No, I am not being dramatic. The last 2 years of my life have been hell. I have lost everything and the person who I thought cared really don't. No home, no job, no life, even my cat. I am tired of trying and going nowhere. Tired of crying cause it don't help either. Praying, I think God forgot who I am and well there is nobody left. Why am I here? Just to suffer and make everyone else miserable. Forget medication, can't afford it.
2007-02-02 09:27:48 · 51 answers · asked by ENCHANTRESS ROSE 2 in Family & Relationships ➔ Marriage & Divorce
That is the saddest thing I have read all year.
:-(
I am REALLY sorry that life is so rough for you just now...
I understand that you are worn down by the events of the last two years and that you see no point just now but you have to go on.
People don't just cease to exist and their legacy undo itself!
I would NEVER suggest that you are being too dramatic and I wish the unkind words already posted could be undone.
Whatever your reason for being on HERE when you are homeless (folks- ever heard of internet cafes and friends' home computers?!?!?!) and without gainful employment you DID make the effort and that counts for something.
I believe in "intent".
Intent is when you put out a plan for your own future and believe in it to the exclusion of all else. Perhaps you have taken the first step in making a change to the current "place" you find yourself in- your unloved state, your homelessness and joblessness and have come here to be given just one word which will let you move forward from today.
I have had the very worst year of my life in 2006 and I know it will probably not be the last but I am hopeful that 2007 is going to be better.
I am worn out and so I can at least empathise with you. It is SO hard to move forward under the circumstances but you will.
Can I tell you what I recommend you do? Go outside and find ONE SINGLE good thing about your surroundings. I don't know WHERE you live but I spotted the most gorgeous full moon tonight (5pm GMT) and it made me pause and think how lucky we are to have such a beautiful planet.
Then breathe VERY deeply and feel the cold (or are you in warmer climes) air cut your lungs.
THAT is what it is about. Life is taking one breath after the other for no reason but to "be".
Medication may need to be explored... I know you say you cannot afford it but what to do?
You DO need someone else to "hold your hand" and help you make progress here!
I don't know who this might be- maybe somebody in this ether of the net or perhaps a neighbour or a family member? Everyone has family.
When you have taken that breath consider walking for a half hour.
Just walk.
And think what you can do to move forward.
The mechanics of walking are good for thinking. It removes you from those negative thoughts and helps to promote positive, helpful thoughts.
If you are particularly down about the person who you feel has deserted you then do something about it- you should communicate this disappointment and let them own a bit of your "disillusionment" because you cannot just fade into grey here!
What happened with your cat? Pets are a grand way of remembering that we have responsibility to the world around us in our care for them.
No home? WHERE are you living? This will pass- if you have the option to return home for a time then DO it. If I were your parent (and I am a parent but not of an adult. Yet) I'd DIE to think of you so unhappy! I'd want to shelter you!
Job? OK- I think first things first- you need to pull yourself up first before you can "give out" just now. Taking a small break from being a providing "adult" is not a bad thing.
No life? Yes, you DO have a life. Just feels awful just now but it is your ONE chance. Life is not a rehearsal and before you know another year will have passed and you WILL (I know you will!) reach a point where you will look back and want to kick yourself for the "wasted" time just now. So- make sure it is not wasted- make something happen. Something small but positive.
And remember- you are not alone. You are not the ONLY one who feels blue and hopeless. You are not the first and you will not be the last. And life WILL go on. And get better.
Promise.
2007-02-02 09:31:37 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 8⤊ 2⤋
For the past few years, I have had a case of depression that I couldn't shake. I went to see a counselor and I got some meds, which I took for about two months. However, I found that I needed to do more than take a pill...I needed to live and love. I understand that you must feel real down because you feel like you have nothing, but, you really do, you have LIFE. It isn't easy to come by and you can't go to the drugstore and buy it...you are blessed to have opened your eyes today. I suggest that you force yourslef to wake up and sing "This is the day that the LORD has made." then go out and look for a job, HELP YOURSELF and believe in nobody but you and the Creator. God didn't forget you, He is carrying you through, you just need to understand that. In 10 years, even in another 6 months, your life will have changed dramatically from today and the thoughts you have now will be irrelevant to the wonderful life God has planned for your tomorrow. Pray without ceasing...in that, I mean , pray when you feel blue, pray when you need help, pray, pray, pray...We have a wonderful Father in heaven. I will be thinking of you.
2007-02-02 09:42:05 · answer #2 · answered by LaRae 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time.
I wish I had some good advise but the only thing that I can think of that really kept me from ever attempting something bad was that I really believed that I would go to hell if I killed myself. I believe in God and I'm know he loves you and is there whether you feel it or not. We all have horrible things we go through but I think in the end it makes us a better person. You don't make everyone else miserable. I'm sure you are a wonderful person that something rotten has happened to. If I were you, I'd go get another cat and say heck with that guy. Just take one step at a time. I promise, it will get better.
2007-02-02 09:41:31 · answer #3 · answered by slo1970 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
God helps those who help themselves. You were given life and gifts and you are sitting feeling sorry for yourself instead of DOING something about your situation. Think about the people in New Orleans. Think about children who have cancer or no limbs and who still smile and go to school and make people happy. Think about women who are abandoned with little kids, who pull up their bra straps and make great lives for themselves. Sorry but yuo ARE being dramatic. You can read and write. You have a computer or access to a computer. you have a brain because you know how to set up an account and use this Answer forum. Maybe instead of sitting around and hitting the internet, you should be going door to door and getting a job. You aren't dead, so you do have a life, you just aren't giving it any value or any energy. Medication isn't the answer. Fresh air and a better attitude are. Work at McDonalds with a smile and some energy. Heck, people who stay with that company for more than 2 years can get into management and those McD managers make MAJOR BUCKS believe it or not! No one should get a handout so stop asking for one. Get off your butt and get going!
