I cheated ..with my x what does that mean..Help?

Question

Here it goes , I broke up with my x like 2 years ago for the simple fact of her having her attitude that she gonna due what she want even if it has to do with not repecting me. She never felt like she was wrong for anything almost. But the truth to the matter is we had our ups and downs, but when we had our ups Our souls connected and she became my best freind for a 1yr 1/2. But she eventually wonder off following behind her friends and countiuned on her spree of hanging with basically the wrong crowd, what I consist of the type of wrong crowd is a negative crowd, and life behind bars crowd. So eventually we broke up because of it, for like a month. In the month time span I met someone who I fell for and she was in the moment of a break up to.But eventually me and this someone went our seprate ways back with or mates after this month. We kept in conact but keep it descrete.My x kept at her ways so much that one of her so call friends bought her a luxury truck.So eventually we seperated

Then Me an the girl I kept in contact with eventually got together and now we are engage 2 yrs later. I went throught a lot of drama with my X ,from tryin to fight my lady to curse at her etc..... But eventually things calm down. She went her ways I went mines. But while I went mines I found that she have touch parts in my heart that was hard to reach. My lady is the best person in the world and she always try her best to help me out with what ever I need. But she only been in few relationships nothin compared to me. I found it hard for me to connect with her even after all of these years we connected for a while and then eventually it became just sexual. We barely kiss and she clam she dont know how to really,we tried to work on it but it doesnt get to far where I feel a connection. For a while my heart was beating for my xx but i blocked it out mentally where eventually my feelings became num.. but I still felt love.I know I love my lady and she know she loves me. Next page

From time to time I find myself chatting with my x online and our minds are on the same pattern. She went through a few up and down relationships sense our break up .But she admits that I was her best friend and from a friend of mines bares witness to it. Yesterday I found My self out her house just kickin with her. This isnt the first time I chilled with her sense our break up,The honest truth is we just chilled and basically talked like adults instead of children for all the faults and things that went wrong. I was basically looking to understand this void I had in my heart what made all my love tendences feelings go num...because she was the last that felt me at my best when In love.Plus I relationship did not have any proper closure to it,so it basically left both of our hearts wide open at the end with no feed back. So yesterday I decided to chill with her because after talking to her I felt a little better. Well basically we ended up tonuge kissin for hours and sex ..

What I was truthly lookin for is if we still have a connection.Me and my lady talked about these feelings. It something like a broken heart feeling that not to many people can fill. Its like Me and my x was married and divorce to where it felt like a dream,and sometimes I find my heart hurting and its annoying & she have a kid thats not mine but I was the most close thing to a father that the boy every knew , he was 4 when we seprated but he was so young he did not know what was going on .But his memory of the time we shared still played a part of his life because he mentioned my name to this day about the time we spent to her from time to time. Well anyway I found feelings that I did not know was there and I can see my life dramatically taking a turn. What Would YOu dO "Contiune to see her or Leave it alone."

Answer 1

You are a sick puppy.

Answer 2

You're right about one thing that was some drama. Now I'm about to tell you the truth; a woman that acts like that will never change the way she is. Funny part is I'm willing to bet money she tried to change you. When she said that she was going to do what she wanted, even if it meant disrespecting you; you should've figured it out then. I know you probably loved her, but there comes a time when you just have to let a woman go and say to yourself "**** it." If she was going to continue to do her thing, Then let her go and you do yours as well. When you met that other woman you should have stayed with her instead of you two going back to each others prospective partners. When you go back you're just opening yourself up to more bullshit. Believe me when I tell you, nothing makes an ex-girlfriend or wife more angry than to see you gettin ya shine on. Eventually, she'll get jealous and want you back just so she can stop you from gettin yours. You see what happens when you go back.....nothing changed. For future references, when a woman acts like that drop her, keep movin forward and don't look back.

Answer 3

dunno
but you should be glad that you arent with her.
If this so called friend bought her a TRUCK!
he might be drug connected and he might kill you if he knew that you were messing with his 'stuff'.
NOBODY buys someone a truck and they are just friends.
so on top of being a prostitue (prostitue=money/goods in exchange for services) she is a liar too!
YOu should be glad that she is someone elses problem. If this is really your 'soul mate' you might consider changing faiths. She lacks quite a few characteristics of a decent person. (faithfulness, honesty, integrity etc) and at times, she brings out the worst in you.
Ask yourself would you feel this way if she was UGLY
(seriously)
I am sure what you like most about her is the way that she looks (or sucks you)
but you said yourself she had a shitty personality
there is nothing else you could have possibly seen in her!

Answer 4

your clearly not in love with the girlfriend, u are in love with your ex, we can't choose who we love, past circumstances matter little when a person is in love. your ex will never change u know this don't u? even love would not tear me away from a good relationship, if i knew what the other relationship was. your searching for just the right one, but u first need to work on u, because they say we attract people just like ourselves.

Answer 5

well maybe this is a indication that you and her really need some time away from each other. her mood swings and her ways arent what being in a relationship is all about. find someone who will respect you in any way you need.

Answer 6

Move on.. You guys are playing games. Someone has to grow up and out of this relationship...

Answer 7

It means you are a cheater plain and simple. I cannot even keep your story straight. Good Luck!

Answer 8

It sounds like you need to be with your ex and that you fall for people too quickly.

Answer 9

You were just looking for something familiar.

Answer 10

You are a cheater that is what it means!!!