I feel I have two options: Drop out of college or commit suicide?

Question

I'm in the second semester of freshman year...and I have had a lot of things happen in the past two years (mother dying, losing half of my family to anger/control issues)...and I am so depressed and have serious problems just getting to class everyday.

I've thought about taking some time out (1-2 years) to try and get my life in order. Some intensive counseling, medication if need be...and a part-time job or something.

But I feel trapped and crazed going through class everyday, and feeling like I don't even belong there...that there's something better I can do with my life right now. And I feel like I'm dying.

I don't know if I can go through life the way I have been much longer; I think I'd rather kill myself than spend the next four years in this hellhole.

But do I really have any hope of making a decent amount of money later in life, or getting into the colleges I want...if I abort ship right now?

Answer 1

There are several people that feel as you do you are not alone. It is okay that you are depressed it sounds like you have the right to be after all you have been through. Now here comes the but, but you have to realize that this is your life and only you can decide what you need to do to get where you want to be. If college is not right for you right now that is fine take some time off but you are right about your future. Please find a support group for your depression. It sounds like you have fallen down and nobody is there to help pick you back up. I find that living to Honor my mother whom is also gone has helped me. I try to be the person she would want me to be. Find a Dr. and a support group for the depression. Life is worth living if you want it to be.

Answer 2

As i always say, leave the past, live to the future. The future will hold better things.

Yes i tried to commit suicide. 2 month problem with family and friends, AND being a disgrace to my whole family tree (i get low 70's WHILE EVERYONE ELSE IN MY FAMILY TREE GETS HIGH 90's >.<) Sis got scolership, bro got scolership, cousins got scolership. Yes, i was the big dumbass in the family.

A few years later, im still living. You dont know what will happen in the future. You could win the lottery, find 10 dollars down the street, or get kicked off the track team.

Luckily for you, im sure you have better luck than me. Whatever i do turns out bad, failing, droping a $190 MP3 and breaking it, breaking a diamond (i bet it was fake), losing all my bets, etc.

However, always live to the future. You never know what it will bring for you.

Answer 3

If you feel you can't handle school right now, don't do it. You can always go back when you're ready. You won't benefit from your classes when it's so much of a chore you'd rather die than go. I still wish I had withddrawn from my second freshman semester instead of sticking it out because I was miserable every day, hardly went to class and completely ruined my GPA. Worry about your own well-being now, rather than how much money you may make in the future. You want to be healthy enough to have that future.

Answer 4

Well you need to get help, that's for sure. Speak to a counselor or a good friend. Talk to somebody. There's always options. Just because you feel this way now, doesn't mean you always will. I was very depressed a while ago. I hung in and now things are much better. I can look at the sun now and not see darkness. Go for a walk and think. Do something, but don't despair.

Answer 5

Honey, Don't kill yourself ! If I were you I'd take a couple of years and work on myself . Get some counseling and maybe meds.. I always felt that college was too much right out of high school. Work for awhile and get to know yourself and you're interests and talents and you'll be much more prepared to chose your course of study. To quote Jesus,"What does it profit a man to gain the whole world if he looses his own soul ?" What good would it do to get a degree and big career if you're hurting inside ? Lots of rich people kill themselves. You won't have any trouble getting back into school later and if you learn from life you can take C.L.E.P. tests to get credits towards your degree. How can we decide what we want to do with the rest of our lives when we have been controled and told what to think and do all along ? GET TO KNOW YOU ! Peace.