im done with life?

Question

I feel like I have nothing to live for...Im constantly in emotional pain day after day and I've just had it with it.

I know suicide is the easy way out but i feel that if i continue like this Im going to go even more crazy than I already am.

I always hear of people that dont deserve to die or didnt want to die dying...It frustrates me so much that God took those peoples life away, while I'm here wanting to die for a long time. I wish i could trade my life with those people who have died and deserved to be alive.

I just dont know what to do or think...thats the problem I just dont want to worry or think anymore...I just dont want to hurt anymore

Answer 1

This is an awfully heavy question for this site, but there's got to be something positive in your life, how old are you, you need to talk to either someone thru a hotline, or a friend, someone told me once, as corny as this sounds, "God only gives you what he knows you can handle," Just try repeating that to yourself, but talk to someone. You never said what is in fact troubling you, there's always an answer, but quitting is not.

Answer 2

You didn't say how old you are, if married, have kids. You mention God so you have some kind of belief. There is hope for you, it will get better. I'm a 54 yr. old woman who has a long list of negitives in my life, but, I still have HOPE and that is what gives me a reason to go on. And my hope is because I believe in God. I believe in Jesus Christ. I could sit here and type 10,000 words about faith ,but i won't.
I will tell you some of my problems so you can compare and decide if you should give up or not.
First of all, my medical history. I have had something like 14 surgeries on my abdoman. Four c-sections,gall bladder removed, contless hernia repairs, mesh put in twice,fistulas(which is a hole from one organ into another), part of my colon removed, several abcesses caused by the netting and/or old stitches(the last one took a year to heal). I have literally looked into my belly and saw my abdominal wall!! I still have a large hernia to be fixed and my surgeon wants to put in more netting. When I go to the hospital for any reason, a lot of people recognize me as if i have been employed there.
I also have had 2 heart attachs, one minor and one major(died twice on them). I have had an Athorectomy, 3 stent implants and a double bypass. I have Diabetes, Arthritis(i thenk God it's only degenerative and not rhumitoid),High Blood Pressure, Fibra Mialgia, a disc missing and a ruptured disc in my back. Both my husband and I are disabled. Luckily, we have insurance.
Financially, we are way more in debt than I'd like to admit. Income is less then what needs to go out.
I have 4 kids that don't get along well. If my son is home, my one daughter and her family won't come, I'm lucky to see my granddaughter twice a year and we are only 3 hr. drive away. My husband is a Disabled Viet Nam Vet with PTSD. We have been together for 34 yrs. It's been rough but we are still going strong.
I'm sorry if you feel that I used your question to vent or complain. That is not my intention. I wanted to let you know that no matter how rotten things are or how bad it gets, there is always HOPE!! Life can be frustrating. I know, believe me. But, there is always tomorrow and it could be a better day. Find 1 thing positive each day, and don't give up. Maybe tomorrow will be a little bit better. Good luck & God Bless!!

Answer 3

Gosh that was some raw pain. I could feel it in my heart just reading it.

But, there's hope. Believe me, there really is. The fact that you decided to write here and the fact that people respond should be proof enough that we're all connected in some unknown cosmic way.

Life is precious, dearie. Even if it seems a burden right now, things can and will improve.

I suggested this to someone else too a few seconds ago - try Norman Vincent Peale's book s on the power of positive thinking and living.
It's worth a try.

Let me also tell you one other thing . The most destructive of all human emotions is "self-pity". It eats away at your will to fight and succeed until you finally give up altogether. Self pity serves no purpose other than destructive ones. Get out of that mode - shake off the past , put it behind you and walk towards a bright burden-free future that holds so many promises.

It's a blessing to be alive, dearie . Good luck.

Answer 4

You wrote alot, but didn't really say anything!! Like what is making you so upset, and depressed? What kind of emotional pain are you talking about? Where/ When/ How did it all start? Every minute of every day, everything is changing! Whatever is bothering you right now, will soon be in your past! People's brains have their own way of dealing with the type of pain you are talking about, and it usually takes some time, but you WILL eventially get over it. I felt the same way a long time ago. Then eventially, I got my life back, and am happy I am still here!! You will be too, it just takes time, and friends to help, understand, and support you. A few with good shoulders to cry on kinda helps too! It really helps to talk, and get it out of your system, so you can start fresh. Good-Luck, and hope to see you around here again later!!!

