend some schools even when funds for the tuition were not there, and even when school people said to me: what are you doing here, what are you going to use this education for, you don't belong to here, and so on. I persisted and so one day I realized that I could even try to make color copies of my several certificates and diplomas and of other documents of my life, and so bind them into a nice little book that I could keep on my shelf together with all the many good books that I have bought.
I deeply desperately wanted to find myself a love in my young days, but the girls all "pissed" on me saying they were not for me, and some of them even said they were "other people". I found myself a love from very far away eventually and I loved her really confessing to myself that I would even migrate to the coldest Siberia for her sake if necessary. Eventually we became three, four, five ... and in the meantime along my paths in the world there appeared many that thought they might be my love if I wanted them and I had to do as if I did not understand, and I could neither say no nor yes, then I realized I understood the whole matter pretty damn well and that an embarrassing time for revenge had come, and I couldn't do much about that, even if I did not want to revenge for never having been loved in those days when I strongly offered and craved love.
Now I realize that not wanting blunt revenge gives me a temptation of solitude and silence, but I also realize that a form of passive love has definitely "materialized" - where one's heart is open for all, one's person is open for one's family and friends, and one's abstract care wants to be open for the whole world.
2007-02-08 08:22:04
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answer #2
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answered by pasquale garonfolo 7
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Puerto Rico
2007-02-08 07:10:19
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answer #3
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answered by Maniaka 5
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Before I was here I was there.
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2007-02-08 07:10:17
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answer #4
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answered by non_apologetic_american 4
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I was in Denver before I moved to Phoenix
2007-02-08 07:11:05
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answer #5
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answered by linville15 1
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Biology, watching a video hosted by Bill Nye about evolution.
2007-02-08 07:10:47
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answer #6
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answered by Anonymous
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I was over there. And before that I was way over yonder. Even earlier I was right next to here.
2007-02-08 07:11:56
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answer #7
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answered by smilindave1 4
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In the living room doing a crossword puzzle.
2007-02-08 07:13:28
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answer #8
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answered by ? 7
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Downstairs.
2007-02-08 07:11:06
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answer #9
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answered by 4815162342 2
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Cyberspace~
2007-02-08 07:11:03
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answer #10
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answered by Psychotic2 6
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