I've Become Uncomfortably Numb. Can anyone tell me why?

Question

I found out only moments ago that my Aunt passed away... And I don't really feel anything. Lately, like the past 5 months, this has been a problem with me. I've found that I now have very little interaction with anyone, and being sixteen, thats including my friends, because it feels like I always have to be thinking about what I'm doing and how I feel. It feels like I now only think how I feel, not actually feel anymore. I could go through something that most people would find unbearably sad or devastating, as well as drift on through times of immense joy and happiness- and not have it phase me. I'm not really sure if I've just let my worries and thoughts consume me to "the point of no return", to be dramatic (and for lack of better words), but it feels like I've lost any access to normal human emotions... I can't even think of the last time I was happy, or content, or anything. I'm hoping that this is just a phase I'm going through. Can anyone help me cure this numbness?I miss emotion

Answer 1

All of my life I've been uncomfortably numb until thbe last 6 years or so. It was diagnosed as a "Dissociative Disorder" in me. It started when I was abused in childhood and learned how to seperate myself from my feelings both physical and emotional. It made it so that I could stand life. But after using that method all of my life I found that I would disconnect and not be able to get back in touch. Even though my life got safe and good I had built such defences against the painful feelings that the good feelings where blocked out too. It's taken alot of hard work in therapy to get my feelings back and alot of times it feels really strange when I feel an emotion because it's been so long. I lost my temper the other day and yelled ! We all celebrated ! My heart and soul are thawing and I hope yours will too. Don't let it go til you're old like me ! Go to a counselor ! PEACE.

Answer 2

Hi !!!

What you are expressing is an emotion!!! The fact that you are NOT desperate doesn't mean that you are numb!!!

People react different to things, I believe that you are going through some transitions in your life and body, that is keeping your system busy. Don't worry it all will come back to you again!!

But really don't waste your time and energy thinking about, how you feel. Rather experience the moment and live your feeling and let your emotions roll!!! That is part of growing up!!!

A.Z.

Answer 3

I think it sounds like depression.
Ask a doctor. In your case speaking with your mom and asking her to arrange a doctor visit would probably be the correct way to go.
I was in exactly a space like you describe at one time. It was awful because I couldn't feel anything except a fear that I might not ever feel anything again. It did turn out to be clinical depression. It cleared up with a little counseling and no medication.

Good luck and don't stop trying to figure it out. There are answers to be found. You are very articulate and should be better able than most to find these answers.

Answer 4

Your still young, I think we all have had times like that. Things go bad and keep getting worse and I think its our bodies way of just shutting off so we don't hurt all the time. It'd be way worse to be crying all day than to just not care right? I think you should go do stuff with your friends yet. They will cheer you up and once you are happy the normal feelings you used to have will return. All in all this is just your way of dealing with the pain of everything. Good luck and stay safe!

Answer 5

You are probably clinically depressed. Your brain has changed in response to your loss (in order to deal with it) and is not functioning as it normally would. The dopamine receptors in your brain aren't functioning normally. This means the feel good sensors in your brain won't let the endorphines (the feel good hormones) get to the brain and tell your body. To restore this balance, you may need medication and need to see your doctor immediately!
Many people go through this. It is a normal response to your aunt's death. You can do many things to help yourself, as well as talking to your doctor. You need to make yourself do the things your typically enjoy: sports, friends, family, music.
Focusing on these positive things will help return your brain to normal. Most importantly, keep finding people to talk to this about. Talking it over will help you most of all! Be strong! You will get through this...I know, because I lost my mom and struggled too!

Answer 6

You are describing some of the symptoms of depression dear......including "I used to feel sad but now I don't even feel that anymore." The brain will try to make sense of this by coming up with some logical explanations for how we're NOT feeling but in all honesty, I would see your doc and just ask him/her for an assessment.

Answer 7

You're not exactly ill, you just live in a "virtual reality" in your head. Not thinking is very liberating, and you can decide to stop, but your reasons for continuing are there.... just stop, decide and stop. It can be done, Zen meditation can help you get started.

Answer 8

you need to express yourself. you should learn to play an insturment. i suggest guitar.

Answer 9

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