what's this feeling?what should i do?

Question

i am a second child of four siblings, and i have a mother who is sort of a busy woman. during my school years, she never showed up for any of my schooling activities, pta meeting and all that.i never said anything, cause i felt that was alright with me, but when my youngest sis went to the school, she went there practically every weekend, said she's the last kid who went to school, (i already finished school at that time). yet i didnt say anything, cause that kid is my sis and i am a big sis, jealousy is a no-no for me.i started to feel 'funny' when i saw my ma loves to hug my 2 youngest sisters, and never me. but still i didnt want to think negative.few months ago, my younger sis caught fever while she was sitting for her college exam, and ma called twice a day to check on her.now im having a terrible fever, threw up twice today,she never ring me once.my pa did.i am 23, is it normal 2 be sad, or im 2 old to feel sad over this? feel so alone.(my ma claimed she loves her kids equally).

Answer 1

Maybe because you've never said anything she considers you to be pretty independent and not needing her attention as much as your younger siblings. Maybe you should speak gently to her about it rather than keeping it to yourself and feeling bitter. She probably misinterpreted signals from you and acted accordingly. Talk to her, give her hugs (it's never too late to hug your mother!) and let her know you enjoy her company and attention. It's hard being a middle child, especially if you're pretty independent or act independent. She loves you equally, trust me. Best wishes.

Answer 2

It's perfectly normal to be sad. I would be hurt too. I would confront my mom and tell her how I feel.

Answer 3

This is loneliness, a feeling of being detached from other people.

For whatever it is worth, i care about you