Answer 5

I'm not quite sure what to say but here goes I don't know why you wont to do this but in your mind it must be the thing to do now can you give more details on why its the thing, i don't understand why!! Your in emotional pain well what happened to you, how can anyone help you if we don't know what we are looking for? Now I don't know how old you are or any thing like that where do you live I live in NEW MEXICO and NO you don't need a passport to come here! I am at work and the bar is busy tonight. Now what is so wrong is your life that makes you wont to end it tonight if you don't do this we could talk so more tomorrow night I work at night and will be here until 1 30 am monition time so if you wont to talk E mail me and maybe i can help![e-mail] I hope i here from you i don't have all the answers but i do lesson and that the thing you need right now

Answer 6

Hi Betsy,
I'm sorry you are going through a bad patch. We've all been down in life. I don't know how old you are. If you are a teen, I can tell you that your brain's chemistry is probably the most challenging thing you will face in life right now. Either way, you are reaching for help in this forum ... that is good... take that reaching further and talk to a professional. Seriously, this way of thinking is as dangerous as heart disease. You MUST seek some help. You are most probably going through some depression and a short prescription to snap you out of it and put you back on track may be all you need. Please make an appointment with your doctor ASAP and don't feel shame... this is real!

Answer 7

You can try to live without hurting others. Or you can be more flexible, more tolerant with yourself. Just because you aren't the best doesn't mean you're not good. Just because you hurt others doesn't mean you can't help them too.

You are possibly experiencing depression, or it could be an emotional phase you'll get through over time. If you have good reason to feel hopeless, then you need to work through and solve the problems facing you. That could mean long talks with friends or family, maybe even therapy. If it's a real medical problem, you may need to talk with a doctor about getting into treatment for clinical depression.

In any case I hope you feel better and find something to aim for.

Answer 8

You are NOT the ONLY ONE with problems. I am sure everyone on here has felt like giving up to a certain degree including suicide at some point.

I don't feel sorry for you, suicide is a selfish decision. I don't know if you have a caring family, husband and kids. If you do, you are willing to leave them behind and sort through their emotions of dealing with pain that you left behind to deal with.

Life goes on after you die, nothing stops, the only thing that stops is time for you. People are going to grieve about your death and move on. I think you should really seek counseling and spiritual guidance.

This is pain, life is pain. But what hurts you makes you stronger. I have witness the immediate aftermath of suicide of a loved one, and all I felt is anger and pain. Trouble doesn't last always. So whatever you are going through won't last forever. You need to fight and work through this.

Answer 9

Betsy...I'm positive you have a fantastic purpose in life. What i advise you to do immediately is move away and start another life or figure it out with a councilor... Is this family problems or harassment? Either way there is something you can do about it! We are women! We don't let men push us around! Be strong! Stand up for yourself! If you do commit suicide it would be taking the stupid way out. Do you have one person just one that you can confine in? if you do then tell them everything! No problem is too small none too big! You deserve to be alive so much that it's not funny! it sounds like you have been through a rough patch! I can tell by the way you write that you are a strong women! You can pull through!

Answer 10

Hate to play logic to you. I see events in life as either within or beyond your control.

If I were born in a very poor country and starved to death as a baby, that is beyond my control. If I get hit by a truck and die, I have no control. If I have cancer tomorrow, I have no control either. I yield that to a supreme being.

But I do have control over my weight or life style, finishing school, or move to another location to change my environment. I have learned that blaming others usually doesn't make the problem go away. I have also learned that I would rather take an eventful life than eventless one. And an eventful life means ups and downs and uncertainties. I call that life. I win some and lose some and I learn not to cry over my losses. Feel blessed that your glass is NOT empty and not complain about it not full.

Answer 11

Hurt is a strange thing...it can last forever. I know that is not very comforting at this point in your life but it is true. My mother took her life more than six years ago. My father died 28 days later from what I always thought was a broken heart. I don't think I will ever recovery from that period of time. I always felt that I was alot like my mother. In fact I have considered taking my life on a number of occassions. My line of work forced me to face family separations on a daily basis. Then came the physical pains of sickness. I had a triple by-pass and I am a diabetic at risk of losing both of my leggs. My wife and I have lived through a fire and I felt I had reached the bottom I think at some point I began to question my beliefs. Why my mother...she was a good person. My father was a deacon in the church. No one could even start to give me answers to my questions. I began to get angry at people that were happy. How could they be happy when my world was falling apart. I am still not sure! But my youngest daughter gave me two beautiful grandsons. My youngest son gave me a beautiful grandaughter. Now each day I only hope that they grow up happy and safe. But more important I hope to be there with them as they grow older. I guess my point is we never know whay is in store for us in the future. I can only hope that you find the relief that you seek and God provides you with a reason to live.