I'm 18 and I just don't know....?

Question

I have been through more than most people can imagine, I have really hard depression and most times, i just want to get out of here! I have talked to my doctor, but it doesn't really help when it's night and I need someone to talk to. I am not close enough to my parents to alk to them. I live in Brazil, there aren'ts the bunch of hotlines that you have there.. Most times, i have no one to talk to and I just want to GIVE UP and die!!! I feel like hurting myself! I feel like no one cares!

Answer 1

i care my email is [e-mail] if you wanna chat i have a friend who suffers from really bad depression and i talk to her all the time good luck

Answer 2

Trust me!! Even though you feel like no one would care, I promise you more then just your parents would care! Why would you want to throw away life? At only 18 there is so much to live for. I'm 18 and there have been times I have felt that way, I'm sorry I can't say that I've suffered from depression but I've experienced just wanting to give it all up and die. Like it hurts to much to live. But that's not true. I don't want to offend you if youre not a person that has "faith" of some kind but for me I find that sometimes praying helps. Or writing in a journal, and then either keeping it or burning it. A good web site is www.dmlive.com they have people you can talk to online or on the phone. or you can just go into a room and post stuff kinda like here. But anyway that website has been very helpful to me before so try it. And don't give up okay?

Answer 3

I don't know exactly what you're situation is so its hard to give good advice on this subject without knowing a little more info. But, i used to have major depression and for some reason it was allways worse for me at night. Try to call you're friends when you feel upset or go out and just do something that worked for me. As for hurting yourself I've been through that also its better if you never start. If you have try doing something else. Like for instance i used to cut and the way i stopped was wearing a rubber-band constantly so when i felt like cutting I'd just pop my self. No its not the best of coping methods but its better than seriously hurting yourself. Also if you happen to be a christian (not judging you or anything) try reading the bible at night that helped me calm down and feel more at ease. good luck.

Answer 4

There are a multitude of anti-depressants out there today- you may have to have a few tests done to determine which prescription is best for your condition and your body.

Another thing you may want to look at too, is PMDD (Pre Mentrual Dyphoric Disorder) which causes depression. It's sort of like REALLY bad PMS, that just doesn't go away unless treated properly.

Good luck. Take care of yourself

Answer 5

I'm 16, going on 17, so I may or may not be able to help, but I have been through a few things myself and have been able to help a few friends with their problems as well. If you want, you can IM me at quackinducks2006, or e-mail me at [e-mail]. good luck!

Answer 6

I've been there; well... at a much younger age, but i've experianced that too. && what changed it was a letter i got from my friend. A letter that he wrote to me knowing he was going to die soon [of leukemia]. I'll post it down right here:

Dear Veronika,
If you get this… it means I’m probably dead. First of all I am so sorry. I wish I could be there for you. I wish I could still be your overprotective big brother. You have no idea. I wish that we could still be together, laughing, singing, & dancing in the rain. But we are not. And nothing will change that.
Veronika. You are strong, smart, and fun to be with all the time. I admire your sense of humour, and how you would always see things CAN get worse. I will remember the first day we met. Walking down the street you noticed I was sad. You smiled and made me see that someone cared. You talked to me. You saved my life that day. After that you know we were inseparable, & I couldn’t picture my life without your laugh or your smile. I felt something for you I’ve never really felt for any other girl. A connection. A spark. & it never really faded. You were my drug. I was addicted to your smile. Your laugh. Your beauty. & everything about you. I loved you. I wish I could spend the rest of my life with you. Just share another smile. Another kiss. Another laugh. And another tear. I didn’t know that leukemia was going to take my life so very fast. I didn’t think to tell you, but I really wish that I did. Just for you to know. Before it was just too late.
Being your well “big brother” here is a bit of my last advice to you:
- Please. Stay AWAY from drugs. I know I was stupid enough to start. But smart enough to know that it was wrong. And to stop. Please. You are too smart to do something like that. You are smart. Do SOMETHING with your life. Drugs will bring you down to nothing. They will destroy you. Kill you inside.
- Stay away from John. Yeah. He might have been one of my best friends. But it wasn’t good. He’s a drug dealer veronica. You know. Those scary people. Drug dealers are bad people. They kill. Drug dealers usually end up in jail somewhere. Or dead. Do you want your life to end up like that? No matter how much John begs you to come back, you know that he’s never really changed. He will always stay the same. Its sad. But its true. Don’t waste your life waiting for a miracle that will never happen.
- Suicide. Me & you both know the full on meaning and potential of that word. Veronika, I won’t be there to stop you all the time. You have to realize that you have so much to live for, and you can’t decide when you have had enough. Please. Don’t do it. Somebody always cares. When you feel your coming close tell someone. Don’t hold everything in.
- I know I am not someone to tell you who to hang out with. But this is what I think. DON”T HANG OUT WITH THAT -- - - - girl. She is a bad influence. She’s changed you. I can tell. Friends are supposed to make you better. She’s made you 100000000 times worse. Find other friends. Friends that make you stronger, better, & smarter.
- Never ever let a boy ruin your life. I saw what John was doing to you before. & I couldn’t stop him. It hurt. Please, never ever let someone hurt you like that again. Which basically means; stay away from people that show signs of addiction to drugs, sex, alcohol. Sure you can love. Loving is the only way to live fully. But love makes you blind. And because of that… you might do stupid things to impress stupid people. You are not strong enough to HIDE from love. It will find you. But you are strong enough to decide who you will offer it to.

Heres the thing Veronika. I am dead to the world. But I hope that I will always stay with you. Wherever You go. I hope that you will never forget all the fun that we had. And I hope that you will be able to share with your kids the so called lessons that we learned. I love you with all my heart. I am watching & guiding you. Listen to your heart. And you will hear my voice. Through the hard times, like before

I love you
You are my baby forever

Jess

My wisdom for you life: (from an e-mail a long time ago) Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here, we might as well dance. Every morning when I open my eyes, I tell myself that it is special. Every day every minute. Every breath. It truly is a gift.



I hope this helps somewhat.

Answer 7

The best thing I can tell you to do for yourself is get down on your knees and pray and rebuke the devil. Pray for yourself and your family. And get some help. But always put God first in your life!

Answer 8

you know what crazy i use to feel like that to i sometimes still do.....im learning how to think more positive....just dont give up...i know how frustrating it is trust me ive been there b4.......i understand that whole thing about not being close to your parents im not close to my mom cant say anything about my dad because he left us.........just hang in there dont hurt yourself

Answer 9

don't give up! keep fighting! someone close to you cares, you just don't know it yet. it'll all work out!