2007-02-02 09:45:19 · answer #4 · answered by Wifeforlife 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Wow been there! I was locked up for a while because of a suicide attempt, they helped me see that nothing is worth dying over. I made it a point to find something positive each day and go from there...sometimes the positive was that my ceiling was still not down on top of me, or that my clothes fit, or I could taste the food I ate. Then I thanked God for that little thing. Pretty soon I started noticing little things like the color of the sunset, or a butterfly that landed a foot away from me.and thanking God for those too. After about a year I was thinking much more positive and I found work again and became a productive part of society.
2007-02-02 09:36:11 · answer #5 · answered by Serenayowlerlove 3 · 3⤊ 0⤋
Sorry, sounds like you put on my shoes by mistake. I really do understand what it is your going through and how your feeling, sorry, said it once, twice, and I realize sorry don't make you feel any better, or the problems disappear. try thinking of it like this, God only gives us as much as we can handle right?Well then you say that you've had two years of Hell, then theres got to be some sort of light, hope, or good in store for you,( you just so happen to be a person who can handle ALOT) . But you can't give up hope, you can't quit trying, or living your life, you gotta hold your head up, and fight. It sounds crazy, I know, but as long as your fighting in this game called life, you'll keep moving up, to the next level, all the way to the point of no more rounds to fight. Right now you just so happen to be in a level, or fight that never seems to end, but God don't forget anybody, and he knows your breaking point, for what ever reason your being put to this test, only he knows. So I don't really know if i answered your question, but God loves you, and knows that when you get through it all what didn't kill you only made you stronger. Just give it time and you will know what I'm talking about. If you want to chat, or need someone to listen, drop me a line. Keep your head up.
2007-02-02 09:58:12 · answer #6 · answered by D lux 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Lisa, you sound like me about a year ago. Today, my life pretty much still sucks, I've just learned how to deal with it. I have learned that everything we go through is for a higher purpose, for a reason. It's the hard stuff that makes us who we are. Sometimes we have to go through things, so we can help someone else through it. Sometimes it's just a rite of passage to make us stronger. Remember, "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger"! "This too shall pass." You are here for a reason. You have a purpose. No, you're not here JUST to suffer and make everyone else miserable. Can you honestly say you haven't uplifted ONE person with your experience? Can you honestly say, you haven't laughed one good belly wrenching laugh in spite of your pain? Can you honestly say that? You're here because you're supposed to be here, PERIOD. When HE decides your not needed here anymore, he'll take you out, but for some reason he hasn't. Instead of focusing what's ALL WRONG (I used to do that too)...focus on what's alright. No, I didn't say ALL right...I just (just) alright. Focus on that. Act as if things are better, and you will make life follow you. There will always be challenges, and for some of us there are more than a few...but do you know what I've learned? For everyone of us that have had a sh*tty life, there's somebody out there that can top us off! If you read, get Melody Beattie's book, "Language of Letting Go". Try to ignore that it's written for Alcoholics and Addicts, and listen to the words in the daily meditations. Disregard what's not for you, but this book has CHANGED MY LIFE. No matter how bad it is, it could always be worse. Like a soldier who got killed on his mother's birthday in Iraq and is her only son, or maybe a soldier who suffered terrible burns all over his body, or a person who lost their child today, or their parent, or someone living with cancer, just trying to survive. There's ALWAYS something worse out there than what we have. By the way, Now, pick yourself up from the ashes, and make life what YOU want it to be, because the power is in YOU. By the way, God hasn't forgotten you. Even when he can't see him, he can still see us!
My fortune cookie today:
Good timber does not grow with ease; the stronger the wind, the stronger the trees.
2007-02-02 09:41:37 · answer #7 · answered by a_lot_smarter_now 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
If it makes you feel any better...I'm 34 no Job for 3 years now, married with 2 kid's ages 8, 12 and collect disability, my Transmission died in my used car I just payed 600 for, and lasted me 3 months. now I have a used Chevy Blazer I payed 300 for that I spen't another 80 on for a tune up, and it won't start now. The DMV is telling me I can't register it without an ID Card for insurance, so I had to wait another 3 days now. Meantime I can't drive it anywhere, it won't stay running. Been stuck here in this run down apartment for 3 weeks now. No Money, No Job, I have Depression, and Add/ADHD My wife even has Bi-Polor.
2007-02-02 09:35:57 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
You need a change of pace, a change of scenery, and a fresh start. If you have friends or family out of state that you can move in with for a few months until you get back on your feet, I'd go for it. Get a new job, make some new friends, and be the person you want to be. But just know that NOBODY is going to do it for you. It's a sink or swim world. Splashing around only wastes time and energy. So make it happen!!!
2007-02-02 09:31:07 · answer #9 · answered by ? 4 · 8⤊ 0⤋
You are a bit depressed, and yes there are a lot of reasons to keep going. Its all about angles, how you look at life, and how you keep yourself going. It makes us who we really are. As for the friends, they all seem to check out when you need them the most and this is how you know if they were really friends to begin with. I would suggest you see a Dr. for your depression, and that does not mean you have to go on medication. Try to volunteer at something you enjoy like children or old people or rocking babies in a nursery at a hospital, you must do something to give you a smile in your life and before you know it you will be meeting all kinds of people that will help you. Hope this helps Take care Heather
2007-02-02 09:33:19 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 1⤋