When I was 10, a few of the adult women in the neighborhood - including my best friend's mother - came to hate me. The event that scarred me was when they convinced my best friend to hate me too, then set me up so that he would attack and beat me. As he threatened me and punched me in the stomach, two of the women (and my best friend's mother) just stood at the end of the driveway waiting to see me get beaten. They did nothing to try to stop the attack.
Fortunately my mother had gotten wind of what they were planning and was keeping an eye out for trouble. When she saw the fight brewing, she came to the rescue. As she approached us, the two women ran to the back of the house to hide.
Although I had only been punched a few times, the damage had been done. My companionship with my best friend was over. Afterwards those women saw to it that I was ostracized from all neighborhood activities and continuously threatened and harassed by the other kids. I was on my own from that point on. It was the end of my childhood, for my perception of the world changed. It was a hostile, friendless place. Imagination went away. Within a year I had all but stopped playing with toys because I could not imagine anything positive to do with them.
My parents did nothing to support me or assure me that I had done nothing wrong. They simply said "don't hang around with them any more." The problem was, all the kids in the neighborhood were on the side of those women. There was no one else to hang around with.
My sister didn't support me either. Instead she scolded me for allowing them to manipulate me. I was only 10. I knew nothing of such matters.
Ultimately I became convinced that I was going to die. This conviction was strong enough to make me physically ill for a few years. I suffered panic attacks. Because I was still only a kid, I didn't know what they were and assumed they were symptoms of whatever disease was killing me.
At the height of it, a cousin my age died of cancer. It was a horrible death and shocked me because no one told me he was that sick (they were "protecting" me I suppose). My own symptoms worsened.
All of that set the stage for the way my mind worked for the rest of my life. I think it became hard-wired into my personality because it happened when I was so young.
Eventually the episodes of morbidity became severe depression, untreated and subject to scolding by my parents, sister, and doctor who reacted the "old way" to depression.
Now I am alcoholic and close to no one because I trust nobody and have been used to being alone all of the time. I am in my 50's and waiting to die.
And that is why that one horrible event in my childhood changed my life.
2007-02-04 13:18:42
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answered by almintaka 4
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I had my epiphany when I smoked marijuana, it was a bad trip and I thought life was all mentalism and all you do is think of dreaming of thinking of dreaming and etc.... after that, which was 2 years ago, I definitaly went insane, and went to a therapist and have never done one drug, or alchohal, or pills, or hazeing since. I have been clean ever since my first incounter with such a drug. But now 10% of my world is fake thanks to that expierience. that means, thanks to chronic, 10% of the time I drift off into lala land and cant tell what im seeing in the world. not sayin that its a buzz feeling, hell no, im saying its a feeling like everything around you is not real at all. that happens about like 3 to 5 % of the time in my life. I suggest you stay clean, you dont want fake.
2007-02-04 13:00:25
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answered by Anonymous
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Getting hit with hurricane Mitch. It was a category 5 and set over our island for a couple of days. Wiped out a lot of villages.
2007-02-04 11:58:47
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answered by Anonymous
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The day my Dad passed away was the single most devastating event to ever, happen in my lifetime...
It made me see how truly short life is, how unpredictable it can be & how small we really are...
Most of all, his death made me want to "celebrate" each moment of every day as he pretty much lived his life based on what if's. regrets, etc.
2007-02-04 13:35:13
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answered by ViRg() 6
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When I was 10, both of my grandpas died just a few months inbetween. I matured a lot then because I had to help my mom a lot more with housework after the loss, since she was depressed.
It's all good though.
2007-02-04 11:52:48
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answered by Michelle 3
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Falling in true love at a way too young of an age. Screwed me over for years.
2007-02-04 11:51:00
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answered by locomonohijo 4
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9/11. I'm so much more careful about everything I do now, I don't take anything for granted. And, unfortunately, I have a deep mistrust of people like Afghani's and other people of that color.
2007-02-04 12:06:13
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answered by Bud's Girl 6
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the birth of my first child, that's when I started looking at life a little more seriously.
2007-02-04 12:14:02
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answered by marcusm15 2
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Moving and settling down in a new country.
2007-02-04 12:39:42
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answered by browneyedgirl90 3
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family saga. changed my life at young age
2007-02-04 11:57:28
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answered by oscar c 5
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